Ch.1- Her Kind Words and Support

Rogue's POV

"Everyone that I know thinks that I don't have any happiness in my life, but they're wrong. I have 2 sources of happiness. One would be my cat Frosch and the other is my one of my only friend's Sting. Though both of our parents choice odd names for us only his parents ever seemed to care for him. Mine on the other used too beat me until I couldn't stand. It was nothing surprising, but as soon as I turned 16 I turned them in and I started to live on my own. To help me out Sting started to live with me and his parents would help us out with whatever we'd need. Though that was 5 years ago. Though the memory still makes me smile. Sting is like a brother that I can tell everything to, but I've never told him the reason I hide my right eye or the reason I always cover every inch of skin I can thougH I won't wear turtlenecks or scarves of the sort."

"And why do you do that?" A small azure haired woman asks with with nothing but support across her face.

I look at my arms and answer her slowly and unsurely, "My body is covered in scars and not a nice sight to be seen. My right eye is pareto blind so I don't want him to have a hint of what's wrong with me."

"Alright now tell me Rogue, what are you really hiding from this Sting? There's more too it than old scars. Are their newer ones? Why had you been ordered too come see me?"

I scowl at the memory of my estranged older brother, Gajeel, coming over and telling me that I would come with him. I bet the asshole is still outside the door.

"My brother dragged me here. He told me if I didn't stop my bad habit that he'd have me see a shrink."

The woman leans forward as she places one of her hands over my own, "What habit?"

"I cut myself," I answer slowly embarrassed by my horrid habit.

"How did your brother know?"

"He found out when I was 11. He caught me doing so. I promised him I'd stop, but I lied especially after he turned 16 he left. I didn't have his support. Though he said he'd come back when he could, but I'm not sure why he didn't show up until I was 16. I hate him."

The woman's face lowers as she answers, "Him leaving was my fault. I had no idea what was going on, but at 16 I got pregnant and your brother left too keep me safe."

I look at her shocked, "Though I lost the baby a little bit after that. I was down right depressed for a few years and Gajeel was scared to leave my side. Though the 2 of us had finished school like we needed too and even went to college. When I got better he tried to look for you, but your parent's decided to move and he didn't know where. It was when he had read in the paper of them going to jail that he knew where to find his lil brother." There's a moment of silence before she asks, "How did Gajeel find out you hadn't stopped?"

"He caught me the other day trying to kill myself," I whisper.

The woman looks shocked and saddened by my words, "How did you feel after your brother saved you from that?"

"I was pissed at first. I mean the metal head dragged one of his friend's over to patch me up. When she was done he made her promise not to tell anyone that he was going to help me out. After she left he told me I'd have to come too see you or else he'd tell Sting what I've been doing while he's out of town."

"So this Sting is out of town and you try too kill yourself… Why?" She seems curious and worried for my answer.

"I just wanted the memoried too end. They come back to me when I'm alone. I cut because I dream of all the beatings every night. Though when I'm alone there's nothing that I can do to help myself. No matter how deep I'd cut I still hear their voices and feel the pain they inflicted on me."

The woman doesn't take her eyes off me as she looks at me straight in the eye holding a kind of air around her that is surprising, "Listen here Rogue. I'm going to tell you something and I want you too agree too it."

She waits for me too answer so I simply meekly nod my head.

"Alright, when Sting gets back I want you too tell him everything that you've told me today. IF he's so close to you he can be a pillar for you too lean on and maybe help you let go of your past."

I shake my head as I whisper, "I can't. I can't' do that. I can't tell the person I love most in the world that I'm hurting myself behind their back."

She doesn't even flinch at my outburst. Her face doesn't even give off a hint of disgust as I basically come out too her as being gay.

"I don't see what's wrong with telling the one you love that you're hurting. Also from that look on your face I guess you haven't told Sting of your preferences."

I shake my head, "I can't. He hates gays."

She looks at me with her head tilted to the side, "What gives you that idea?"

I take a deep breathe as I tell her the story of the only other gay boy I've known in my life. He was on our basketball team that Sting had forced me to join with him so I kept my cutting too a minimum during that time. Though when the team found out he was gay even though he already was dating they started to bully him. Sting was one of the worse ones.

"What makes you think Sting did what he did that day?"

I shrug as I stare at the light teal carpet playing with the bandages that are sticking out of my shirt.

"Alright, let's leave your confession to him for another day, but I still want you too tell him a bit about your cutting. It's not good to have things bottled up Rogue. It can make things worse. Trust me when I say this that being all bottled up is not a good thing what's so ever."

I chuckle as I look up at the now stern looking woman as she asks, "When does Sting get back?"

"Sunday," I answer her quietly wondering why this woman who I don't know without trying gets the truth from me so easily.

"Alright, that's 5 days from now. I want you to sit down with him and talk."

I shake my head and she asks, "Though I don't see groups you can bring him in here and talk to him and I can help with whatever you're okay with."

I look at her and I can't help but let out a small smile, "I think I'd like that better than being alone."

She nods her head as she looks at me, "Alright, I'll set up an appointment for you for next Monday the day after Sting gets back. Though Rogue I want you to stay with someone so you're not alone for I can have my husband back."

I smile softly as I shake my head wondering why I didn't know he was married… Cause when he does try to talk to me I ignore him. I mean he only came over yesterday cause I accidentally called him.

"Alright then… I want you to come stay with us. Not as a patient or anything, but as family. I'd like to know my brother-in-law."

I agree too her offer figuring I can just go home whenever I got tired.