"Do you remember when you said you'd date a girl version of me?" Evan said suddenly and Vinny looked up at him in confusion. That was incredibly random, it took Vinny a minute to remember what Evan was talking about. It had been just after things had started to go weird. They had all gone for a hike with their friends and some fans to try and relax. Evan had gone exploring off of the path balancing along the trunk of a fallen tree, and Vinny had yelled to Evan that if there was a girl version of him he would date them. Evan hadn't reacted so Vinny hadn't even been sure Evan had heard him. Obviously he had.
"Ya I remember." Vinny said awkwardly, he had felt a bit weird about that afterwards. He and Evan were sitting together on the couch in the basement. A little closer together than might have been necessary but they both needed comfort. Habit had disappeared for almost a week now as he sometimes did but that only made them both more anxious. It meant he could be back any time now.
"I've been thinking about that a lot recently." Evan commented pulling his legs up and wrapping his arms around them.
"Why?" Vinny prompted after a couple of minutes of silence. Evan blinked coming out of the daze he fell into sometimes. He looked around as if reacquainting himself with where he was and what was happening before he continued.
"It's just… Habit doesn't give a fuck about his female children because he only wants to possess males. If I was born a girl he would have just killed me right away or ignored me. If I was born a girl you all might not have known me and then you'd be safe, Jeff wouldn't be dead or Alex. If I had lived as a girl and you had known me… we might have.…" Evan trailed off. Vinny looked at him in shock, noticing that Evan was blushing a little before Evan hid his face in his knees.
"Evan you…?" Vinny trailed off helplessly making a small confused hand gesture before draping one arm over Evan's shoulders comfortingly. Evan leaned against him without hesitation. He felt so small tucked against Vinny's side. "You like me that way?" Vinny asked and Evan nodded without lifting his head. "Since when?"
"Ages." Evan said shrugging, his voice muffled as he spoke into the fabric of his jeans.
"Why didn't you tell me?" Vinny asked.
""If you were a girl I would date you."" Evan quoted hopelessly. "But I'm not a girl so I just didn't mention it."
"Oh Evan." Vinny sighed unhappily, he had no idea that what he said had hurt his friend, or he never would have said it. "Then why are you telling me now?"
"We're the only ones left." Evan explained. "Either of us could die any time and I just wanted to be totally honest before… something goes wrong."
At a loss for words Vinny turned to him, wrapping his other arm around Evan, pulling him closer. They had always been affectionate with each other Vinny realized. Evan had always showen more affection to Vinny than almost anyone else, now Vinny knew why. They sat quietly like that for a long time while Vinny tried to figure out what to do. He loved Evan, he had for ages, but he had never been sure what kind of love it was. It had been easy to pass it off as brotherly love but was that really what it was?
He had always had less interest in girls than the other guys he knew. Maybe….
"I don't think it matters so much that you're not a girl Ev." Vinny said softly. "I think I just said that because I was worried it would matter to you and the others. But you're right it's just me and you left so if it doesn't matter to you, it doesn't matter to me either."
"Really?" Evan asked, his head jerked up to look at Vinny with wide eyes. Vinny's heart twisted when he saw hope in them, he hadn't seen Evan looking hopeful in months. It disappeared quickly though and Evan narrowed his eyes suspiciously pulling away from Vinny a little. "You had better not be saying that just cause you think it'll make me feel better. We're being honest here right?"
"Ya we're being honest." Vinny agreed quickly. Evan studied his face closely before relaxing and leaning back into Vinny.
"Well that's something huh?" Evan said chuckling softly, a real one for the first time in ages. Vinny felt himself reflexively give Evan a little squeeze. "I've been thinking about how this might go for days and I never even bothered to imagine it going well. I guess that really says something about my mental state huh?"
Vinny felt emotion constrict his throat. Even though Evan had always acted like the tough one, Vinny had always wanted to protect him. The fact that Evan had been so broken down and Vinny hadn't been able to do anything about it hurt more than anything else. Without thinking Vinny leaned forward and kissed Evan. After a moment of shocked stillness Evan relaxed and kissed back, uncurling slightly so he could wrap his arms around Vinny's shoulders.
Evan's lips were soft and warm as they moved hesitantly against Vinny's, letting him take control. Vinny was a bit surprised that Evan wasn't taking this chance to be in control since he so rarely was, but he accepted it. It felt like warmth was entering him from Evan's breath, filling up places inside him that had been empty for so long he had forgotten they even existed. He felt Evan give a small gasping moan and realized that he must feel it too.
Before Vinny had realized Evan was moving, he was pressed against Vinny's chest, straddling his lap to bring their faces to the same level. It was Vinny who broke the kiss when Evan ran his hands down Vinny's arms suggestively.
"Evan what are you doing?" Vinny asked breathlessly and Evan shrunk back suddenly retracting his hands.
"I'm sorry, I just got carried away because it's been so long since I've… and we can never be sure we'll have a tomorrow." Evan stuttered out and started to pull back even farther when Vinny put his hands on Evan's waist and pulled him back in. Their lips collided again. Harder this time and Evan gave another small moan that, judging from the blush that spread over his cheeks, was entirely unintentional.
Vinny cautiously let his hands slide down to Evan's hips and Evan hesitantly returned his arms to their place around Vinny's shoulders. He slid his hand through Vinny's hair and Vinny gave an encouraging hum, licking Evan's bottom lip to silently request entrance. Evan opened his mouth to Vinny instantly allowing their tongues to meet halfway, Evan tilting his head slightly to make it easier. When Vinny ran his hands down the outside of Evan's thighs it was Evan's turn to pull back, but he didn't pull back far. Vinny opened his eyes and looked at Evan, noticing that he was flushed and panting slightly, his pupils wide with lust.
"Are you sure? Much farther and we won't be able to back out." Evan asked pressing against Vinny. It was obvious he was desperate for this, but he was still giving Vinny a chance to back out. Now Vinny was sure that this was the way he wanted to love Evan, this and every other way possible. Vinny leaned closer to Evan and kissed his neck making him gasp and tilt his head back, baring his throat to Vinny.
"Of course I'm sure." Vinny murmured back between kisses. "Like you said, we can never sure we have tomorrow."
The next morning Vinny woke up in a tangle of limbs. Evan was laying in front of him, tucked against Vinny's chest. Vinny's arms were wrapped around Evan, and he was curled so tight around the smaller man that every part of his form and Evan's back were pressed together. Evan's lips were parted slightly, his breaths even and slow. Vinny smiled, nuzzling his nose into Evan's hair content to stay still until Evan woke up.
A half hour later, Evan's eyes opened and he looked around, his expression blank. Vinny wasn't sure why, but something made him stay quiet, and he pulled back a bit. He could tell something was wrong and he didn't want to believe he knew what it was. After staying perfectly still for a few seconds, Evan turned over and looked up at Vinny. His expression stayed blank for another moment before stretching into an overly large grin that was definitely not Evans.
Vinny jerked away from Habit, but Habit grabbed his arms, twisting above Vinny and pinning them beside his head. Vinny squirmed uncomfortably as Habit looked over first himself and then Vinny, raising his eyebrows.
"It looks like you two kids have been having a bit too much fun without me around to supervise." Habit laughed his gravely laugh. He leaned down and Vinny pressed back into the mattress to try to get away from him, unable to bring himself to struggle. He knew better then to fight Habit, it only ever made things worse. "I admit, I wasn't expecting this." Habit said looking over the both of them again. "I didn't know you liked this body."
Habit stared down at Vinny expectantly and Vinny stuttered something indistinguishable. Habit laughed, leaning down so close to Vinny that the feeling of the hot breath on his neck made him shiver.
"If I had known, I would have taken advantage of it a long time ago." Habit growled and then he licked Vinny's neck from his collarbone to his jaw.
"No." Vinny whimpered, turning his head away from Habit and closing his eyes tightly.
"What's the matter Vin?" Habit laughed, letting go of one of Vinny's arms, confident that he still wouldn't move it. Habit rubbed his now unoccupied hand down Vinny's chest, making Vinny whimper again. "This is the same body you were fucking last night. It's not even like you're doing that unfaithful thing that humans make such a big deal about."
"You're not Evan." Vinny argued, clenching his fists.
"Well spotted." Habit taunted sliding his hand down farther to grope Vinny.
"Don't touch me." Vinny half shouted, pushing Habit and kicking away from him. Vinny fell of the bed and scrambled to his feet, trying to make a break for the door, but Habit was there again. This time he was pressed against Vinny's back, his arm wrapped around Vinny's throat too quickly for Vinny to follow, and then he couldn't breathe. Habit slammed Vinny into the wall front first.
"Huh, maybe this isn't such a good thing." Habit mused as Vinny struggled for air. "I thought you had learned better then to fight me." Vinny gasped when Habit finally released his throat, he knew that Habit expected an answer.
"I have." Vinny promised quickly. "I have, just… just please, don't do this." Vinny whispered, his forehead resting against the wall.
"This?" Habit questioned, but Vinny could hear the smile in his voice. "Oh! This?" Habit asked, before his mouth latched onto the side of Vinny's neck, biting down gently and sucking in a way that made Vinny bite back a moan. Habit reached around Vinny's front and started groping him again.
"Yes, that." Vinny gasped. "Please don't do that."
"Okay." Habit laughed and to Vinny's surprise Habits hand retracted but then it returned this time on his ass.
"No." Vinny whispered, squeezing his eyes closed and pressing his forehead harder against the wall, his hands clawing the paint.
"Let's play a game, huh?" Habit purred, and Vinny chocked back a sob. He wasn't going to like this game, he knew it. "The game is, that every time you tell me not to do something to you, I'm going to do something worse. Do you understand?"
"Yes, I understand." Vinny sobbed.
"So what was that you said?" Habit asked and again, Vinny could hear the grin in his voice.
"Nothing." Vinny whispered. He could feel tears starting to squeeze their way out from under his closed eyelids.
"That's more like it Vin." Habit purred. "Now, will you come back to bed for me?" Habit said in an inviting tone that sounded too much like Evan, but then it lowered again. "If you don't, I will fuck you on the floor right here, and trust me, that will tear up your knees."
"I'll come." Vinny said, his voice cracking awfully.
"Good boy." Habit murmured, but even the praise was mocking. He pulled away from Vinny, letting him step away from the wall, then took his hand and dragged him back to the bed. Habit pushed him down onto the bed, then reached to the nightstand where Evan had known Habit kept lubricant. "Lay on your stomach." Habit ordered, and Vinny did what he was told.
If he tried to run, he wouldn't get anywhere anyway. He had tried already and he couldn't leave this house without Habits say so. Maybe he could hide but that wouldn't last long. He would get hungry, or thirsty, or Habit would manage to sniff him out, and then the consequences… He didn't even want to think about what the consequences would be. Habit had made Vinny watch while he worked for Vinny to have a healthy respect for Habit's knives. He knew that Habit could make him willing to do anything to make the pain stop without causing any permanent damage. No, it was better to skip that step and just obey now while Habit was planning to be at least half nice.
"The fighting earlier was just a one off, huh?" Habit commented, spreading Vinny's legs so he could settle between them. Vinny whimpered but didn't resist.
"Yes." Vinny mumbled, grabbing handfuls of the sheets under him.
"I thought I had already broken you." Habit purred hoarsely, bracing himself with one hand on Vinny's shoulder, before Vinny suddenly felt one of Habit's slick fingers prodding at his entrance. "One night with our little Evan isn't enough to change that." The finger pushed inside Vinny and he buried his face in the covers, muffling his sobs.
"Relax Vin." Habit whispered as he slowly finger fucked Vinny. That Vinny could obey, he tried but he couldn't seem to manage it. After a minute Habit added a second finger anyway. Vinny could feel the fingers brushing against his prostrate with every thrust. His blood rushed to wake up both that and his cock, which was quickly hardening despite his best efforts. Soon he was moaning between his sobs, before Habit withdrew his fingers.
"Turn over for me, pet." Habit ordered affectionately, and moved back a bit. Hesitantly Vinny obeyed. He didn't want to, he knew that Habit could tell he had been crying, but that didn't mean Vinny wanted him to see the tears. When he did turn over he was greeted by the sight of Habit carefully applying lube to his dick. Vinny sobbed again and covered his face with his hands. He felt when Habit leaned over him, close enough for Vinny to feel his warmth.
"Don't hide from me, pet, or I will cuff your hands to the bed frame and leave you here as long as I want to." Habit purred and Vinny could feel him lining his cock up with Vinny's entrance. Reluctantly Vinny uncovered his face, unsure what to do with his arms now. He let them lay at his sides. "Good boy. Now do you want me to fuck you?" Habit asked, his grin growing even wider. Vinny remembered the game, if he said no, then what would Habit do to him?
"I said, do you want me to fuck you?" Habit asked, his face contorting into a angry grimace.
"Yes." Vinny whimpered, or tried to, but it came out hardly intelligible through a sob.
"I'm sorry pet, I didn't quite catch that." Habit said threateningly, grabbing a fistful of Vinny's hair and pulling it hard enough to make Vinny yelp. "One last chance whore. Do you want me to fuck you?"
"Yes." Vinny yelped immediately and instantly Habit's grimace turned back into his usual smile. He let go of Vinny's hair and instead ran his fingers through it almost affectionately.
"Good boy." Habit praised again. "And good thing too, because if you hadn't said so, I may just have summed you'd rather be fucked by one of my knives." Habit purred, pushing his dick deep inside Vinny. Vinny yelped and arched up off of the bed. Habit grabbed Vinny's shoulder with one hand and his hips with the other, using the leverage to bury his member in Vinny's body.
Vinny gasped like a fish out of water as his body got used to the feeling, but this was better then a knife by a long shot. Habit licked some of the tears off of Vinny's cheek while he stayed still, giving Vinny a chance to adjust, which he was grateful for. When Vinny had relaxed a little, Habit started to rock his hips back and forth slightly, pulling out only about a half a inch before pushing back in. The friction made Vinny's toes curl and he let out a moan. Immediately he blushed and looked away, but Habit grabbed his chin to stop him.
"Don't hold back. I'm going to make you scream one way or another. It might as well be with pleasure right?" Habit said, staring straight into Vinny's eyes. Vinny sniffled and nodded, meeting Habit's intense stare as best as he could. Habit grinned and pulled back even farther before thrusting back into Vinny almost too roughly. Vinny arched and moaned, closing his eyes. At least he could pretend that the situation was different, however Habit's next thrust broke that as it was rough enough to be painful, making Vinny yelp and grab Habit's shoulders for support.
"You're pretending to be somewhere else and I don't appreciate it." Habit growled, and Vinny opened his eyes, looking up at Habit fearfully. "You are here." Habit said, thrusting into Vinny hard again. "I am the one fucking you. No one else. Understand?" He demanded, keeping up the same punishing pace that was bringing on a fresh wave of tears.
"Yes." Vinny sobbed. "Yes, I understand Habit, I'm sorry." As soon as Vinny spoke, Habit slowed down again to a steady but manageable pace. He shifted his angle slightly. His cock was running against Vinny's prostrate with every thrust. Again and again, Vinny moaned, his legs bending automatically, giving himself better leverage to move with Habit. He didn't try to stop these reactions, he could tell they made Habit happy and the happier Habit was, the less likely he was to hurt Vinny.
"I am so glad I didn't kill you, Vin." Habit muttered distractedly as he rutted against Vinny. "You're worth all the trouble you've caused me and all the time I spent breaking you."
Vinny didn't answer besides with another sob, but he didn't try to close his eyes to stop the tears from coming. Habit licked the tears off his face again and Vinny gave a small whine of protest, before Habit hit his g-spot particularly hard and the whine was cut off by a near scream. He could feel pleasure and heat building up in his gut. He hated to admit it, but this was a new sort of pleasure to him and he wouldn't last long. He started to move back against Habit more frantically, but just when he felt like he was on the brink of cumming, Habit grabbed the base of Vinny's cock tightly to stop him.
"Oh no you don't. Not without me." He growled as he kept thrusting into Vinny at the same speed, making Vinny writhe with pleasure and the need for release.
"Please." Vinny gasped desperately.
"Please what, pet?" Vinny wasn't sure what Habit wanted so he didn't answer. "What do you want, little bunny?" Habit purred.
"I want to cum please." Vinny pleaded, and Habit moaned over him, giving an even deeper thrust.
"I'll let you cum when I do, pet." Habit answered, his words slightly slurred with pleasure. "But I know what would speed that up." Habit grinned wolfishly, leaning down close to Vinny's ear. "If you called me master."
"What?" Vinny gasped but his thoughts were beginning to get clouded with pleasure.
"Or daddy, whichever is less repulsive to you." Habit laughed and Vinny shuddered. He couldn't could he? But then again, he had been taking orders from Habit as if Habit was his master for months. Maybe it didn't matter at this point if he just said it aloud. "So, one more time. What do you want, my little rabbit?" Habit asked.
"Please, master." Vinny moaned and rocked back up against Habit as he thrust. "Please let me cum."
"Oh, you really are the best pet I've ever had." Habit laughed and started thrusting faster. Vinny could feel habit's cock throbbing. "Again." Habit ordered.
"Master." Vinny moaned as Habit's thrusts became more erratic, though they still hit Vinny's sweet spot almost every time.
"I'm close, pet." Habit assured, but Vinny was incapable of answering now. His mind was too far gone. Finally, Habit let go of Vinny's dick and Vinny screamed, arching as Habit thrust into him three more times, bringing his pleasure to a new height as he came. Habit's teeth sunk into his shoulder and he could feel Habit's dick twitching inside him as Habit came too. Vinny shuddered at the feeling of the warm liquid squirting inside him, before going limp.
Habit stayed on top of Vinny, panting slightly before pulling back. Vinny gasped as Habit pulled out. Habit flopped down on the bed next to Vinny and slowly drew his fingers over Vinny's neck, tracing the veins where he could feel Vinny's blood pumping quickly through his body.
"I'm afraid that was too much fun for me not to do again." Habit laughed, getting up off the bed and looking for his clothes. "I guess there are some situations where it doesn't pay to be good at sex huh?" Habit laughed, and this time Vinny didn't answer at all. Instead, he turned over onto his side and curled up into a ball. Habit just laughed at him again as he pulled on a pair of pants, and then left.
A/N this is my first time ever writing smut like this so please give me any feed back you might have.
Thank you to Tim-wrights-ass for editing this for me.