Harry Potter stepped into Uncle Vernon's car. He doesn't normally talk to the Dursleys, but he isn't always quiet. He normally teases how Dudley's diet is going, or how Uncle Vernon's business is going, or what's been happening with the neighbors to Aunt Petunia. But this year Harry didn't say anything. This year Sirius Black fell into the veil, never to return or to smile ever again. Harry just stared out of the window. Harry was so quiet Dudley asked, "Aren't you going to say anything?" The Dursleys all had that on their minds. Why was Harry being so quiet? Dudley's cousin turned from the window and said, "Why would I?"

Those three words made Dudley see that Harry wasn't himself. First of all, he was a lot quieter, and second it seemed to strain Harry to say anything. What was wrong with Harry? What happened to him? He wasn't like this when he saved my life last year. He wasn't like this at all.

At the time Harry was thinking about Sirius Black. Harry's last hope of having a good life was over. He didn't even hear Aunt Petunia shriek to get out of the car because he was thinking about his beloved godfather.

When Harry got home, he went straight into his room. He promised Ron, Hermione and Remus that he would owl them a letter as soon as he got home.

Harry wrote, "Hi guys, I'm fine. I got home safely. You don't have to worry about me because I won't do anything stupid." He let Hedwig out of her cage and gave her the letters. "Give this letters to Ron, Hermione and Remus. Okay?" Hedwig nipped Harry's finger and looked at him with her big brown eyes. She took off with his letters with one last look at him.

Later that day, Aunt Petunia called Harry down for dinner since he refused to make it. Harry went down and sat at the table. Dudley was still on the diet so everyone was too. Harry didn't eat much or listen to Uncle Vernon talk about his work. After fifteen minutes of staring at his plate, he tried to excuse himself from the table. Uncle Vernon barked at him for not eating anything. It wasn't that he cared for Harry; it was because he didn't want any food wasted. Harry pointed out that Dudley ate it since he wasn't allowed to leave the table because as Uncle Vernon said, "Your Aunt didn't make this food for you to waste it! Sit at the table if you're not going to eat!"

Harry sat at the table and stared at the wall. Harry usually fought back with Dad. Why wasn't he now? What happened at his school? Dudley thought.

After fifteen more minutes Harry still didn't say anything and Dudley couldn't take much more of it.

Harry was never this quiet.

"Will you say something Harry? You're driving me mad! What the hell happened at that school?" Everyone was looking at Dudley. Dudley never cared for Harry.

Harry shook his head and said, "Nothing you would care about."

Uncle Vernon said, "You answer my son when he's talking to you boy!" Harry was getting mad. He just wanted to go up into is room and never come out. Uncle Vernon yelled, "Answer him boy! Or I'll…"

"Or you'll do what? Hit me? I don't care what you do to me! I don't care at all. You can put me in that cupboard, not give me any food! Whatever you like."

Harry's sudden outburst shocked everyone. Harry said, "I'm leaving."

Vernon found his voice and barked, "You're not leaving until you tell me what happened!"

"Why would you care? Why would you ever care? You've never cared about me up till now! Why the change? I like the other way you treated me!"

Harry was near the stairs when Aunt Petunia asked, "He died didn't he Harry?" Harry froze in his path.

What did she mean? How did she know? Harry didn't want to be here any more. He ran upstairs, collected his things and ran thru the front door.

When he got far away he pulled out his wand and pointed it up to the sky. Out of nowhere the triple-decker purple bus came to a stop right in front of him.

Stan just stepped onto the ground when Harry pushed his way into the bus. Stan fallowed Harry and asked, "What floor?"

"Top floor Mr.…." Stan asked.

Harry replied, "Potter, I want to go to-"

"Are you running away again?"

Harry shot Stan a look and said, "I want to go to the Leaky Caldron now."

Stan didn't want to argue with Harry because of the look on his face. Harry dragged his things to the top and then they went flying toward the Leaky Caldron.

As soon as Harry got off, he handed Stan eleven sickles for the ride over. He pushed open the Leaky Caldron door and went up to Tom and asked for a room. Tom asked Harry that shouldn't he be with his aunt and uncle. Harry explained that there's a show in muggle London that the Dursleys want to see and they didn't want to leave him alone at their house. Harry told Tom that he told the Dursleys there was an "inn" near by and he could stay there. The Dursleys knew what he meant and let him go here. Tom accepted this and showed Harry to room 13.

The next morning, Harry woke up to Hedwig peaking at the window. Harry walked over and opened it up. He saw that she was angry at something. He found out a second later. Pig had just flown into Harry's head like the first time he saw the little gray owl. Hedwig snipped off the letters and flew to her cage that Pig was already in.

Harry remembered who gave Ron, Pig. Sirius had given Ron, Pig because Ron's rat was a traitor to the Light and Sirius tried to kill him for it.

Harry opened Ron's mail first.

"Harry where are you? You said you wouldn't do anything stupid? We know you lost Sirius, we lost him too. It's not your fault. Go back to your uncle's house. At least there we know where you are and can get you out of there and still know where you are."

Hermione's letter was not much better. "Harry you really have to go back. What if Voldomort finds you there? A lot of muggles, wizards, and witches would die because you were there. We don't want you to be killed or murdered, Harry."

Remus sent a howler. Harry didn't know what to do. Open it or not? He didn't have a choice because it burst open.

"HARRY JAMES POTTER WHERE ARE YOU? IF YOU DON'T TELL US WHERE YOU ARE THEN YOU HAD BETTER HOPE I DON'T GET TO YOU FIRST!"

Remus's letter shook Harry up. Why did they care? Because they don't want me hurting anyone! Harry opened the last letter. It was from Mr. Weaseley.

"Harry as soon as you tell us where you are we have to take you back. I can't say where but you have to anyway. Harry we all lost someone. You're not alone."

Harry was very angry. I am alone. Nobody lost a family member before but me! Sirius was the closest thing to a father to me, and now he's dead. I'm not going back to Grimmauld Place!

Hedwig snapped Harry out of his thoughts. She was pecking at his head, since she was on his shoulders.

"Ouch! What are you doing?"

Hedwig flew off his shoulder and landed on Harry's trunk. He didn't want to write to anyone. He just wanted to be left alone. He felt another peck on his head so he fetched his ink, quill, and parchment. Harry wrote, "I will not go back to Grimmauld Place! I can't go back there. There are too many memories there." Harry tried to end it there, but Hedwig pecked his head again. "What the bloody hell did you do to my bird? She won't send my letter!" Harry thought for a moment. He could say that he was going back to his uncle's house or that he won't tell them where he is going. Harry didn't even hear another owl come in until Hedwig woke him up again.

Harry saw Errol on the desk. He knew why he was there but he wondered what the Weaseley family could say now.

"Harry we know where you are. We're coming soon and you better watch out because you know what you did and the consequence won't be pretty."

Harry couldn't believe what he read. Why was Ginny threatening him? She doesn't have anything to do with him. But he did have to get out of here. "They will be coming soon." Ginny can be so scary sometimes.

When Harry got everything together the door burst open and Ron, Hermione, Remus and Mr. Weaseley came in. Harry didn't know what to do. He couldn't run, hide or escape. Harry was looking at Remus. He didn't like the look on his face. Everyone was mad looking but Remus looked like an angry parent and Harry was the child. Harry couldn't look at Remus. He looks so much like Sirius when he looks like that. He turned around. He didn't want to cry in front of everyone.

When he turned around again his eyes were red and a few tears were rolling down his checks. Remus knew what Harry was thinking. A few times before, somebody would make the comment that he could look like Sirius when he made the face he was making.

"Harry you have to come-"

"No! I can't go back there. I can't."

Harry didn't look surprised but scared. Ron said,

"Harry you didn't kill him."

"I went into the trap. Voldomort knew I would go there if I thought…"

Harry couldn't finish the sentence. He called Hedwig to his arm. She flew up to his arm and Harry said to everyone but looking at Hedwig.

"Everyone left me. Mum, Dad, Cedric and now Sirius. I can't loose any more friends. I can't loose any more."

Nobody knew what to say. Hermione tried.

"Harry, nobody left you. Voldomort killed them, you didn't." Harry turned away and lay down on the bed.

"But I did. I took the bait. I can't go back there. I really can't." Harry said softly. Mr. Weaseley tried but didn't get far.

"Harry…"

"I CAN'T GO BACK THERE! DON'T YOU UNDERSTAND? HE SAVED MY LIFE AND DIED BECAUSE OF IT! I CANT GO BACK TO HIS HOUSE! NOT AFTER WHAT HAPPENED!" Harry yelled while getting up and turning around.

"Harry people saved your life before. You're allowed to be saved; don't take Sirius's death as a punishment." Ron said with a firm voice. But Harry would still not go back to Sirius's house.

"You would have to get me there unconscious."

Just as he said that, Harry backed up into the wall because everyone had the same thought.

Why not get him there unconscious? It would be easier.

Hermione walked up to Harry and gave him a hug. That was all they needed to stun Harry. Harry struggled with Hermione, but she had a firm grip on him. She moved just in time and pushed Harry toward the bed when Mr. Weaseley yelled, "Stupefy!" at him. Harry fell on the ground at once.

Ron said, "I don't like watching Harry like that. I've never seen him like that before."

Mr. Weaseley said, "Well Ron, he lost possible the last family member or guardian that truly cared for him. I don't blame him."

"But I've never seen him like that before. He never did that before."

Remus looked down at his feet. He found a will and a note on Sirius's bed. It said that if anything happened to him, Remus could be Harry's godfather.

Remus walked over to Harry's limp body and put him on the bed.

Hermione asked, "What's wrong Remus."

"I'll tell you at the Order." Mr. Weaseley went down and paid Tom for Harry's stay.

Mr. Weaseley Apparated to the Order to tell everyone that Harry is coming. Ron and Hermione helped Remus with Harry's things. They went to the closest fire and Remus called, "Grimmauld Place!" with Harry floating behind him. Ron and Hermione followed his lead.

When they got there, Harry was being brought up to the room where he and Ron stay. Remus didn't want to wake Harry before reading the will to everyone but Fred, George, Ron, Hermione and Ginny. He felt that Harry wouldn't be as mad if his friends didn't know too. He also knew that that would only be worse if everyone and Harry didn't.

Sirius's will was that Harry, Ron, Hermione and the Weaseley's get 2,000 gallons. That Remus was to be Harry's new godfather, which his house was to be used for the Order until Harry turns of age to get it. When Remus was reading the will, Ron, Hermione, Fred, George and Ginny were to wake up Harry. If things go too ugly they were suppose to get the adults.

The plan for upstairs was that Ginny would be the closest to Harry since she could handle herself. Ron and Hermione would be in the middle of the room so if he did get Ginny, he would have to get by them. Fred and George were stationed at the door incase he got by everyone in the room. So to make sure none of them were going to get in trouble, there was a charm on the room so no one would have to face a hearing like Harry.

"What do you think we should say when he asks what's he doing here? I really don't want to tell him the truth." Ron asked.

"Yeah, I've seen when Ginny gets angry and Harry won't be much better." George said with Fred sympathetically nodding.

"Yeah, it can get really ugly with Harry too. Hermione, remember when we brought up him teaching? Or when we brought up the times when he was being a hero? I wouldn't really want to be the person telling Harry where is or what he can't do. Good luck to you Ginny."

"Oh thank you Ron, I feel much better about this. Hermione, you could do this. You know more spells then I do. You could easily calm him down."

"Ginny I could if I wanted to face him when He's this upset and angry. You can handle him because you're stronger then me. Of course I will know more spells then you ever would, but you earn this job."

"Oh thanks guys. You're a big help."

"Hey if you get knocked down, we're right behind you." Ron said with a smirk.

"Okay let's just get this over with. I can't stand Harry being like that this." Hermione said.

The Weaseley's and Hermione got into position. Ginny said, "Ennervate". Harry blinked.

"Where am I?"

"You're at Grimmauld Place Harry. Please don't be angry with me! I didn't do anything!" Yet. Ginny said flakily fearful.

"Your not who I want, its my friends in back of you. Hello Ron, Hermione. Oh I see you have your guards here too."

"Hey Harry that's not fair. We didn't do anything to you!" Fred and George said in unison.

"IF I WANTED TO TALK TO YOU I WOULD! THOSE TWO BETRAD ME! I CAN'T STAY HERE! YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND! I CAN'T STAY HERE!"

"Harry don't yell. Why can't you stay here? What's wrong here?" Ginny asked.

"I CANT'STAY HERE GINNY! IT'S THE LAST PLACE WHERE WE WERE! ALL OF US! I CAN'T DO IT. I can't do it." Harry sat down on the bed and sobbed. "This is the last place where Sirius and everyone were happy together. I can't take it. I already have nightmares about Sirius's ghost comes to haunt me. Saying that I killed him. Saying that he will never forgive me." He said in a defeated voice. "That's why I can't stay here guys."

Nobody had any idea what was troubling Harry. Remus thought that he might have problems with the house, but not like this. The Order downstairs heard everything. How Harry blew up at Fred and George, how he revealed it all to Ginny.

Tonks said, "I thought he would tell Ron or Hermione not Ginny. Mr. Weaseley, look out for Harry and Ginny together."

"I never knew why Harry was like that. I thought it was because he had felt bad or still had dreams. I never knew that he dreamt of nightmares that bad." Remus said. Mrs. Weaseley was crying in a corner saying, "Oh, I never knew" or, "How dreadful".

Upstairs, Harry was trying to escape but his friends wanted him to sleep.

"Harry you look so tried. Why don't you lay down."

"No Hermione! I can't do that. I've already told you."

"Harry you don't have to start avoiding everyone again, do you? Hermione's already here, she can't get you to come back out of a room."

"Ron don't start too. I don't need this."

"Yes you do!" Everyone shouted in unison.

"Ahh. Move Fred, George. I want to get out!"

"We know-"

"-that's why we're blocking you."

"What do I have to do to you to get you to move?"

"Stand still." Ginny said.

"What? Hey don't point your wand at me. Let go guys."

Fred and George were holding onto Harry's arms while the others were trying to think up a spell or potion that would get Harry to sleep.

"What about the Sleeping Draught? Won't that work?"

"Yes, but Harry would figure out what we're doing and he wouldn't eat."

"What about- er – never mind."

The group went on like this for a while. In that time Harry grew louder and louder. Not even Fred or George could shut him up.

Ginny got really sick of Harry's complaining after the other two ran out of ideas.

"Harry will you shut up? We're trying to help you, you prat!"

"Well your brothers aren't making me comferbul Ginny." Fred and George were now sitting on Harry while he was face first on the bed. Ron laughed while Hermione and Ginny tried not to.

"Can't one of you three help me?"

"At least you're on a bed Harry." Ron said then everyone but Harry cracked up. At the moment he looked like he was going to curse one of them.

"Okay, okay don't blow up on anyone. Fred, George get off Harry and keep him quiet." Ginny said through a grin.

They both adopted their evil grin and leaped off their friend. Harry shot for the door but didn't make it farther then two feet outside the door because he ran into Remus.

"Harry what are you doing? Oh, running away are you?" He said with a smile. The group was at the door way.

"Thank you Remus." The twins said while dragging Harry back in. Fred whispered something to Harry and his face paled.

"I'm going to lay down. Don't let those two come anywhere near me."

The group left the room, not wanted to disturb Harry.

"What did you say to Harry? He's actually asleep!" Ron asked Fred during dinner.

"Can't say."

"You told George, why can't you tell me?"

"Because you're my little bro." George said with an annoying smile.

"Ignore them Ron, we have more important things to do." The twins were looking insulted when Hermione asked Remus a question.

"Remus, do you know when Dumbledore is coming?"

"He should be coming later today. Why do you need him?"

"Its about Harry. If there's a way to make a spell, then we know how to make Harry sleep." Remus looked very interested and he asked one word.

"How?"

"Well if we can make a spell to get anyone asleep, then it would be easy. It would be better then "stupefy" because Harry would be asleep instead of knock out." Ron was done trying to get the information out of the twins.

"Why is Dumbledore coming? Order meeting?"

"No, I have to tell you kids something."

At the end of dinner, Dumbledore showed up. Ron, Hermione and Ginny walked up to him.

"Professor Dumbledore, can we ask you something?"

"You just did, but you can ask another one." He said with amusement.

"We were wondering if you could make a spell for us or show us how to?" Ron asked.

"Is it for Harry?"

"Yes, he won't sleep because he has nightmares about Sirius." Ginny said with a pain in her eyes.

"Well a person form the Ministry of Magic would have to he there when you test it, but it is possible. I can try and see if somebody will be open."

"Why can't Dad watch us?" Ginny asked.

"The person would have to be from the Department of Law Enforcement. I will try and make an arrangement for you three."

Remus called everyone in the living room as soon as Ron, Hermione and Ginny were down talking to Dumbledore.

"Can someone get Harry down here?"

"We'll go!" Fred and George said in an instant.

"I don't think that's a good idea guys." Hermione said while the twins were climbing the stairs.

"Harry-"

"-wake up!"

The twins walked into the room and thought they saw him asleep on the bed. What little did they know that Harry was in the corner under his invisibly cloak, watching them.

"Harry old man, wake up!" Fred called.

"Harry…where are you?" George called.

Hermione, Ron and Ginny where the first up there.

"What do you mean, 'Harry where are you'?" Hermione asked franticly.

"Do you see Harry on the bed Hermione? No. We know he couldn't of gotten out or we would have heard him leave. He could be in any of the rooms. We need to split up and search every room." Fred said.

When Remus and the few Order members came in the group where coming out. Mad-Eye Moony wasn't there or he would of seen Harry in the corner.

"Do you know where he is Ginny?" Remus asked Ginny as she was the first person out.

"No, we don't. He was asleep when we left but he's not here! Where is he? He still thinks it's his fault that Sirius died." Ginny was crying.

"We'll find him Ginny, don't worry. We'll find him." Ron said while hugging her. "And I'll beat the snot out of him for doing this." He said under his breath.

Hermione, Fred, George, Ginny and Remus heard this. Nobody said anything to this. They all knew that Harry was upset about the death of Sirius. That he was almost a father to Harry. Loving, caring and he didn't want anything bad happening to Harry, but doing this to his friends. To hide from everyone because he felt bad.

Harry heard and saw everything. How Ginny cried over him disappearing, what Ron said and how nobody said or did anything to his best friend.

Is that all they care about is that I only defeat Voldomort? Is that all I'm good for? I guess so. When I thought I had friends or family that cared for me, not the person who is the only one to kill Voldormort, I don't. Harry thought darkly. They die or they don't exist.

"Is that all you care about Ron? That I don't do anything stupid?" Harry's voice came out of nowhere. Ginny looked scared but then angry flashed over.

"Harry how could you think that? You disappear and then get angry with us? Who do you think you are? We should and are angry with you for doing this! Come out from under your cloak now Harry!"

When he didn't, Ginny walked into the room and started to "look" for him. Harry couldn't move because instead of moving and looking, she yelled the stunning spell over and over where his voice rang out. Harry was jumping, bending and once a back bend to not get hit. Ginny either to hear him or hit him. Her first wish was answered when a thud came from a corner of the room. She smiled only a smile when she had the upper hand when she was getting pick by Fred and George.

The twins saw this and warned, "Harry watch out. That look isn't good."

"Ginny is there any other way Harry could come out safe and not cursed? He's upset and doesn't know what he's doing you know." George pleaded.

"Talk for yourself guys. I'm not upset or don't know what I'm doing. I don't care what happens to this world or me. If it doesn't want me to be happy, I won't care what happens to it. Maybe I'll drop out like Fred and George, or get blamed for something I didn't do and get sent to Azkaban like Sirius. Or not go to school. If nobody wants me, I won't be here or anywhere. I'll let Voldomort kill me and get over with my life. What do you think of that Ron? Is that what you want? You can worry more then Hermione and that's saying something. You can have all the fame you want. You and the Weasley's can. You can witness me getting murdered by the man who wants my life over. I don't care what happens to anyone anywhere. Let them all die. Let Dumbledore handle it like he all ways does. He can keep the secrets from you and I won' t care."

Ginny who still had her wand up was crying. Almost everyone was. To hear Harry say that he'll willingly let his self be killed was too much.

"Harry don't say those things. Think about what you're saying. Would you really give up your life just because you're not happy?" Remus said louder and louder. "You would give up your life because you're not happy? That's a laugh or it would have been last year. Last year that would have been the last thing on your mind. Right after Sirius death, I would think about him! How he wouldn't turn back on the world he tried dieing to make better!" He said one more thing that he spit out with disgust. "And to think that you are James Potter's son."

Everyone turned to look at Remus. Remus wouldn't have said that if Harry really said something wrong.

Harry was speechless. How could he have said anything like that? How could Harry James Potter son of James Potter say he wanted to be murdered because he wasn't happy? He tried to say something but his mouth wouldn't work.

All of a sudden there was a great gust of wind in the room. Everyone had to turn their heads away. When they could see into the room there was three new people in the room: Lily Potter, James Potter and Sirius Black.

A/N.. Hey this is Problem Princess, this is my first fanfic and I really would be happy if you reviewed. If you have any questions, leave your email and I will try and reply asap.