A/N: Ok, so I know I have like a million stories started and haven't been working on them but this idea came to me while I was reading fan fictions, actually I have to credit it to, JewelzisWeird and her story In Your Arms. The reason for this is I saw the words Mike, and the words dream, haunting again, and happy to wake. So this is dedicated to JewelzisWeird!! Oh, and I want to make It real clear that I DO NOT like BellaxMike pairing!! I just wanted to try it out!! Don't flame please, if you don't like don't read!! Criticism is welcome though!! Oh, and if there is anyone who would like to be my beta for this one, I am looking!!

Amber

BPOV

I was having a dream yet again. I loved these dreams where I was just surrounded by Mike. How I loved him. I wish I was with him everyday of my life, but how could I possibly tell Edward and Jacob that I wanted to be with Mike? I guess I would just have to figure it out.

2 months later

Telling Edward and Jacob that I wanted to be with Mike was the hardest thing I have ever had to do. How could I betray both of them like that? Telling Edward had to be the hardest. I can remember it like it was yesterday.

Flashback

"Edward, can I talk to you" I was laying in bed with Edward's cold arms enclosing me.

"Anything for you, love" He was so caring I don't know how I could do this to him, To Alice, to ANY of the Cullen's.

"Edward," I sat up and pulled away from him. "I…" Why couldn't I just blurt it out?? "I … I don't want to be with you anymore." There, I said it. I saw the anger and grief flash in his face.

"Wh… Wh…What?" How could I do this?? I was such a terrible person!

"Edward, I can't be with you anymore. I can't do this to you. You deserve better, and I like someone else." I said the last part really quite hoping he wouldn't hear but, I knew he would.

"Who?" that's all he wanted to know? I just broke his heart, and all he wants to know is who?? What the heck? If he really wanted to know who, I would tell him. I knew he hated mike but I had to be truthful.

"Mike" I could barely get it out.

"Ok, if that's your wish." with that he kissed me on the fore head. "I love you Bella." he kissed me one more time.

"Wait, Edward I still want us to be friends, I still love you all as family." I couldn't bear losing all of them. It was my entire fault but I wouldn't be able to live without all of them.

"I'll ask them. But for us, right now I don't think that is possible." with that he left. He opened the window and left. The window was still open blowing cold air and rain into my room. How in the world could I do that to him? I busted out in tears right then. All I could think about was how I had hurt him. I went downstairs and called Alice real quick.

"Hello Bella," She said it with almost a sneer in her voice, apparently she already knew.

"I love you guys I'm sorry but I would love to still be apart of your lives. Even if you don't want me apart of your lives make sure Edward is ok. Please, I wouldn't be able to handle it if he went to the Volturi. Please, just make sure he is ok. Please." I was pleading.

"Bella, We love you too but we will have to think about it, and I will watch out for Edward. Thank you for your concern." With that my best friend hung-up on me. I burst out in tears for the second time that night. I couldn't even make it up the stairs. I just went and lay on the couch. I pulled the blanket off the back and fell into a dreamless sleep, hoping that it went a little better tomorrow with Jacob.

End Flashback

I cried just thinking about that night. What happened the next night wasn't as bad but it still broke my heart, and probably Charlie's too.

A/N: Ok, so that is the first chapter!! Tell me what you think. Should I continue it?? If I don't have at least 5 reviews saying I should continue it I won't!! Oh, and I'm still looking for a beta!! Message me or Review if you are interested!! Review!!
Amber