A/n: Disclaimer, I do not own the Clique or any of the Clique characters. Lisi Harrison is the proud owner of them! I also don't own either quotes!
So I found this quote on tumblr and I really liked it so I thought I would write a one-shot on it. I know I should probably get to updating those other stories, but this really came to me and I just needed to write it.
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You didn't love her,
"Baby, why can't you just breakup with her for me?" the Spanish beauty asked.
Alicia Rivera has been used to being his mistress, because she has never been good enough to be the Queen. However, she has grown tired of always being second best to Massie Block, and now more than ever does Alicia want to finally be number one.
"You know why." He said flatly, but that isn't a good enough answer for Alicia. She knows that Massie is too, "Sweet" in his eyes to break her heart, but to Alicia she is too much of "Threat" to destroy.
"You don't love her, you never did. So why are you holding onto her?"
You just didn't want to be alone,
"You don't know my feelings towards her and you will never understand." And with that said he zipped up his pants, pulled on his shirt and left.
Alicia couldn't feel anymore like a whore than she already does. It wasn't supposed to mature into anything serious. This affair was supposed to be just that, but then she started to fall increasingly for him.
She had grown to understand him as a person, and when she realized she loved him she couldn't bear to live without him in her life. She felt guilty for betraying her best friend, but she didn't know how to break the news.
She knows that he loves Massie, but he loves her too. How can she keep him if she reveals their secret? She doesn't want to be left all alone.
Or maybe she was just good for your ego,
They had their daily routine where he would come over to her house at midnight and they would fool around for a couple hours before he would leave her at three in the morning.
She was used to him not being there when she woke up, because she knew that he had gone back to Massie to spend the morning with her. It broke her heart to think he always leaves her for her best friend, but she can't think about that. She can only relish in the short time she has with him.
"I think you should stay tonight, and by tonight I mean, the whole night."
"We both know why I can't do that. Massie will become suspicious more than she is already is, and you have to get used to the fact at the end of the day, I am her's and you are only my mistress." His words killed her, but she couldn't let him see that.
Or maybe she made you feel better about your miserable life,
He didn't stay that night, and they didn't speak to each other for two weeks after that night. His words had cut wounds into her bleeding heart, and she didn't want him to have the satisfaction of hurting her. She knew she needed to move on and away from him, but as soon as she did, he had come running back. He would never admit it, but he needed her.
"I'm sorry for saying what I said, but this isn't easy for me either to love two women at the same time." It wasn't the apology she was hoping for, but she accepted it.
She has always accepted his imperfections, and his malicious ways. She loved him, and when you love someone, you are blinded by their flaws.
"I missed you." Alicia said, but he didn't ever say he missed her too.
It wasn't like him to show affection for her, but she knew that he did care. Why else would he come back to her?
"You make me happy. I'm grateful, you have forgiven me." He said, and it was her confirmation that he truly does, love her. He may never say it, but he shows it by his actions. And we all know that actions speak louder than words, right?
You didn't love her,
Alicia was so ecstatic that they had fallen back into their regular routine again, but she was also itching for more than he could give her. She was yearning for him to be her's, but he couldn't do that for her.
"How many times, do I have to tell you that I will not breakup with her, for you to really get it through that thick skull of yours?" He said angrily as he continued to grab his clothes that were scattered around her bedroom.
"Okay, that is the last time I will ask you." Alicia sighed as she pulled on her jeans. She has realized he won't leave Massie for her.
"Don't be upset about this, baby I love you but I just physically can't breakup with Massie." He said as he tried his best to cushion the blow.
She continued to button up her red Ralph Lauren shirt, and fixed her hair because she is over him not loving her. She is done with being second best. She is done with being apart of a clique that secretly hates her. Above all she is done with loving someone she will never have fully.
"I understand, you don't love me."
Because you don't destroy people you love,
Alicia Rivera had managed to pack up all her belongings in one night, and as she took one last look at her room, the memories flooded her mind.
"Cam, I don't think we should be doing this." She whimpered as he kissed her roughly again. It was the first time the had ever been with each other, but it wouldn't be the last.
"Alicia, you are so gorgeous." He whispered and she melted inside, because he was the one person who ever truly made her feel beautiful inside and out.
She had gotten lost in his one green and one blue pair of eyes, and his way of words had stolen her away from reality. She lost herself to him, and she couldn't imagine life without him, but she is going to realize that he wasn't her true love. Their love wasn't real love.
Alicia had managed to convince her parents it would be best if she left New York for good, and move to Spain. In Spain she could be anything she wanted to be, and for once in her life she didn't have to be second best.
"We were hooked when we woke. We had arms for each other. But I yearned to resume. My dreams for another."-Roman Payne.
Love if you would submit a review since this is the first time, I ever wrote Alicia and also first time of writing a perspective on an affair. Hope this was worthy of your time:)