Hey everyone! Ready for another story? Hope so! Ever heard of the song called,"Numb" by Linkin Park? well, i have, and i absolutely LOVE that song. I lcan listen to it for HOURS. After listening to it all night, i thought of a story. Its about Pony and Darry, and if you know the song, you will understand what im writing about.
Disclaimer: I don't own "The Outsiders" or "Numb" by Linkin Park.
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Ages (if it matters) Pony 16, Soda 19, Darry 21, Two-bit 20, Steve 19
The story is a songfic, so its half and half.
'Nuff of this. Onward with the story! :)
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I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
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I remember when Darry and I used to argue and yell at each other like there was no tomorrow. I thought Darry hated me. But Soda told him he actually does care about me. I didn't believe him, but after the runaway with Johnny, I actually thought Darry cared about me. When I saw him at the hospital after the church burned down and injured my two buddies, he cried. Actually cried. I told myself he does care. I thought life was going to be different.
Man, I was wrong. Things didn't get better, They just got worse. After Johnny's and Dally's death, my grades went down. I wasn't myself. Darry couldn't take anymore and started punishing me and yelling at me. He wanted me perfect. What he doesn't know is that im not perfect. I will never be. No matter how hard I try.
When Darry started yelling at me, Soda gave up on me and Darry having a better relationship. Soda hates us, and can't stand it. He's changing.
All this breaks my heart. We all used to be okay, but sense Darry wants me to be perfect and Soda's change, our small family is falling apart.
Two-bit barely comes over. He doesn't want to see the fighting. I only see him in town(rarely) and at school. He doesn't say hi. I don't understand...
I never see Steve anymore. I don't know if Soda and him are buddies. Steve never comes to our home. I don't miss him, but I worry.
I hate this. I can't take it anymore. Darry constantly yells at me when I don't do something perfect, and sometimes hurts me. Not bad, but just like a slap. I don't run. I don't know why. I think about running away. I wouldn't have to deal with my life anymore. I don't run because it would just cause more problems for Soda and Darry. I don't even know if they would care. Everytime I ask to go out Darry just says "home by 9" and storms off. He barely talks to me. I don't see what I have done wrong, other than not meeting his standards for being 'perfect'.
Me and Soda don't share a room anymore. Soda actually told me to move out. I was shocked at him, but he said it was for the best. I still have nightmares. I try not to scream so I don't wake up Darry or Soda. I don't want them grumpy and mean. That wouldn't be pretty.
I've been doing okay in school. I sometimes slack off, but then regret it when Darry finds out. He sure can smack.
Darry has my life planned out. But I don't want to follow him. I don't want to live up to his expectations.
I feel like im about to break. I can't take much more.
I think about ignoring Darry, but I dont because I know he will pretty much 'kill' me. Can't risk my life ending so early. Heh.
Two days its my birthday and i'll be 17. Wonder if anyone will be nice enough to say 'Happy Birthday'. Yeah, right.
Im tired of this. Im going to break.
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I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless
Lost under the surface
I don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure
Of walking in your shoes
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So? good? Bad? I promise next chapter will be better and longer. :)
Review pleaaaaaase? :3
-Abby