Why Me?
By: Aubrie1234
I don't know how it began, or even why, but why I saw her, I knew I had to hate her, but I couldn't. I've seen other elins and easily hated and killed them, so why couldn't I do that to Sagittarus? She was only an archer, a hero! I nearly killed her friend Elleon, and when I was about to make the finishing blow, she got in front of him to stop me.
I hadn't truly gotten a good look at her until then, and...I guess you could call it 'love at first sight.' D*** it. Anyway, I saw she had beautiful blue eyes (that were filled with hate directed at me), the child-like face natural to all elins (that had a vicious frown and glare on it), and her arrows. Oh, how they hurt! Both literally and figuratively. I was almost made into an arrow pincushion before I could get out of there. Note to self: Never hurt that girl's friends.
But at the time, I didn't know her name, nor understood the feelings I had. Who was she, the foxy archer? How could a hero have done this to me, made me afraid to hurt her? I went to ask my allies, Thulsa and Akasha for advice.
"So, who's the girl that's kept defeating you?" I didn't want to reveal my secret directly.
"She hasn't continued to defeat us." Thulsa said. I could hear the irritated tone and pout in his voice. Honestly, sometimes, I wondered who the childish one was in our group.
"Her name is Sagittarus, similar to the constellation." Akasha explained. Even though she followed Thulsa's orders, she was more of a leader than he was, "She's also the one who uncovered the spy plot in the Federation and has defeated the cult of Lok several times. Haven't you recently encountered her?"
"Sort of." I wasn't about to tell them of my humiliation at her hands, "Has she ever been able to make anyone afraid of her?"
"No. They're usually too angry to be scared." Akasha cast me a glance, "Are you?"
"Of course not!" I scoffed. However, it didn't really answer much for me, but I stayed for a while, if only to watch Akasha and Thulsa at their antics. Despite their status as the leaders and Akasha acting like one most of the time, they still made great entertainment.
Unknown to the Federation, I survived their attack, so I continued to observe Sagittarus as she grew stronger, using a mirror Father had once given me.
'Why don't you just tell her?'
"Icaruna, shut up." I hated it when my sister tried to butt in when she wasn't needed.
'You like her.' I blushed furiously.
"I am not! Why don't you talk with the jesters or something?!"
'They're fun, but get boring after a while. Besides, I'm trying to help-'
"You. Aren't. Helping." I growled, "Mirror, show me Sagittarus." My reflection faded away to show me the elin, who was in argon territory. I was- had been in an alliance with them, until my supposed death. Thulsa and Akasha knew I was still alive, though; I had gone to see them after I had escaped. Sagittarus weaved back and forth as she attacked, almost as if she was moving between walls for cover instead of fighting argons. And she was alone.
'Uh oh.' my sister suddenly whispered and I felt her leave, at least for the time being, and I soon saw why. My eyes flashed in anger as I watched them attack her from behind, making her fall. She used her Retaliate skill to knock them away and defeat a few, but she was still outnumbered.
"Mirror, show me the quickest route to get to her." Besides being able to show me other people and such, it also acted like those Federation watches, where it could show me maps of the world. But I was too far away to just run there, and I didn't have enough strength to send any of my minions to help. However, I did keep a collection of teleport scrolls, so maybe I could use one to get close to her.
"Karsurus!" I barked, stalking to my scroll room. He was one of my jesters, usually the one who took care of my place while I was gone. Since the death of Wiclan, my head jester, he's been in charge.
"Yes sir?" I was used to my minions appearing out of nowhere, so it wasn't surprising.
"Prepare a room and some healing supplies for when I get back. I might bring someone with me." I grabbed a scroll for the area closest to Sagittarus, and then one for my hideout.
"Er, you don't mean-" I snapped my gaze to him, glaring, and he flinched, "Right away, sir!" In seconds, Karsurus was gone. I had a feeling I knew what he was going to say, he seemed to understand me more than most did, but I also knew he wouldn't disobey me. If he valued his life, that is.
With just a flick of my wrist, argons were sent flying, clearing a path. I could defeat some of them, but I didn't have enough energy to do continuously do so. How the h**l did Sagittarus get in the middle of an argon army?! Why did she even attack them?! I could think about that later, I needed to find her first.
Do you remember any special things that might tell where she could be? I asked Icaruna.
'There...was a tower!'
There are plenty of towers around here!
'Well, it seemed to be close to an encampment, that's all I really remember.'
Right. I turned in a circle as I kept the argons away with a shield, searching for an encampment. They never used tents, but portable houses, I had seen when I was their ally.
'There!' Icaruna had spotted something, possibly the encampment, and was now taking over some of my movements to guide me. I didn't mind, but I wish she would tell me sometimes when she did that! I took the shield off and, like Sagittarus had done, she had me weave through them easily. She was always the more agile of us.
Soon enough, we reached the encampment and I guided Icaruna to a building left of the largest. The largest was the headquarters of the camp, and the cell blocks were always the building to the left of it. I blasted the door open, taking over fully, and glanced around. All the cells were empty.
Either she's downstairs or upstairs, they have her somewhere else, or... I didn't want to finish my thoughts. I took the stairs to search upwards. With nothing there, Icaruna took over so we could dodge the argons to check the basement. We were running out of time.
'Still nothing!' my sister raged once we got to the basement.
She could be in the main building, since she's a hero.
'Allow me!' Balancing on my staff, she had me kick in the heads of two argons. I'm not sure if it hurt them, but it certainly hurt me.
OW!
'Quit crying like a baby and run, brother!' I took her advice and scrambled up the stairs, hopping over argons who had gotten tumbled by the domino effect Icaruna had caused.
Please be there, please be there... I opened the door with a spell and charged inside. I spotted Sagittarus, who was in a cage. It was much too small to be comfortable, she could barely fit! But that wasn't the top of my worry list. She was covered in blood, even her bright red hair was darkened with it. Reaching a hand through the bars, I sighed with relief when I felt her pulse, even though it was pretty weak. I then took out the scroll and, with one hand on the cage, began to read the enchantment. Just as I finished, argons swarmed in and nearly grabbed us. However, we were gone before they could touch us.
I watched from the doorway, observing. The cage had been broken by one of my giants, and the elin had been taken to the special room I had Karsurus set up. My best shamans and healers had been healing her for days now. Not only was she covered in injuries, but she had many broken bones as well.
"She may not wake up for a long time, if ever. She may even slip into a coma for all we know." one shaman had said, back when we had first arrived. I only said one word to him, one that even surprised my sister, and she shared everything with me.
Hope.
It bothered me why I would say such a word; I was someone who caused others to lose hope, not give it! And yet, I realized... Icaruna might be right. I might actually like, possibly love, Sagittarus. Why had I gone to such lengths to rescue her? I could have left her to die, or even become one of the argons, but I didn't. I...I actually cared for someone. I turned away and left the room, heading to my mirror room.
'Brother, what are you thinking?'
"I...I need to talk with our father." I could feel her jaw drop.
'HE HATES US!' she screamed, making me wince, 'You're crazy!'
"It's not like I can ask Thulsa and Akasha about feelings, and you're no help!" She huffed.
'Karsurus can be of more help than me, just don't go to our father unless it's a last resort!' I rolled my eyes. She wouldn't give up until I did something, and I was pretty sure Karsurus would be as good as dealing with feelings as she was. So, I continued on to the mirror room, ignoring her protests. She tried to get my legs under her control, but I blocked her. Honestly, what was so bad about asking our father? Yes, he hated us, but he was older and could possible help me out more than any woman could.
"Show me Saleron." I commanded the mirror as Icaruna finally went quiet. My father's face was shown, and I was sure he could sense me.
"Seems you're still alive." he commented.
"Of course I am, Icaruna and I don't die so easily. But, there's something I want to ask of you." I could see he was about to refuse, so I interrupted, "It's nothing bad! I haven't been up to anything since my faked death! Neither has Icaruna!"
"...Alright." he sighed, "I can tell you're being truthful for once." I turned my head away, blushing slightly at what I was about to ask.
"Father, is it possible for a god to love a mortal?" There was a long pause, and I was afraid he hadn't heard me.
"...I see. I predicted this." I whipped my head around, blushing greatly when I saw his smiling face.
"F-father!"
"Who is the mortal you're in love with?"
"Sagittarus." I covered my mouth after Icaruna's voice slipped out. D*** my sister! Father looked a bit surprised.
"That's...interesting."
ICARUNA! She only snickered. I should have seen this coming.
"I've met the young hero." Father continued, "She's very capable of dealing with you in battle, so I'm quite sure she can deal with you in love." I blushed harder, hanging my head.
"Father, that's not the advice I wanted! How- how can I love my enemy? How can I protect her from Thulsa and Akasha? And how can she even love me back after I nearly killed her friend?" Father looked thoughtful and sympathetic.
"...Love is a strange thing, Killian." he said at last, "You don't know who you might love until you meet them, or get to know them well. But when you do love, it can make you do many things, some of the seemingly impossible. If you show her how you've changed, show her your kinder side, then maybe you can get past her hatred. However, that does not solve the problem of how she's mortal and you're not."
"I-I know that." I raised my head, "Is there any way I can change that?"
"Elins live longer than many of the other races, so you still have a bit of time before she dies. It would be unfair if you made her immortal, though."
"Why?"
"Because," Icaruna cut in, "she has her own friends, and she doesn't want to live forever so she can never see them again. Besides, maybe...maybe it's time we get some rest."
"Icaruna, are...are you saying what I think you're saying...?" My voice was shaking, because I knew what she was implying.
"I'm saying I don't want to be a god anymore, and if you want to stay with her, then you can't be, either."
"She's right." Father said, "You can't force Sagittarus to be immortal, and if you truly value your love, you won't leave her alone, either. There are spells for immortality and mortality, but you can only find them with Velik and Kaia, seeing as they are very important spells. However, they won't give you the spells easily, especially Kaia, after your insult. What makes it more troubling is that she has the mortality spell while Velik has the immortality one."
"...Thank you for your advice, father." I nodded.
"And she's with you, isn't she? Sagittarus was injured and now you're taking care of her?"
"She hasn't awakened yet." I said sadly.
"Give her time, she's strong. I'm sure she'll pull through, and then you can show her."
'Just try not to show her our form of enjoyment, as that might remind her of the near-death of her friend...' Icaruna added.
"Again, thank you father for the advice, and thank you for listening to me. Goodbye." With a wave of my hand, the mirror was back to normal.
"Sister, do you...do you really want to be mortal?"
'Yes. Do you?'
"..." I thought about it, "...I don't know."
'You still have quite a while before you decide. Go check on her, talk to her. Give her comfort, even though she hates you.'
"Thank you for adding that last part..." I growled.
'I mean it, brother of mine. If you stay with her and give her something familiar, then she may not freak out as much when she wakes.'
"Point taken." I nodded at her words before following her and my father's advice. She may never love me, but I acknowledge that I love her, and I can't just let that be something never said.
'Those adventurous in love can get what they want if they stand firm, willing to love another, even if they don't love them back.' I smiled at my sister's reassuring words. Hopefully, this can work out and I won't be used as an arrow pincushion again...
Am I the only one who can see the love possibilities in the game? Elleon and Jelena work together a lot, she takes care of him when he gets injured by Killian, and so on. And if Dougal met Fraya, I believe there would also be some love there... Just depends on how you take it. Instead of really centering on my character, I'm going over the characters in the game. I've noticed I like to do this quite a bit whenever I work on a game fanfic. As for Sagittarus, she's my character, a fox elin archer with long red hair and blue eyes.
And, seeing as elins live forever (or close to it, as I imagine) and they can be a similar age to the gods, I was thinking of Sagittarus pairing up with Killian. He actually...looks really cool and cute. It's not a surprise, I've fallen for the bad boys before (only in fiction, though). Also, this is my first TERA fanfiction (I have done a cross over, though, and have honestly not finished the game yet), so if I make mistakes, TELL ME! There are also going to be other stories, which are going to be in a series. This is more of a stand alone story, but does have elements that will add to the others. Mostly love elements, but also other stuff too (like my headcanon on how they act)!
But anyway, read and review!