Loosing it
Prologue
January
Gabriella's POV
I was in the living room in a pair of sweats and hold t-shirt. My arms were crossed under my chest careful not to touch what was under my shirt that would give me a sore shiver through my body. I was standing before the fire place looking at the picture my mom had put up two days go. It was one of the full family. It had taken us at least ten try's for this picture because Lucy and James kept looking away. I studied my face in the picture where I could see the fake smile radiating off into my face and into the living room. The make-up I put on that morning trying to cover the dark circles on my eyes didn't work. I looked at Lucy and James they were nine months old and looking prefect. They were little angels and fell asleep once their heads hit the pillow. I turned around and looked at my mom and Jim. I stopped calling him Dad just a few weeks ago, but when I talked out loud I called him dad just make them not worry about me. After all they had a hand full with the twins. I turned around and took my five steps to the couch and sat down on it bringing my left knee up to my chest. Jim and mom were sitting across from me looking scared. I kind of knew what they wanted to talk about, but I didn't want to hear them say it allowed then I knew it would become real. I noticed how small my knee looked, but I ignored it and looked up. "So what's up?" I asked trying to sound like a happy person. I don't think I succeeded because their faces were still worried. My eyes drifted off to my knee where I was tracing words on it with my finger. I could see my mom's body shift uncomfortably on the couch from my line of vision.
"Uh well Gabi, your father and I noticed something different…" she said trailing off. I could hear the nervousness in her voice. She was trying to choke back the tears I looked up to confirm my theory. She had tears in her eyes. Now I was really worried. Did they know about…they couldn't have I made sure they didn't know. I made sure I hid everything in my room. They couldn't have found it. "We um, your weight…" she said looking like she was about to break down.
My weight…I smiled a little in the inside. That's all she was worried about. Well that's what happens with this, my problem. You loose weight and look anorexic. "What about it mom?" I asked.
"Well Gabi, when you were first using drugs you looked just like you do now. What your mom and I are trying to ask is if you were doing drugs again?" I looked up at Jim he looked hurt and disappointed.
At that exact moment I wanted nothing more than to get up and tell them everything, but I couldn't because I knew it would break their hearts and I don't think I could do that anymore. I felt out raged that they were actually sitting there and just noticed this problem when this problem started in November. It took them this lone three months to find out what was wrong with me. I took a deep breath in and let the words out before I could even think. "Do you think I would tell you guys if I was using drugs again? And my name is Gabi." I said getting up and running out of the living room and up the spiral staircase and into my room. I locked the door behind me and looked around my room. I pushed myself off the door and over to my mirror. I lifted my shirt off of my body and looked at my new scar in the mirror. I pulled my shirt down angrily. I was an idiot. I was stupid and I just…I just want to re-start this whole school year over again.
I looked in the mirror, but this time at my hair. I had cut it to my shoulders and surprised everyone at school with it. It was just two inches below my ears, no shorter, no longer. I measured and made sure it was two inches below my ear. I grabbed a hair tie off my dresser and tied of hair into a bun that was small. I walked over to my bed and fell on it letting it engulf me into my sleep.
I turned over using my elbow as a pillow. I let out a sigh. Nothing was going right. Nothing was going planned and this little problem of mine was never going to go away…
A/N: Well I hope you all liked the Prologue. School and Finals are over for me. Now all I have to day is wait for my test results. I'll just be happy if I get a 65 on my Global and Earth Science Regents. As for my Math A Regents I got the highest score in the class, happy:). Ha-ha
So who watched CAMP ROCK? My friends and I watched it. Two of our friends hated it and had to stop them selves before they made fun of the jonas brothers before we kicked them out.
So this story will be drama filled. Also I am writing this story because some one inspired me to. They have been in my life since I could ever remember. Always giving us treats over the fence we have that's in our yard. This person is my neighbor and is the best I could ever ask for. At the end of the story I will be revealing why she is so important to me and why she fits into this story. Until then You'll have to read and see if she's in this story.
Thank you!
Lisa