Sensing You
I see you breaking, hear your whimper
I watch you crumble as your world crashes down around you
I can taste your pain as bruised and salty lips crash into mine
I try not to listen as your muffled screams dance off the walls
I can hear the hope leaving you as 'I love you' becomes more and more scarce
I can't watch as you bite you lip to keep the tears at bay
I won't listen when the name you cry out isn't mine
I will ignore the taste of blood that now taints your mouth from fighting back screams
I will force myself to believe your lies
I'll listen when you beg me to stay
I'll hide my selfish pain under long sleeves
I will give you everything you want
I am not the one you want
I am not the one you need
I'm not who you dream about
I'm not the reason for your pain
But I wish I was
I wish I was the cause of you pain
I wish the name your scream at night was my own
I wish your broken skin was because of me
I want to be your heartbreak
I want to be the reason you can't sleep at night
I want to hear you beg me to love
I want to see you fall apart when I refuse you
I'm not the one you need but I needed you
I was the one you discarded
I'll watch your tears fall down and laugh
I'll smirk when the blood pours from your skin
But I will love you
I'll love watching the hope drain from you
I will love the feeling of your scars under my hands
I'll love every plea to stay that falls from your lips
I will love taste of cyanide that drips from our last kiss