Hello (: lets see how my first story goes shall we.
I don't own The Outsiders, this is a fanfiction to the story by S.E. Hinton. My Immortal by
Evanescence is the song that would go with this story.
It has been just a year since I lost my two friends Johnny, and Dally. I remember everything fell apart for me, I remember blaming myself. I had this heavy feeling in my chest and I did not want to hang out with any of the boys.
Soda, my loving brother told me several times that I should go out with him and Steve. Steve and I became closer since their deaths. But I never really cared. Ever since Johnny left me I kept having these stupid dreams of him coming back to me…but he was crying almost as if he was in pain. I couldn't take it I just couldn't.
"Pony stop staring out the window and come downstairs I want to talk to you," said Darry who was waiting outside the frame of my door. He was tapping his fingers to see if he could get a response out of me. I held in a breathe and exhaled, and turned around
"Sorry I thought I saw something out there I'll be down in a minute I promise," I smiled at him.
"Well hurry up I just want to have a little word with you." He left the room shutting the door behind him.
I sat on my bed looking down at this point twiddling with my thumbs. My heart began to thump faster than usual my legs shook a little. It was quiet but my vision became somewhat unusual again and I knew what was going to happen again. I have these voices in my head and they won't leave me alone.
"Please leave! Please," I shouted now standing up and covered my ears in hope it would end.
Ponyboy it hurts!
"Please Johnny please leave please!" it stopped…
Pony I'm scared help me!
"STOP LEAVE ME ALONE YOU ARENT REAL."
The voices. It was Johnny but I couldn't hear them. I opened my eyes in desperation for something to make it stop. You know that feeling when you drop something valuable in a crowd of people and tried to kind it while your heart beats fast? That's how I felt for me.
I breathed uncontrollably and looked for something to make the sounds stop.
Stay gold Ponyboy….Stay gold…..
"SHUT UP." I started to cry at this point. I was still looking for something to make the sounds stop.
I heard a gunshot and people throwing curses as if my brain was replaying the exact scene from when Dallas died. The shots always played in my head and it drove me insane every time I heard them.
Crap…Pony there is so much blood. Oh god you gotta help me please oh my god it hurts so fu-
I covered my ears until they made a popping sound in attempt to stop the noises. My breathing was irrational at this point and I was desperate for the sounds to stop.
I know I am not crazy. I know I am normal.
"It's fake it's fake! It's all fake Ponyboy it's all fake!" I shouted to myself. I looked at my wall near my door. I was trying hard to hold myself back and push myself at the same time.
At this time the gunshot noises got louder and I heard more groans from Dally.
You're a stupid kid Pony look what you did to me and Johnny.
I let out a frustrated yell and ran into my wall head first for my attempt to make this all stop. The last thing I felt was the horrible pounding in my head as I made contact with the wooden floors and passed out.