My chest aches
my mind reels
there's a hand on my heart
that's cold like steel
it holds tight with assurance, that all is sound
but squeezes harshly, when no one's around
it's a physical pain
a mental drag
a hollowed out place
I once never had
no matter the light I carry around
it finds me again and it drags me down
I don't want this hand
this cruel embrace
I only want my smiles
to belong on my face
sometimes it fades
and for a time I am free
but I know this hollowed place
it will never let me be