Disclaimer: I do not own Castle or the rest of the characters, but I love playing with them.

Summary: CASKETT meet earlier in life; sparked by something Kate said after the time traveling episode.

Prologue:

Every so often I go to the cemetery to place flowers and remember. It all started in 1993. Meredith and I were married for almost a year, and Alexis was six months old. We weren't connecting anymore, and I discovered she wanted a divorce. Apparently I knew everything about her, but she felt she knew nothing about me. The day she was killed, someone new and wonderful came into my life, and I love her dearly. It took her a while to warm up to me though. This is the story of my life with her. This was several decades ago, so some of my memory is a bit removed and objective now, someone might even use the word "cold" for how I acted or felt. Don't get me wrong, I loved Meredith and still cared for her when she met her demise, but the spark was gone. We had some issues and were in the middle of a very long argument. This is what happened.

Chapter 1

"Meredith, I'll be home in a little bit." Rick promised. "No, you don't have to put Alexis on the phone…" He tapped his foot. "Hi, sweetie! Daddy will see you soon." He waited for Meredith to come back on the line. "Listen, I've got to go; see you when I get home."

Meredith put Alexis back in her crib and rehearsed her latest movie lines. She didn't see him coming into the loft as he followed the sound of her voice. She didn't see him pull the trigger and walk way to the screams of her baby.

Richard Castle opened the door to the loft and stepped inside. "Meredith?" He scaled the staircase and entered Alexis' room. He scooped her up. "Hey, Lex, where's Mommy?"

The red headed infant didn't respond.

"Meredith?" He found her crumpled on the floor and still.