Just a mindless sad babbling… I am pouring all out right now…*
Just when you thought things couldn't get any worse they did… Actually they get a lot worse. The guy you thought that loved you doesn't. You wake up in the morning but things don't seem right. Your hair wont got up right and you makeup messed up when you get to school. Food gets on your prom dress. You lose you best friend because of some guy. Then just the sight of you ex makes you cry. You want to be invisible. You want to find that right guy. You go home and lie on your bed and cry. People start messing with your life. Your friends tell you to let him go but every time he smiles and you know it's not for you, you break down crying. You miss his smile. You miss his laugh. You miss the sweet lil words he said to you, but now they belong to someone else. His eyes are the perfect color blue. You used to look in them and feel safe. But now it is like falling on ice. His hair used to fall perfectly over his eyes but now it is to hind the pain from you. He used to call you at night to just say I love you. Those words seemed enough. But in the back of your mind you know they were lies. When your song comes on the radio you sing along with tears in your eyes. That one time that he put his arm around you, it felt like a little piece of heaven. But now it is a haunted memory. Every time he walks by you remember that he broke your heart but you still love him with all the little pieces. When you see him you want to run up and hug him, but then you remember he is not yours anymore. He used to say you eyes are the prettiest blue. Or you are so hot. But to think back you know he was not looking at, he was looking into the sky. He had a Chevy truck that he would never let you drive. You were right there beside him all summer, with your head on his chest. September saw a month of tears. It's hard not to find it all a little bitter sweet. You hope he is thinking of you. But you know he is thinking of her. And when he said the way your blue eyes shine put the stars to shame, you knew he was saying it's over. And you woke up to find the summer and him gone… And in box beneath my bed is a letter you never read. So when you hear Taylor swift I hope you think of me, I hope you think of that lil black dress. I hope you remember those words that were our whole world… I love you. But when I look back, I start to remember that before all of this, I thought you were untouchable.
So just when you think life could not get any worse, remember this quote…
Life is about falling, but living is about getting back up.