Disclaimer: I don't own Victorious

I always put on a cheerful face and pretend everything is okay but the truth is I'm tired of being a loser. I'm tired of a system that classifies people by right and wrong but right and wrong to them are not what's really right and wrong.

I'm really sensitive for instance. I know I always go giggling or yelling WHAT'S THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN but I just want to find where I fit in. I'm not a loser but I'm still not at the level where I should be. Jade says that if anyone is a winner that I am and I don't need other people's opinion's because they are shallow. I admire her. She doesn't let anyone get in her way or anything for that matter.

One of the reasons why I love Jade and Beck is because they don't treat me like I'm incapable. They always include me and I have no concern about that. I know that because they always have. That will never change but they also always push me to be the best I can be.

I will never forget a certain incident that happened a long time ago. It was six months ago actually. I had a difficult decision to make. I was afraid of what everyone would think. Everyone had a different opinion of the situation.

"Cat," Beck said interrupting my thoughts, "What do you think?"

"Well I know what you would like me to decide and I know what my boss wants me to do and I-"

"Forget about what anyone else thinks. What do you think," he said, "Your opinion is just as valuable if not more-so in this situation."

Those words gave me confidence. It wasn't hard after that to know the answer. Was it challenging to do that? Yes it was. Do I know I did what I think is right? Yes I do.

I am so lucky to have friends who don't treat me like I don't fit in. I am so lucky to have friends that won't let me give up. They flat out refuse to let me give up. Jade explained that. She said that she knows I can do anything I try to do. Sometimes it is REALLY hard. Sometime I feel like I have no energy to continue but my friends pick me back up and carry me until I'm back on my feet again. I don't understand how they could be my friends despite my faults. But they always tell me that there is nothing wrong with me. There are some mean kids that tell me I'm a freak. They tell me that I'm never going to be accepted because friends don't get accepted. I will never forget the day one bully, Kara told me something that really upset me. Andre was with me at that point and he glared them down.

"And who are you to say that," he asked, "if anyone is going to be rejected it's you losers. Now apologize"

They did what he demanded. I remember saying "KK" and they stopped bothering me.

My friends always treat me like I am capable. They don't put me down for mistakes that I make. They will never reject me. But they do have high expectations of me because they know I'm capable.

I am Cat. I am the little red-head that loves red velvet cupcakes. My friends have showed me that I am perfect just the way I am.