MEMORIES...
I remember what you wore on your first day, you came into my life and I felt as if this was the start of something amazing. Everything you did and words you said it all took my breath away, but then you left me with nothing. So maybe it's true that I can't live without you, but maybe it's also true that I should move on, without you. Then I realised that there's so much time to figure out the rest of my life, but you had me wrapped around your little finger and I kept thinking that I couldn't live without you. I remember every look you ever gave me, the way you rolled your eyes whenever I smiled at you, you made it so hard for breathing. And whenever I'm stuck in a situation, I close my eyes and drift away, then I think of you and everything's okay , I'm finally now believing. I just love the way you lied and said that everything would be okay after I confessed my feelings to you, but you still left with a simple "thank you". After all I ever did for you, this was all I got and I finally woke up to reality. This isn't a fairy tale, this is a big world, you're a faded memory now and even if you do come back, it's too late for you to catch me now. I've moved on, but I wonder if you know I'm trying so hard not to get distracted and caught up on all that shit you left me in. But you were just so cool, that trademark smirk, oblivious to the fact that I was falling for you, falling hard. Last night I had a dream that we were together, like nothing else in the world mattered, talking with nobody else in mind, inseparably combined. But then I woke from the dream, back into reality and I realised I was alone, again. Such a tragic event, I had to admit, but I'm not gonna be overblown, I mean what could I expect? That you'd return and come sweep me up in your arms and say those three words that I always longed to hear? I have to get you off my mind somehow, I have to. They say love is a game, but then why isn't it any fun? And if love is really a game, then why haven't I won? I guess I must be cursed or at least playing it wrong coz it seems as if I always come undone whenever I'm around you. Songs of desperation, I hear them all the time. Maybe I'll play them for you one day, that is if you ever return. You know the sky could be blue, I really don't mind, but without you it's just a waste of time. It could even be gray, but without you I just seem miles away. I remember walking up to that academy swing every moment was so precious, wouldn't want to waste a thing. Now without you, it's as if my feet won't touch the ground, that was such a perfect day, I wouldn't want to change a thing. I know looks can be deceiving, but I thought I saw the light in you, I thought that you would be different. You used to be my everything, but now I'm all alone. The minute I saw that old picture of team 7, I felt as if the walls were closing in on me. You were my mirror, my soul and shield during battle and for some reason I can't explain coz once you were gone it was never ever the same. Maybe I just need some sleep, coz I keep thinking about you and me, and I stay up all night, hoping, waiting, for your possible return. Can't you see that you belong here at home, with me and everyone else? Can't you see that we're the ones that understand you the best? Can't you just use that prodigy brain of yours and figure it out? I can't believe that I'm opening old wounds that I worked on for so long to heal, getting worked up over someone like you that betrayed everyone and everything for something as stupid as revenge. When you try your best and you don't succeed, but I'm sure you never ever had to experience that, after all you were a prodigy student. Did you finally get what you want? Revenge, I hate it, but did you really need it? And now the tears are streaming freely down my face, but could you blame me? I lost someone that nobody could ever replace and I loved you but it's all just a waste now, one big lie. That's my life; I can't believe I was so naive to think that you had even an ounce of emotion in that cold heart of yours. Now tell me, could it be worse? I hope that one day, you'll see the light and return home, to me especially, but with you gone, I'm now lost, but I should've done better than this. Next time I promise you, I will be strong, but I'm still finding it hard to resist, so save me, coz I'm lost. I've been waiting and will always wait for your return and I'll pay any cause to save me from being confused so please just show me what I'm looking for. Please don't let go, I've wanted this for far too long. These mistakes now become regrets, but I've learned to let go and forget, but you were different. You weren't that easy to forget, you'll never be that's why I'll always love you. Whenever I close my eyes, the flashbacks start, back from our childhood days. I see the light, see our happy faces and I actually see you smile properly for once, a rare occasion that I didn't know I would ever see again. Little did I know... little did I know that you would turn out to be one of the most wanted criminals on the planet all because of that one goal or ambition as you referred to it as. Little did I know that you would sacrifice anything and anyone to fulfil that one goal, but now I'm finally old enough and I do know. After all those things that you ever did to me, I do know one thing. I do know that my heart will always belong to you, Uchiha Sasuke...