Reflecting Light

by GilmoresDanes

Lorelai feels like she has hurt everybody around her. After hearing a song on the radio that reminds her of the people she hurt, she leaves notes for all her loved ones and leaves town. Set after she breaks up with Christopher. Was originally going to be a one shot but I think I can develop a story with it. I do not own rights to the song or characters. *ON HIATUS*

1. Lorelai's POV

This chapter will be solely focused on Lorelai. Read the summary to understand the whole meaning behind this.

I turn on the radio hoping that it can help me unwind. I have had such a crap day and I need to feel happy Reflecting Light by Sam Phillips is on. I remember this song from Liz and TJ's wedding, when Luke and I danced. That was such a good day

Now that I've worn out, I've worn out the world

I'm on my knees in fascination, Looking through the night,

And the moon's never seen me before, But I'm reflecting light,

I feel so worn out. I'm so tired of going through this all the time. I'm sick of hurting the people I love because I can't make decisions for my self. I've worn out Rory, Luke, my parents. Everyone just because of what I do. Why do I have to be so stupid?
I rode the pain down, Got off and looked up,

Looked into your eyes,

The lost open windows, All around,

My dark heart lit up the skies,

I remember how hurt Luke looked when I told him I slept with Christopher. He was so lost and angry, not the Luke that I had grown to love. And it was all my fault. I felt like I had torn the town apart everyone was happy when we got back together and I just had to go and screw it all up again. br /I can't keep any of my relationships going. Not with Max, Jason, Luke or even Christopher.
Now that I've worn out, I've worn out the world,

I'm on my knees in fascination, Looking through the night,

And the moon's never seen me before, But I'm reflecting light,

Can my parents still talk to me after everything. I ran away from home, kept their granddaughter away from them and started up a life without them. God how selfish am I? I remember how hurt they were when we saw each other for the first time after I had ran away. My mother was so hurt and I caused that drift between us, it was all me. Everything is all my fault. The only thing I am good at is screwing everything up
Give up the ground, Under your feet,

Hold on to nothing for good,

Turn and run at the mean dogs, Chasing you,

Stand-alone and misunderstood,

Is it time I walk away from everything. Should I just up run away, because everyone knows I'm good at that. I mean I managed to stuff up the strong relationship I had with Rory, all because I couldn't strand by and watch her make her own life choices.

Now that I've worn out, I've worn out the world

I'm on my knees in fascination, Looking through the night

And the moon's never seen me before, But I'm reflecting light,

I grab the things I need and leave notes to those who meant the most to me in this town. This town doesn't need me any more. I've got to move away and let them have their lives back. They don't need me screwing anything else up for any of them.I get in my Jeep and drive wherever the road will lead me.