Hey I'm new to this fanfiction so i hope I hope you'll like it. I´m sorry for my bad grammar. I do not own ˝austin and ally˝or lyrics.

Dear diari

Why does life need to be so seems like its been like that forever for when I was little i was happy and everything.I was a normal child.I had friend and i wasn´t shy I was loud, a little to loud but everybody loved that.I was outgoing and fun to be was till the fift grade,than my mother died and everything has changed. My fun presonaliti and outgoing was wanish and i was in deep depresion. Once i tried to hurt myself but my father came in the write time. Since then i go to my therapist twice a week but i don´t like going there. I can´t speake to a stranger,well i have known her since i was 10 but its hard for me to open up and i hate that and i need to change that.

˝ally,diner is up or it will be cold˝ i herd my dad shouting from downstairs.

I closed my songbook/diary and went downstairs. When I got down i could smel lasagna.I loved that food and my dad made lasagna only when he needed to talk to me. And then it hit me.

˝Oh no,he is going to talk to me and he made lasagna,I must be in , I never get in trouble and I didn´t do anything wrong,oh this is not going to be good˝. I said to myself and went intro the chichen and sat on the chair. My dad was smiling but i could see he was nervous and his hands were visibly shaking.

˝so ally,how are you today?˝ he said and i could see that he has something important to say but i was acting like i dont know that.

˝ I´m ok,I have seen better days but I´m fine today˝I said with a little smile,and continue to eat my food. He stared at me for like a minute before he opend his mout and said somethin I did not expect.

˝we are moving˝ I choked on my food. He was just staring at his lasagna and did not say anything.I was in shock and watch him in disbeleve and then he open his mout again before I could say anything to him.

˝I know you did not expect that,but i think we need a fresh start and you are starting high school in a week. I thought that it should be good if we move from here and maybe forget about sad things and you could find smone friend that wont jujge you by your past. And I´m sorry if you ar mad at me but I...´I cut him off before he could say anithin else.

˝dad,that is the greatest idea ever,I would a new fresh start somwhere else˝I sayd that in excided voise and I kinda suprise myselfe and I could see that he was suprise even more then me. Hi had his mout open and his eyes were full or shock and disbelieve like he did not see that comin at all.

˝..all...ally are you...are you sure?˝he manage to say. He still din not believe in words that left my mouth about minute before.

˝yea dad I´m sure i want that, i need that˝i got up and hugged him so tight that hi could not bread be I felt him smiling and he hugged me back.

˝ok we are living in five days,I have found a great house there,and you ar going to adend marino high school˝he said happily but my mouth was open in shock and horror. I did not believe what he just said.

˝I´m going to public school?˝i said so quit that i was suprise that he heard me.

˝yes, I was thinking that you need to get some friends and the best way to meet them in in high school. I know tht you have been homeschooled for years but I think that you need to get a real experience that every teenager has.˝ I was thinking for a minute before said anything.

˝yea,I think you're right. I need friends and I´m gonna do my best to find them i promise˝ i said but I wasn´t so sure in my words.

The rest of the diner was good and it was nice seeing my dad smilin and being happy. I did not see that in a long time. I was happy but sad in the same time(if that was posible) I´m scared of making new friends becouse I´m realy shy and I cant talk to strangers and I´m scared people will judge me again and i do not want that.

I feel asleep while thinking about a new fresh start. Is it going to be hard? Are people gonna hate me again? Will I ever be happy agair?