Disclaimer: I don't own Dragon Ball Z.

Vegeta's Internal Struggle: Prologue

I've never paid a second thought to it before. I just disregarded it as a fairytale told to saiyan children. That it, until I learned that Vegeta-sei \ had been destroyed. I caught myself thinking about it then, when I learned that my race was killed of by that tyrant Frieza, and as I saw my race die out, right before my eyes. I grew angry with my self. The ignominy of showing weakness in not only believing it, but actually waiting....... No, hoping for it to come. But I know that deep down I do believe it and I'm angry it never came. I'm also angry at the confusion it brought me. But, I chose the former. It was easier to accept and push aside. I admit now that it wasn't my believing that made me weak, it was me choosing not to believe, and choosing the easy way out that made me weak.

I stuck with that excuse for the most part of my life and was content with it. Things were as simple as it could get, that is by my families standards. Until the strangest thing happened.

When we first got the news, it was strange. But 9 months later I was in total shock. It was all too coincidental for it not to be true. Then I started to believe. I grew hopeful. As the years went by I grew even more anxious. I was waiting, I didn't know what for, but I knew it' be good. My mind was in bliss. I watched it's interaction with my son, the heir to the Saiyan throne. Oh the possibilities were unnerving, but never the less, I was pleased.

All was going smoothly, until yet another turn of events set my hopes crashing so violently down on me. If it was a way of punishment for all the evil I've done, I feel great remorse. The torture of my fallen hopes brought back up and then down again, like a very sickening roller coaster was unbearable. But nothing compared to what my son was feeling, trapped in a liebestod.

A/N: Alrighty.. this is my first. So I would really appreciate it if you could review...All kinds are welcome, they are the only way I'll get better. So yeah.. what ever.