Hey guys! I know I should be writing Worthless Beings, but I was in a one-shot mood. Ill update W.B. Later my loves.
My friends always asked me why I loved makeup so much. Well… Scars.
Scars cover me. And makeup helps covering the past, and all that pain. No one has seen me without any cover up in years. Not even Alec. We've been dating for 4 years, and he hasn't even taken a shower with me before. He takes it personally but he hides it, and I don't want to hurt him. But I don't want him to leave me because of how hideous I am. I can barely stand to look at myself.
The first time me saw me uncovered was by accident. We were getting ready to go out, for a date, and he walked in. Before he could even say anything, I started crying. But I don't even know why I did. Was it built up emotions? He's my boyfriend! He'd love me anyway right? I pushed him out and locked the door and covered my face with my hands.
"Magnus?" he tried to get me to come out, but I refused. I wouldn't let him see me like this. Never again. I went to mirror and started rubbing crèmes and powders all over myself. Alec kept on pounding at the door and I kept applying. Then I was reminded how much I doubted Shadowhunters, Alec kicked the door down.
He didn't say anything as he walked over to me, he just hugged me. We stayed like that for what left like hours. And then he whispered into my ear,
"Magnus, your beautiful. No matter what you think."
MMM. THAT WAS DIFFICULT TO WRITE. I'll never do it again.
One-shots just are not my calling.