Now I know that I said I would be doing one shots and this started off as one but has grown slightly. It will not be that long maybe 2-3 chapters…
Disclaimer: l do not own NCIS or its characters.
I thought I loved her. I really did but now I'm not so sure. If I love her then I shouldn't feel this way about anyone else. I'm not saying I love this other girl but I feel like there could be something there. But I love Jeanne right? Then why can't I keep my eyes off of Ziva? Besides I know Jeanne loves me, and I doubt Ziva feels anything close to that.
You can't think that way about love though. It's not logical, or so I've been told. If it were then I wouldn't feel his way toward my partner or my undercover girlfriend. Neither of those can really work out. All of these thoughts are streaming through my mind as I clutch a rock wall next to Jeanne, poised to say those three words. I can't do it though, so I just propel down and unhook myself. I know I'm going to pay for that, but I won't tell her something I'm not sure of yet. Luckily for me, my phone rings just then and I'm called back to work. My real work as an NCIS agent, not a film professor.
"Hello Zee-vah," I smile at my Israeli partner who sits across the gap, before plopping my backpack down and going to sit on the edge of her desk.
"Shalom," she nods and continues to type at her computer. I find myself staring at her as she makes these little faces of annoyance that I find adorable.
"Can I help you Tony?" she sighs while angrily spinning away from the computer to face me.
"No, but I can help you. What seems to be the problem?" I offer.
"Nothing… " She lies but I can always tell when she's lying. But before I can pry farther she stands and now we're face to face, are bodies inches from each other and my breathing hitches as she scoots her body around mine. That was the feeling that was holding me back. As my breathing returned to normal my boss Gibbs walks in and barks his famous line,
"Grab your gear, we have a dead body of a navy petty officer in Norfolk,"
Then tosses me the keys to the charger.
McGee ends up driving with Gibbs separately so Ziva and I are left alone.
"How was your Saturday morning, Ziva?" I glance over at my partner.
"It was going quite well I'd say," she smiles at me.
"Yeah? I'd say mine was going pretty good too," I shrug.
"DiNozzo," she says after a few minutes of silence.
"What?"
"I was wondering what you were doing tonight… We haven't had a movie night in forever and you seem like you need to talk to someone," she asks sincerely and even though I know I should be spending the night with Jeanne I find my head nodding and a yes spilling out of my mouth.
"Good, I can be at your house around 8 if we are dismissed by then,"
We easily finish up at Norfolk and head back to the Navy Yard around 0530. Once we drop off the evidence, Gibbs lets us off and I go to call Jeanne.
"Hello , I'm glad I caught you," I reply to her eager greeting.
"Why? What's up? "She laughs at my formal name calling.
"I have to cancel on our dinner tonight… Sorry but it was a pretty busy and stressful day and I think I'm going to retire early, in both meanings," I sigh into the phone. Half of that was true but I was positive she'd believe it all. I told her goodnight then hung up to make my way down to the parking garage. It was almost 0700 and I still had to pick a movie out and make us popcorn!
Bad Tony! Lying is not nice. But what can he do… the whole relationship was a lie. (Except the love of course) More to come soon!
MOMO