Been reading To Kill a Mockingbird by Harper Lee in english class, and I really felt unsatisfied with the information on Scout's mother. Yes, ik the book wasn't meant for that and it was only a side snippet, but I can't help but be curious. So this is a one-shot of how I think Scout perceives her world set near the end of the book.

Ik I haven't updated my other fics in a very long time, but I wrote this in 10 min so i'm not diving full on back into writing fanfiction.

All rights go to Harper Lee

Enjoy ^^

I want to know what she was like. How she smiled, how she laughed, I'd be happy with even knowing how she smelled if anyone would bother to tell me. Jem is being a stubborn bull about it and it felt too wrong to ask Atticus. Nobody would tell me anyways. Just the same stuff repeated over and over and over. It's just like a song in my head.

"She was a beautiful woman," Aunt Alexandra said.

"She loved you very much," Jem said.

"Oh, you look just like her baby girl," said Miss Maudie.

"I wish you could've known her…."

I know that. Atticus says I always gots to be learning new things if I want to grow, but there are no fancy books on her. No pictures, no diaries, no memorable mentions in the thousands of newspapers hold up in Atticus's room. Not any that I could find, at least.

Of course, being the resourceful person I am, I found a better way. Ha, take that Jem! He's always being a pig head and get red in the face as of late all the time. All I wanted to know was how she went to be with god. Maybe I'll ask Miss Maudie….

Right, so my super secret way of finding about mom is the most genius of gensi plans this side of the mississippi! I simply have to look in the mirror. I bet Atticus would send me straight to em fancy schools up north he he knew I was this smart.

I bet she would have like that. Mom, I mean. Well...I don't know for sure, but Jem says she was real nice and that's what Atticus would do.

So every morning' when I get up I softly slide the bathroom door closed and sit right on the sink and stare at my picture in the mirror. Attics says the picture of me in the mirror is called my reflection. So I stare at that super hard. After all, Atticus says she looked just like me. It would explain why I have a fiance before Jem and all.

Me and Dill are quite the serious pair for anyone who see us. I only see him in the summer, but he says when we older we gon get married and have so many babies that will all be doctors and lawyers like atticus.

I bet Atticus had to fend off all the nasty boys so he could have mom as a wife. Cus if Dill says I'm beautiful she must've been down right gorgeous.

So every morning I look into that mirror. Sometimes I make my hair fancy like aunt alexandra because it makes me look older and mature. Just like mom would'a done. Aunt alexandra is being all frantic and happy about me bein a lady and all, but she doesn't know the truth. She doesn't know that I'll always just be Scout the rag tag boyish girl. But I will carry a piece of mom with me. And that we always be enough.