Jade POV

Fuck. This is bad. This is really fucking bad. As I stand over the sink clutching it like it was a lifeline, I try to look anywhere but at that pink fucking plus sign. How the fuck did this happen? I mean I know how it happened but how did it happen? We used a condom every time; I made sure of it. Kids aren't exactly my favorite thing and I've got plans that don't fit with being a sixteen-year-old mom. A single sixteen-year-old mom at that, considering Beck and I have barely even looked at each other since the break-up.

Alright, I can fix this. I just need to look up what the abortion laws are for minors in California. I'd be a shitty ass mom if my parenting styles would resemble anything like my parents'. I'm not doing that to a kid, that's just cruel. Plus, there's no chance in hell my parents would support me through a pregnancy so even if I wanted to give it up for adoption I wouldn't be able to have the prenatal care required for the thing to be healthy.

Jesus Christ I don't think my computer has ever been so fucking slow to upload. Finally it loads and I click on a website that says I can fill out a form online and have it done without my parents needing to be there. Thank the fucking lord. As I'm filling out the online form I hear the doorknob to my bedroom twist signaling someone's entrance. I didn't know who the hell it would be since my mom was at a spa in Arizona and my dad was in London on a business trip for the rest of the week. These were normally the days when Beck would stay at my place since I felt bad that we always had to go to his RV for privacy. Fuck stop thinking like that, that's how you got into this mess.

"Yo Jade. What's good girl? I've been calling outside your door for like ten minutes but you weren't answering," Andre said as he pulled me from my thoughts. Damn. Ten minutes? I must be pretty out of it.

"Yeah I'm fine," I respond coldly. We just stared at each other silently for an awkward moment. "Is there something you need or do you just like scaring the shit out of me." Seriously I don't scare easily, I scare others easily. But after this past half hour I feel like I could go into cardiac arrest.

"Damn girl I was just looking for some of that nice French skin cream you've got."

"Are you sure you're far enough along in the sex change process for that?"

Andre smirked and walked further into my room. "Look, I'm meeting Hope's dad at her party tonight and I want to look good," he said leaning against my dresser.

I needed to be alone and figure this out. The sooner I got Andre out of here, the sooner that would happen. Pinching the bridge of my nose I said "Fine. Wait here and I'll get it." I got up and made sure to close my bathroom door behind me, suddenly remembering that my pregnancy test is still on the counter. I wrap it in like ten tissues and throw it in the trash. Then I go into my medicine cabinet, reaching behind my unused box of tampons, and grab my moisturizing cream. Upon closing the cabinet I look at myself in the mirror. Suck it up, you've got no one to blame but yourself. You got yourself into this mess and you'll get yourself out of it too. With a deep breath I open the door heading back into my bedroom. But instead of Andre leaning against my dresser where I left him, he is lounging on bed, staring at my now opened laptop with a shocked expression on his face. Fuck. My. Life.

Andre POV

Something is off with Jade. She was jumpy as fuck when I walked in and Jade is never jumpy. She's always confident and collected. I've never really seen her nervous. Whatever, it's not my business and if there's anything I know about this girl, it's that no one can force her to talk about something if she doesn't want to.

I decide to update my slap page while I'm waiting for Jade and reach for her computer. But as soon as I open it I realize why Jade seems so off. Holy Fucking Shit! I can't believe it! She's pregnant!

I'm about to barge into the bathroom and confront her when I see her looking at me, wide-eyed and terrified from the doorway of the bathroom.

I stand up from her bed and ask, "Are you pregnant?" She just stares at me blankly looking like she's trying to take deep breaths. "Are you pregnant?" I ask again walking towards her. Her breaths sound more labored now. God she looks so fragile right now. "Jade," I shout just trying to get some kind of response out of her. In that moment she sinks to the ground and starts sobbing. She's basically confirmed my thoughts but I need her to say it so kneel down in front of her and gab her face gently between my hands. "Jade, look at me" I say as sweetly and calmly as I can considering I'm watching one of my best friends who is also one of the strongest people I know actually break right before my eyes. Her ice blue eyes finally meet mine as tears continue to pour from them. "Jade are you pregnant?" She weakly nods her head yes. Oh god, this poor girl.

"But I can't be Andre. I can't do it. I can't be pregnant, I can't be a mom. I need to get rid of it. I have dreams I've been working towards my entire life. I know I'm selfish and horrible but I just can't do this," she cried hysterically.

Looking at her sympathetically I wrap my arms around her and rock her as she continues to cry. In part of my mind I know this is wrong. I'm more than happy to comfort her but Beck should be doing this, not me. But he's not here and I am and right now this girl needs someone. When her breathing starts to return to normal and the wet spots on m shirt feel a little drier I whisper in her ear, "Does Beck know?"

She takes in a shaky breath and answers, "No. Andre please don't tell him. No one knows and I don't want him feeling guilty or angry, or whatever."

Normally there isn't anything anyone could say that would make me keep a secret from my boy, but Jade is one of my best and oldest friends. She's practically my little sister and she's never asked me for anything in her life really. I don't think I could ignore her request when she sounds this scared and devastated.

I kissed her forehead and said, "Sure thing baby girl." I felt her relax into me further. "And if you want someone to go with, I'll be there for you."

"Thanks," she whispers. "Wait, what time is it?" she asks.

I check my phone and read the time. "Crap, it's almost seven o'clock."

"Shit," Jade exclaims standing up. "You're gonna be late for Hope's party and I'm supposed to meet up with Cat."

"Jade, I don't mind, I can stay here with you and talk this out."

"No really you've done more than enough already. Now go and impress that music producer. I'll be fine. Take the skin cream. I'm gonna go get ready." She was a little frantic and hasn't stopped moving since she got up. I can't really say I blame her though.

Before she got to far, I grabbed her arm to still her for a second. "I was serious before. I'm not gonna tell anyone and I will go with you to get it done. If you need me, call me alright?" I asked as I looked her in the eyes.

She gave me a rare genuine smile and hugged me. "Thank you. I don't know what I'd be doing right now without you. Now go, you're gonna be late."

I left her room and walked out of her house and into my car. Normally after some serious shit goes down the first person I call is Beck but that isn't an option so instead I drive off to Nozu for Hope's birthday. I'm trying to amp myself up for the song but in the back of my mind I'm thinking Fuck. This is bad. This is really fucking bad.