Disclaimer: I do not own Andy or Miranda, or any Devil Wears Prada characters. The song is a song by Linkin Park called Numb.
A/N: My first fic, please review
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless lost under the surface
Don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Andy still doesn't know why she stayed at Runway, just that she did. She has now been first assistant for six months after Emily got promoted. Miranda had always put Andy under pressure to be perfect, and she was tired of it. She never knew what Miranda expected, nobody was perfect including Miranda. It seemed that everything Andy did was wrong to Miranda.
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
Andy had changed a lot, not just her clothes, everything about her had changed, she noticed it, her friends noticed it, everyone noticed it. When Miranda told Andy that she reminded Miranda of herself, Andy knew she was right. Andy also knows that she doesn't want to be like Miranda.
Can't you see that you're smothering me
Holding too tightly afraid to lose control
Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
And every second I waste is more than I can take
Andy can see that Miranda is afraid to lose her. It's as if Andy is what holds Miranda up, although she knows Miranda would never admit that, but lately it seems Andy is failing. She tells herself it's because Miranda is putting more pressure on her. Miranda expects more of Andy than Andy can give.
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
And I know
I may end up failing too
But I know
you were just like me with someone disappointed in you
Through everything, Andy tells herself that no matter what, she knows that Miranda was just like her, she had someone disappointed in her too, someone who, no matter what, was never fully pleased.
I've become so numb I can't feel you there I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
And as Andy walks up to Miranda's townhouse doorsteps for the last time, she tells herself that this is the right thing to do, that if she doesn't quit, then she will live a lonely life because her job will keep coming first, and she will lose everyone she cares about.