That Little Girl, a last of us fanfic

That Little Girl

Bunmi Hazzan

When we met she was annoying

Some jumped up puffy faced kid

Who was way too inquisitive

We didn't get along

I wasn't even trying

My guns was all I wanted

And even then

I wondered whether this whole ordeal was worth it

From pretty much the beginning

She was asking questions I didn't want to answer

I thought to myself there's no way I'm putting up with this for much longer

I'm too old for this nonsense

But they say there's something about children

Something about their pure spirit

That even the most callous find hard to resist

That unwittingly, your heart always gives in

Maybe

All I know is

Since Sarah I haven't…

I don't really talk about feelings

In this life it doesn't bode well to have them

All I've been doing is surviving

Days and nights pass by

And I hear the screaming

On plenty of occasions

I've thought about ending

I'm not always sure what's kept me going

Something

"No matter what, you keep finding something to fight for"

I told myself that so many times before

I didn't always believe it

But somewhere between

Annoying child

To saving my ass a few times

To seeing her on that table

Maybe, just maybe I'm capable of love again

Even if I have to lie and kill for the privilege