Hi....Sorryabout the really bad summary,,it will be better than it sounds,,,i think...anyway one of my best friends has told me i am to dedicate this sorry to her( she's a little crazy!!!) lol,,,so there you go kathers!!!! Hope you like it...Review please!!!!!!!

I dont own obv,,,would be goood if i did though!

BELLA

"Bite her. Now." The cool, olive skinned vampire was staring at Edward blankly. I could see the string of emotions cross his face as he was told this. I vaguely saw Jacob run up to the vampire and shout in his face but I didn't take it in. I couldn't hear a word. This was what I wanted, so why was it bothering me? The vampire across the clearing looked at Edward now.

"Do it. Or we'll kill her." That's when I passed out.

1 Year Ago

I woke up. It was the middle of the hols and I was going to my boyfriend's house as usual. Jacob was great but he wasn't who I wanted and he knew that as much as me. I refused to think of the name. After the night, 2 months ago, when I had had the strange vision of him telling me to be happy, I hadn't thought of him too much. I still dreamed of him though. Woke up screaming most nights. But Jacob sort of filled that hole. Not all of it and it still hurt but I couldn't let it show. I couldn't hurt another person as much as I had made Charlie suffer. I shook my head to get rid of the dark thoughts. It was 11 already and Charlie would already have left. I got up and went and took a shower. It unknotted all the tension in the back muscles and I relaxed some more. I got out and got dressed before running down and stuffing my mouth with some toast. I ran out to my truck and jumped in. I was supposed to be at Jacobs 15 minutes ago. I gunned the engine and we were off. Well if you could define 30 miles an hour as 'off'. The one thing this truck wasn't good for, if you were running late. Hours later it seemed I finally reached the Blacks place. Jacob jumped over the porch ledge and ran out to meet me.

"Bella! I was getting worried." People were far too overprotective of me. Not just Jacob. My face darkened as this led my thoughts in other directions. Jacob noticed but didn't say anything. Another reason why he was so good for me. He put up with all my stupid acts.

"Sorry, slept in."

"No matter, you're here now. Hey! Guess what?" Now that I noticed Jacob seemed unusually hyper today. He was bouncing around as if he was about to burst. I laughed at him.

"What?"

"Billy told me this morning. Apparently he has been saving for years. But now we have enough to go to Mexico! So excited! I can't wait. We leave next week!" Oh. Perfect.

"That's great Jacob! You'll have loads of fun. You'll probably meet some gorgeous Mexican girl and run off with her!"

"Never Bella." His tone turned serious and I cringed away from the look in his eyes, my face turning bright red in the process. I tried to lighten the mood again.

"So are you packed yet?"

"Nope, I was hoping you could help me. I've haven't been to that many places where the weather isn't utter depressing." I laughed. This at least would distract me for a while. We spent the afternoon packing all his stuff. He was away for two weeks so I would be alone for ages. But I couldn't think about that now. You couldn't think like that around Jacob. He was so happy he made everyone within a 10 mile radius feel alive too. I was lucky to have him. It would kill me to lose Jacob. He had kept me going for so long.

"So, considering I have a total of one pair of shorts should I just chop up a couple of pairs of jeans?" I laughed at him.

"Yeh, that should do it. Then we're all set." He got the scissors and started chopping. It was quits amusing to watch, his face screwed up in concentration. After another hour of chat I got up to leave.

"Sorry Jacob but Charlie will be home soon and he needs his dinner." I said the same line every night, hoping in vain that Jacob might say to phone Charlie and get him to come over. But not tonight. I guess they have too much stuff to do.

"Sorry Bells. I've taken up your whole day with this rubbish."

"Nah it's okay. I enjoyed it!" He pulled me tight in his arms and kissed the top of my head. He then leant down and looked in my eyes.

"Love you Bells." He kissed my lips and I tried to give some response but it still did nada to me. I had been touched by my own personal God and nothing would ever compare to that. He let go and I ran out to my truck. I hadn't notice it start raining. Typical Forks weather. I started the engine and groaned with embarrassment when it sprung to life, noisily. I waved to Jacob and Billy as I left and hurried as fast as I could, back home. Charlie wasn't back yet. I took a frozen lasagne out of the freezer and put it in the oven to defrost. Hopefully by the time he returned it would be cooked. I went upstairs to my room and shut the window which was banging noisily against the frame. I then went to my age old laptop and switched it on. No doubt Renee will have left some giant email for me to reply to. As I opened my hotmail account, after closing hundreds of pop ups, I found I was right. Great. It distracted me for about 5 minutes. I shut off the computer and sank down onto my bed. I didn't know what was wrong with me. I hadn't been this bad for a while. Maybe it was the fact that Jacob was leaving for a while. It reminded me of him, and the emptiness, then the pain that followed. I lay down on the bed and let the tears come. I thought of how he had looked as he had said goodbye to me. He didn't give a damn. I wept some more and then I heard the front door open downstairs. I sat up quickly and wiped my hands over my face. Crap, I looked awful. I ran into the toilet and washed my face.

"Bella?" Damn it. Charlie was at the door now.

"Two minutes Dad!" I called, hoping I sounded normal. At least I looked half decent now. I unlocked the door.

"Guess where Jacob and Billy are going! Mexico!"

ALICE

"Emmett don't be stupid! He doesn't want to see anyone! And he won't come home regardless! Just leave him be. You don't know what he's going through." I felt my face darken as I thought to the pain Edward had inflicted on me as well. But I let it go, I knew his reasons. I would probably have done the same.

"Alice I'm going and nothing you can say will change that!"

"Fine. Your choice." I went through to the living room where Esme sat with Jasper. He pulled me onto his lap and held me there. Esme looked at me expectantly.

"Sorry Esme. He's not coming back this time." Esme's face fell and I didn't fill her in on the details of Edward's state. He looked half dead, hadn't hunted for weeks. He just lay there, doing nothing, in the utmost pain. He reminded me of Bella, of the visions I get of her, curled up on the floor, crying her eyes out; of her zombie eyes looking back at me. Even though I didn't sleep I managed to have nightmares about that look. It was like someone had died inside her, and I knew that that was what had happened. Edward had taken her life. I hoped to God he would see sense sometime and go back to her. It was hurting Esme as well, Esme who carried an air of happiness around her had sunk into this semi-depressed state. I growled under my breath. Edward would pay for this.

Then my eyes flickered shut.

"Bella." My mouth spoke the word with no effort from me.

"Alice?" Jasper's hands were on my shoulders, holding me upright. "What is it?" I saw Bella. She was upset. So upset. On her bed, curled up, holding herself together with her arms. Her eyes filled me with horror as the pain and loss in them reached my own.

"Oh God Bella." I sank to my eyes and my body raked with silent sobs, tears that couldn't fall in my eyes. Esme sat holding me, the grief pure in her eyes. She had loved Bella as a daughter to. Jasper looked at me and asked the same question he had for the last uncountable months.

"The usual?" I just nodded and hugged Esme closer to me. My tears gradually stilled as she rocked me. I heard Carlisle enter the door and Esme moved and was quickly replaced by Jasper.

"I have some news. I just got offered a two year contract at a hospital in Chicago. If all goes well I will get the contract extended at the end of the year. What do you think?" Esme answered first.

"That's wonderful honey! Have you accepted?" I already knew he hadn't. He wouldn't without consulting his family first.

"No, I wanted to discuss it with everyone else first."

"Well, I think we should go. Maybe we need a change of scenery." I saw her glance down at me but I pretended not to notice.

"Okay, well I was going to accept to tomorrow. I also think it would be a good move. Maybe even Edward would come down." I smiled, trying to restore the mood I was in before.

"Chicago here we come!"

EDWARD

No, no, no, no, no! Not Bella! Anyone but her. My mind unwilling was rewinding the scenes in the ballet studio. I sat up and looked around the attic I was hidden in. It was messy, dirty and dark. My eyes were pitch black but the human smells I was getting from below meant nothing to me. I didn't care about anything, only Bella. I had to go see her.

No Edward. You can't.

I knew I couldn't. I had already ruined her life enough. But the pain! It was unbearable. Every second it renewed itself, reminding me of the look on her face as I left. A deep, empty, hollow look in them. I cried out.

"Wow, I just surprised Edward Cullen." I growled at the voice behind me.

"Go away Emmett. I don't want to talk to you."

But mate. You don't know how much you're killing everyone up there. Esme is half dead—she never smiles anymore; Alice keeps sobbing her heart out—cause she keeps having visions of Bella.

I cried out again.

Sorry mate. Just telling it like it is. Carlisle is thinking about coming down here himself and kicking your ass. You've torn apart his family. Everyone love you, please come back. Carlisle has accepted a job in Chicago, come with us.

"Sorry Emmett. I can't right now. Maybe in a month or two. But not now. Tell Carlisle I'm sorry. Tell Esme I love her and to please not worry. Tell Alice..." I broke off.

Got it. Take your time Edward but remember, we need you. More than ever.

He took off and I lay back down and curled up in a ball. Bella was still suffering then. She hadn't been fixed by my leaving. I had just made it worse. Alice was right god damn it! I shouldn't have left. I had to go back and fix her. But not now. I wasn't ready yet. I couldn't break my heart so much. I would wait till my family were in Chicago, then I would visit them, and Alice and I would become an unstoppable force of nature. I would win Bella back if it killed me. She would be mine again.

Hopefully next chap will be more interesting,,,i kinda had to set the scene here so it was a bit boring,,,sorry....please review though.....