This story was inspired by the song Unspoken by hurts, I do not own them or their lyrics. I certainly do not own Big Tim Rush.
Logan,
Do you remember the day you told me you wanted more from me than friendship? If I could go back I would never have let you walk out that door Logie. I certainly would never have let you fall into James' arms. I wouldn't have left the words unspoken, I would have taken those steps to close the distance between us, and I would have given you all I am. Instead I choked on every moment I silenced my heart because you were only my friend, I was deaf to the words I should have said but was too afraid you could never return, I was blinded by the future I could never allow myself see because I knew you could never return my love. So blind I couldn't see you walk out the door.
One moment, faster than the blink of the eye, is all it took to change our destiny. Can't you understand that I needed a moment to understand what you knew all along; after all you were always the smart one. For a split second I wasn't the man you grew up with, for once I didn't have a plan, and for one instant the hurt in your eyes was all you could see. You know my life has never been simple; I've always had to plan and plot to get what I want. You're the only thing I've wanted that worked naturally. You couldn't see that I was only shocked that my dreams had become reality on their own.
The next three months we spent ignoring what happened was the worst thing that I'd ever experienced, until I saw you kissing James. I could swear you heard my heart shatter because you pulled away from him only to look directly into my eyes; you showed me that adorable smile and told me how James had picked up the pieces of a heart I didn't mean to break. Now every passing moment is the price I pay, having to see your face light up when you see your new knight in shining armor. If anyone else could give you what you need it would be James.
Nine months later and no matter what I do it seems we are only separating. I want to forget about the past year, I want to show you that you can look at me with the all the passion I thought I only imagined before; but now I only see that fire when you're looking into his eyes, into your future together. I won't take that away from you Logie, you deserve someone who isn't afraid to tell you how amazing you are; but you can't expect me to stick around wondering if you can hear my heart breaking. I don't think I'll ever get over you Logan, but I'd rather be lonely than fake happiness for my two best friends.
All my love,
Kendall
This will eventually be Kogan, promise.