JPOV
'Alice, why are you doing this?'
'I'm sorry jasper, I just can't take it anymore, and it's to hard being reminded everywhere I look.' She slowly walked out of my grip.
'I lost them to Alice.'
'YOU DON'T HAVE TO SEE THEM IN YOUR HEAD EVERY SECOND THOUGH!' Alice collapsed on the floor crying, I wanted to go to her so badly, but by her emotions I knew she'd just push me away. Alice was always broken on the inside from her past, and when things got bad she never let me in.
'Please Alice; just give it time to heal.' I tried to send calming waves over her, but she ran from me." ALICE, COME BACK." I tried to run after her, when I heard her whisper.' I'm leaving Jasper, don't follow me.' And with that I stopped running.
Everything seemed dimmer without her here.
I lost two of my brothers and a sister, and now my wife.
The pain was like nothing I'd ever experienced.
It was worse then the bites, and my days with Maria. It was worse then anything. The pain was crushing me from every side, I had to escape. I ran from the house, not caring where I was going, just running. Alice had been my life for over 60 years. I mean things hadn't always been perfect, but whose life is? She had to come back; she had to change her mind. I'd already lost to much to loose her too. I continued to run not caring where I went, everything blurring past me. If this is how I felt with Alice leaving, I could only imagine what Bella must be feeling with Edward gone. Thinking about my siblings saddened me a great deal. I hated feeling other people's emotions when I could barely deal with my own. It all just kept hurting all the time.
BPOV
I only heard half of what happened with Alice and Jasper, but it was enough to know she's not coming back. I felt numb, Edward was gone, Emmett was gone, Rosalie was gone, and now Alice had left us.
Poor Jasper, to loose half your family, then your wife, I can understand the pain he must be feeling.
I understand, because that same pain threatens to enclose me any minute. Edward was everything, my world, and now he's gone. I didn't know what I was meant to do with my life now, did I stay with the Cullens, or did I move back with Renee, she certainly wanted me to. When she heard about the Cullens fatal 'car crash' she immediately asked me to move back. I couldn't bear to leave forks though; sometimes it still felt like he was still here. Charlie wanted me to move back in with him, but I just couldn't imagine leaving Edwards room. I'd been in here since he died. The others tried to pry me out, but the world beyond this room, was one I wasn't ready to face just yet. A part of me knew I couldn't go on like this forever, that eventually I would have to leave my room, leave this house even. But not today, and certainly not tomorrow. The pain was to fresh.
EPOV
Leaving Jasper and Bella was eating me up inside. She still hadn't come out of her room yet, and Carlisle and I could here her crying all the time. I continued to bring her food everyday to try and coax her out, but she remained silent and unmoving. I could see the toll this was taking on Carlisle; I hated to see him like this. Half of my family was gone, my children, I wasn't sure He or I was ever going to recover from such a loss. And now my Alice has left; poor Jasper must be so upset. He still hasn't come home yet. I do hope he hasn't done anything reckless. I knew he struggled with our choice of lifestyle the most, but he really was a sweet boy. I couldn't wait any longer to leave this house, although Jasper and Bella meant the world to me, the pain was something I could no longer bear. I had written both Jasper and Bella a letter each explaining why we were leaving, as I knew neither would listen at the moment.
I hoped they'd understand one day.