Dash General Warnings (Important, please read): This is Yaoi. If you are still here I will also add that this fic will probably contain swearing and sex and all sorts of other goodies. Still here? Well this fic might also contain no predetermined roles in respect to sexual activities. Yep, I have to add this as a warning now. But what that means is that in my stories no one is ever solely uke or seme or batman or whatever predefined roles people might expect. Or they might be but I might not know who it will be from the beginning. Sometimes one person will top, sometimes the other will depending on my mood or where the story needs to go. Sometimes it will switch mid story if I feel like it. Please do not continue if you have preferences for either character and will be upset if whoever you expect to top doesn't. Generally not even I know who will do what at the very beginning of a fic and will decide as I go along. They may not swap at all, but I like to keep my options open and I do not want to make people read multiple chapters of my fic only to dislike the sex scenes.

Disclaimer: I don't own Naruto or any of the characters from the series, they just take up residence in my head every now and again.

Important Info & Recomended Reading: So this is sort of the master class for the WNL Series. If you haven't read all the fics (I Want, I Need, I'd Love), the Yule Special, The White Day Special nor the I Need You To Need To Sasuke POV chapters (thought admittedly these are more optional than the others) then you are a little behind and might not want to read further in case of spoilers. If you are all up to date, read on. If you aren't all up to date and don't care about spoilers then you might be a little confused in some places but happy reading all the same.

It occurs to me that the first three fics were a little more Naruto centred than Sasuke, so it was about time to have a few more Sasuke orientated fics. This fic takes place a couple of months after the White Day Special and will focus mainly on Sasuke and his past issues and what he is doing to overcome it. And of course his ever growing close relationship with Naruto. Enjoy!

WNL Series: Chasing Away The Past

Chapter 1

Holding Back

Naruto was trapped.

Behind him was a smooth cold wall sliding against him occasionally sending chills running down his back as his shoulders made contact with the cool surface. On the other side and beneath him was a warm slightly sweaty body, arms wrapped around him, helping him move, causing his shoulders to slide against the wall behind him. His own legs were bent, his feet planted behind that person on the bed while he sat in the person's lap, their legs crossed beneath them, their cock filling him up and making him moan.

He was very close.

"Sas…Sasuke…"

He wanted to tell him to slow down or do something, anything to prolong what they were doing but he couldn't get the words out in time. So instead he squeezed his eyes closed and went with his coming orgasm making Sasuke groan as the muscles clenched around him causing his pleasure to be cut short as well as he came not too long afterwards.

Breathing heavily, Naruto let his head drop back to rest against the wall behind him while he continued to hold on to Sasuke's slick shoulders and recover. Moments later he felt Sasuke lean forward and rest his forehead against Naruto's chest and Naruto ran a hand up through the damp hair on the back of his neck.

Well either they were both really out of shape or it had been going on longer than he'd thought it had. He was always torn between wanting it to go longer and wanting to come that he often lost track of time. Besides, Sasuke had been back in Konoha for almost six months and it wasn't like it had been in the old days. In the old days before he'd come back and the two of them had been sneaking out to see each other in secret, it had almost always out of necessity been quick and to the point. Nowadays they had no such problems. The longest time they spent apart was when Naruto had to go out on a mission, the longest of which had only been a week. It had been a long week from both of their perspectives, and when he'd gotten home they'd spent the next three days doing pretty much what they had just done, only stopping for food, sleep, and showers.

Then he'd spent about the same amount of time recovering and warning Sasuke that if he ever so much as tried to start anything, Naruto would beat the ever-living crap out of him. This was because, generally speaking, Naruto was almost always the one in the most pain. And it wasn't like they had pre-defined roles within the relationship where he must always be on the receiving end because it wasn't always that way. But it usually was. And tonight he was regretting it again. He'd just come back from a mission yesterday and so far Sasuke hadn't let up. It was really nice to be missed so thoroughly, but it was getting pretty painful too, he had to admit.

Luckily these days pain was only really a factor when they were at each other for days at a time, or when one or the other of them decided to get a little too rough, and yet it was still annoying when he went out the next day only to feel his back scream in response, and his shoulder muscles ache. Not to mention the embarassing involuntary hissing that ensued every time he sat down on his now greatly abused ass.

"Sasuke?"

"Mmmm?" was the muffled response of a head resting face first against his chest.

"Why am I hardly ever on top?"

Sasuke raised his head at this out of the blue question and further raised one eyebrow too. "Call me crazy, but I'm pretty sure you're the one sitting on me right now."

"You know what I mean, teme!"

Sasuke did the smallest of exhausted shoulder shrugs. "I'm usually the one that starts things."

"So if I started it you'd…you know."

"Take one for the team?" Sasuke asked with a smirk.

Thankfully in the darkness Sasuke probably couldn't see him flush. "Well, yeah, I guess."

"It's not like it's never happened," Sasuke reminded him.

"Not very often. Was it, um…not good?"

Sasuke frowned a little. "It was good. You like it better that way?"

"I wouldn't say that," Naruto answered quickly. "It's always good, better than good, fantastic even and I-"

"Rambling," Sasuke warned.

Naruto took a deep breath, knowing he was going to regret bringing this up, but also knowing Sasuke would pick at him till he had an answer now that it had started. He wasn't generally a nosy person, but he wouldn't stand for the notion that he was never the best ever at everything. Which wasn't at all what Naruto was implying, but Sasuke would take it as an insult unless reassured otherwise.

"It's just that after these days long sessions when I get home I get sorta sore and it's bad when I gotta go out and train, but mostly I was wondering whether you preferred it this way because you don't like it when I do it to you."

"You think I think you're crap?" Sasuke clarified.

"Well yeah."

"And you think I would be better off being the sore one because I don't have to go out and train like you do," Sasuke went on.

Naruto rolled his eyes. "Fuck me Sasuke, why do you have to go and make everything sound so…so…"

"Negative?"

"Yeah!"

"Because it's generally the way things really are. You think I'm not sore after our sessions either?"

"Not like I am," Naruto muttered.

"Tch. It's not that bad. You want me to stop jumping on you the moment you get home?"

"No!"

"I didn't think so. You've never complained before."

"I'm not complaining now! I wouldn't give this up for anything, I was just asking a question."

"So you don't want us to stop doing this?"

Did Sasuke mean that he was talking about them breaking up? "Woah, woah, this is getting blown way out of proportion. Look I love what you do to me, but would it be so bad for once that you were the one walking funny afterwards?"

"It's not like we trap ourselves in here for days all the time. Only when you get back from missions."

"That's true I guess," Naruto reasoned. But then, "Hey, you still haven't answered my question. I was right, wasn't I? I'm crap, aren't I?"

Well maybe Sasuke wasn't the only one who liked to know they were good at something.

Sasuke took his time answering and that gave Naruto a bad feeling.

"You're not crap. Look wait, my legs are going numb," Sasuke told him before urging him to slide his legs back and sit up so Sasuke could get out from underneath him and lay back with a huge sigh.

Naruto sat down next to him and winced for a moment before finding a more comfortable way to sit.

"You're such a girl," Sasuke commented watching him.

"And you're really bad at answering questions," Naruto shot back. "C'mon there's got to be more to it than, 'you're not crap'."

"It's complicated," Sasuke replied after a few moments. "Do you remember what I told you in the hot springs about my past experiences?"

It didn't take long to remember, it had definitely been one of those things that stuck in your mind. He'd never imagined that had anything to do with this though, otherwise he would have kept his mouth shut. Sasuke didn't like to talk about things at the best of times, though he was getting better at it these days. Mainly because now that he lived with Naruto, it was either spill or be bugged for weeks at a time. So in the interests of his sanity, Sasuke tended to break from past habits and do the occasional share. But this time Naruto was going to give him a free 'out'. There were just some things that probably needed to be talked about when the other person was ready, not forced out because they thought they would be verbally tortured till they talked about it.

"I remember. Look Sasuke, you don't have to tell me about it. If that had anything to do with this…"

And then Naruto realised just how Sasuke could be having a problem with the thought of someone else topping. His brain quite literally didn't know what to do. He was livid, disgusted, and horrified all in one go. The thought that someone had touched Sasuke and done that to him was like someone had just smacked him in the head and chest simultaneously. It reminded him of how he'd felt the first time Sasuke had told him and how he'd felt then.

Sasuke seemed almost reluctant to answer at first. And when he did his voice sounded kind of strange. It was almost like he was trying to sound casual and nonchalant about it, but Naruto could detect just the faintest amount of strain in his voice as he replied.

"People tend to annoy me. You are," he paused a moment like he had to collect his thoughts, "The only person I've been with by my own want."

It was at this point that Naruto stopped breathing. He stayed perfectly still while internally his mind just seemed to freeze up. Sasuke just continued obviously not noticing.

"I was never exactly forced, I consented, but I would have not decided to participate by my own volition if I felt I had any real choice in the matter. In the past, I felt like I had to do it to further my ambition, and no," Sasuke followed up quickly knowing what was coming, the first time his voice sounded so sure in the last few moments. "You can't ask any questions. And if you don't drop it right now, I will leave or drown you. Or both."

Sasuke obviously knew him pretty well to know he was about to ask questions. However, Sasuke probably thought he was going to ask him if he was okay or something like that. Naruto already knew that Sasuke wasn't okay, no matter what his reply might have been. It had obviously scarred him more than Sasuke liked to let on, but the fact was that although he hadn't shown any great interest in other people when he was younger, he had almost no sense of relationships now because people just seemed to continually remind him that relationships with others would only hurt you in the end. Everything with his brother was bad enough that Sasuke didn't want to feel close to people like he did with his family and then something like this had to happen to him, reinforcing the notion that people only wanted to use you, nobody really cared about you and that's how life was.

At first Naruto wanted to scream and start demanding who had done this and if it had been that Orochimaru pervert or someone else. Of course Sasuke made it sound like it had been more than one over the years and that only made him madder. But when Sasuke had told him that he wasn't allowed to ask questions he stopped the scream before it found voice and just focussed on breathing and clearing the red angry haze from his mind. The thought of anyone doing that to his Sasuke, touching him, using him, scarring him further and making him shy away from trusting people altogether had made him livid.

But then when he wasn't allowed his anger, Naruto thought more about their situation now and what that meant. Really it was a miracle Sasuke had wanted any sort of closeness with him, let alone be the one to really initiate things from the beginning that it calmed him a lot to think that Sasuke maybe trusted him when he had every right not to want to trust anyone anymore. It actually made his chest ache to think about it and what it must have cost Sasuke. There was only one thing after that he could think to say.

"Sorry."

"Why should you say 'sorry'?" Sasuke snapped probably mistaking Naruto's true intentions for pity.

"Because somebody has to."

And no one else ever has said it to you that should have, Naruto finished in his own mind.

When Sasuke relaxed back against him Naruto wrapped both arms around his shoulders in an admittedly possessive manner. He couldn't help but think though that if anyone ever touched him like that again, Naruto would tear them apart. And gods help them if he met any of those people from Sasuke's past. Of course that's if they lived through anything Sasuke might do to them first.

But he'd never imagined that what they did together now could make things worse for Sasuke. That what they did together might impact him in the same way. The aura of barely controlled brain explosion must have reached Sasuke pretty quickly because he sat up sharply and grabbed Naruto's chin, forcing Naruto to look at him and pay attention. "No, don't let your mind take you there. It wasn't like that."

"Somebody forced you! And I..." Naruto exclaimed his mind unwilling to let go of it now. It was lucky he had such tight control of the Kyuubi these days or the room might have exploded quite literally. As it was he could feel his teeth sharpen at the thought.

Sasuke must have seen it too. "If you don't calm down I will hit you and make you calm down. Nobody forced me, not really. I explained this to you already. There was always the option of saying 'no' and walking away but I didn't because I could only think of moving forward and I felt that if I didn't do certain things in certain situations that I wouldn't be allowed to keep moving in the direction I wanted. I did feel trapped, I didn't choose who or when, but I didn't say 'no' either. That isn't being forced, that's just doing whatever you feel you have to do to achieve a higher goal. Which I might add was not worth it in the end."

"I don't understand the difference," Naruto told him. "If it was either do it or else, that's still being forced."

"Well I do understand and, no offence, but that's what really matters."

"You got hurt though, didn't you?"

Sasuke didn't answer him, but he didn't really need to. A lot of things made a lot more sense to him now. Especially that time in the dark temple when Sasuke had told him that he trusted him and that he needed to do this right before Naruto had experienced being inside him for the first time. Now that he understood just what those words meant he felt pretty sick about it. Of course the fact that Sasuke had trusted him so much to even contemplate doing that so early in their relationship was not lost on him either, but he felt guilty all the same.

"You're thinking about it too much dobe, I can almost hear the wheels turning."

Naruto took a deep breath. Though Sasuke had managed to calm him down a bit, he still wanted to know just who this person or people were so he could go to them and make them very sorry.

"It was more than one, wasn't it?"

"Why do you ask? Do you want to be all protective and do something violent to them?" Sasuke asked.

"You bet I do!"

"Well too bad because I'm pretty sure that most of them are already dead. But what you can actually do for me is drop it. I'm over it and you should be too."

Even Naruto could tell Sasuke was lying. Not every bad dream he had, and there were a lot of them, could just be about his brother and the rest of his family. But for Sasuke's sake he'd try to appear calm right now because pissing on about it was not going to be helpful at the moment.

"But anyway," Sasuke continued, "It does have a bit to do with certain reservations I have about the experience. Past reservations."

"I would never hurt you Sasuke," Naruto told him softly.

"Not even if I asked nicely?"

"Don't even make jokes about that! Look I won't bring it up again, okay? It doesn't matter at all to me who does what."

"It might not have much before, but it will now," Sasuke told him perceptively. "I bet you already feel bad about past times you've fucked me. I'm telling you this now, the fact that I could do that with you should tell you how much I trust you. You haven't forced me, I've always had a clear and easy choice to say 'no' with no repercussions and for me it's the only time it feels okay for me to lose control. If you ever got into the mood to do it again I would gladly let you because with you it's amazing."

Sasuke never said things to him just for the sake of making him feel better, never. And he seemed really sincere too. But Naruto knew he himself would never feel good about taking that feeling of control away from Sasuke again. It probably only happened one time in ten anyway and it was hardly a big ask to let that one time go. It didn't matter because like Sasuke had pretty much said; when he was with him it was always amazing.

And Naruto realised that like before, he'd already dealt with this knowledge of what had happened and his own anger at it. It also made him realise that he was angrier with himself too. All the things they'd done, the things Naruto had done to him even after he'd been sort of told about this the first time burned themselves into his brain. He was angry at himself for not realising or even really thinking about it again after Sasuke had told him that first time what further damage Naruto might do to his sanity reminding Sasuke of things he probably wanted to forget about.

So he promised himself to never, ever, do that again.

It was a rare occasion that Sasuke went out anywhere by himself, but one trip he did do by himself with any sort of regularity was his trip to the library. He went through a lot of books nowadays because he had little to do but stay indoors. And he refused to become some sort of house wife that kept the apartment clean and cooked all of their meals just because Naruto worked and made a living and he did not. They shared chores equally but that gave Sasuke a lot of free time.

So Sasuke read. Everything and anything he could get his hands on whether he really found it interesting or not. Reading books on ninja techniques was frustrating when he couldn't practise what he was reading so he read everything else. And he was gaining a huge collection of knowledge about a large array of very specific subjects that no one would really care much about unless they had a pre-existing fascination with the subject matter.

For instance he now knew a lot about birds and could name just about any he saw. He also knew an alarming amount about art and art appreciation and had developed some very definite views about what was considered good art and what was glamorised finger painting. He had also gotten a good knowledge base on what alcohol went with what food dish which had been a fun night with Naruto testing the theory out on that one. But these were just examples. His unbiased consumption of literature meant many trips to the library usually with an Anbu detail in tow. Well he assumed they were there because he wasn't actually looking for them much anymore.

But if they were there, they surprised him by not really stopping him from doing anything. Not that he had tried to terrorize the village or anything, but he was surprised that they hadn't stopped him from talking to the young boy who seemed determined to gain Sasuke's attention and praise every moment he could. This of course was the young blond boy who Sasuke had saved from a vicious beating from his peers at Yule.

The boy must have remembered seeing the stack of books under Sasuke's arm that day and had been seen the next time Sasuke visited the library, loitering around out the front. He was very obviously not waiting to see if Sasuke would show up. A little too obviously actually and Sasuke had rolled his eyes as the boy had very casually said 'hi' in a tone that was probably meant to say, 'Well fancy meeting you here, what a surprise' but actually said, 'I knew you'd show up sooner or later.'

He had introduced himself as Kyo, and had apparently taken Sasuke's advice to heart about making himself stronger. Because ever since, whenever the boy learned something new Sasuke would 'happen' across him near the library and the boy would go into great detail about his latest and greatest technique.

Now normally Sasuke would tell the little brat to take a hike or ignore him completely. But he was also trying to take some advice given to him to heart as well, and that advice was 'fit in'. He didn't want to for the most part, but as Kyo became a more frequent interjection into his routine he slowly became more accustomed to having his little friend around and felt the want to be rid of him lessen with each new brag about the boy's latest training. It was to the point now where Kyo would wait patiently for Sasuke to get his new books before dragging Sasuke off somewhere secluded where he could show off his skill in private. Sasuke even found himself giving the odd bit of advice too, which had been a surprise even to him when he'd first started doing it. Normally he'd just sit there and watch Kyo impassively without hint of awe or enjoyment. But when Kyo started to get things wrong in what he was learning Sasuke had just started correcting him before he'd thought about it.

Kyo had loved it of course and now that it looked as though Sasuke was a little more involved in their generally one-sided conversations he turned up at the library more and more. He seemed to be able to get very good at estimating how long it would take Sasuke to get through his latest stack of books with disturbing precision. And this afternoon had been no different, though it had lasted longer than usual. Kyo had dragged him off to show Sasuke how good he was getting with his kunai throwing, which was in all actuality about the same as Naruto had been able to do at his age, which is to say pretty poorly. He could hit his target easily enough with a couple of throws but moving targets had him throwing them all over the place. This being something Sasuke could still do with an amazing degree of skill, and being in the mood for a little bit of showing off, had him spending the whole afternoon and some hours into the night either teaching the boy or giving him pointers. Kyo had gone home a thoroughly happy though tired student and Sasuke had just gone home confused about why he was bothering with the boy.

It was something to do, Kyo wasn't too annoying for a brat of about thirteen and he had to be honest, he sort of enjoyed having the respect of anyone after so long. Kyo glowed with any praise Sasuke threw him, called him Uchiha-sama or Sasuke-sama and bowed deeply whenever he said hello or goodbye. It was nice to feel a little respect again.

But Sasuke was late coming home and though Naruto had no real reasons to worry since he had an armed Anbu escort following him wherever he went, he still did. And when Naruto got worried, he got angry, and that usually meant night-long arguments. Sasuke just wasn't in the mood for that tonight. But his fears were for naught when he came home to find Naruto parked on the floor in front of the sofa, his wide eyes glued to the television and a couch cushion clamped tightly to his chest.

Sasuke came inside and set his books on the couch and sighed.

"Naruto, I told you not to watch that ghost stories show. You can't deal with scary stuff like that."

Naruto was twenty now and had seen some of the scariest shit imaginable, not to mention the fact that he had a demon living inside of him, but mention ghosts to him and he'd be up all night starting at every creak and groan of the house. It would have been funny if it didn't annoy Sasuke so much.

Sasuke sat behind Naruto, a leg on each side and absently ran his fingers through the back of Naruto's hair near his neck. Normally Naruto loved this but tonight it made him jump and swat Sasuke's hand away.

"Teme, stop it."

"Calm down, you're too old to get scared by this shit anymore."

"I'm not scared!" Naruto told him hotly. But Sasuke didn't miss the fact that Naruto had put an arm around his leg.

"You have this weird fetish for being scared that I will never understand. You know none of this is true right?"

"I'm not an idiot Sasuke," Naruto told him scathingly before jumping at a loud noise from the TV.

"Could've fool me. Have you eaten yet?"

"Yeah, there's some of that chicken thing in the oven for you if you're hungry."

Sasuke had indeed been hungry before that news. The chicken thing didn't actually have a name it was just what they both described the only chicken dish Naruto knew how to make. Where the chicken actually factored into the dish Sasuke didn't know because for some reason it always ended up tasting more like tuna.

"Pass."

He'd started to play with Naruto's hair again without realising it till Naruto flinched and smacked his hand away again. "Stop it!"

"Make me."

"Don't you have anything better to do?" Naruto asked irritably.

"I do, but he's currently pretending to be a twelve year old girl and watching a stupid ghost show."

Naruto rolled his eyes and got to his knees before turning to face Sasuke.

"You know, there was this ghost on the show tonight who liked to kidnap men that look a lot like you to torture and murder them for sadistic pleasure. One night during a horrible lightning storm a handsome man with pale skin and dark eyes sought refuge in her house. Her father and brothers were away that night but she let the man take shelter anyway even though she got a bad vibe from him. But through the night he stole into her room and attacked her while she was sleeping. He tied her up out in the woods in the rain and tortured her and did other…bad things to her. Eventually in the end he killed her and buried her corpse in the woods where no one ever found it. But she stayed and haunted the house causing her returned family to move out. But then people would sometimes see lights on in the abandoned house. And travellers would go missing all the time. All handsome men with dark hair and eyes and it always rained when those men disappeared too. The villagers would find the bodies out in the woods, tied to a tree all with painful features frozen onto their faces but with no scratch on their bodies. The villagers said that sometimes you could hear the groans of a night-time but could never find the men in time to help."

"Do you even know how moronically stupid that sounds? Is that supposed to scare me that they look like me in some small generic way?"

"No, but I've suddenly understood why the ghost did it. If those men were anything like you I'd want to murder them too."

Sasuke smirked at him and activated his Sharingan. It wasn't very useful these days other than upsetting the people around him, but he could still make his eyes go red anytime he felt like it.

"There, now I don't fit the description. So when are we going to see the show when the ghost kidnaps blond haired, blue eyed morons?"

"Show off. But I reckon the ghost will see through it. We should go find that house and see how scared you get."

As much as Sasuke enjoyed the simple experience of just simply being able to spend time with Naruto, having Naruto wedged firmly between his legs, a little smug smile on his face, hands resting casually on his thighs, high up on his thighs, put Sasuke in a totally different frame of mind. Especially when Naruto was freshly showered and only wearing loose sleep pants and nothing else.

Something must have shown in his eyes because Naruto's grin grew more pronounced as he leaned further forward and pressed his lips against Sasuke's. Sasuke had leant in a little in order to receive the kiss and Naruto took this moment to wrap his arms around Sasuke and drag him forward on the couch in order to press their bodies more firmly together. Sasuke wrapped his legs around Naruto's as Naruto reached up with a hand that wasn't currently holding Sasuke to him and slid the zipper down on the front of Sasuke's dark red shirt before running his hand roughly over newly exposed skin.

Sasuke moaned rather loudly and spent the next few moments trying to drag Naruto up onto the couch, which he succeeded at pretty quickly considering Naruto didn't need a lot of urging at this point. Now that they were laying, Naruto's lower half still between his legs, the upper half pressed warmly against him, Sasuke could properly feel Naruto's hardness press up against him through two layers of clothing. Naruto must have been able to feel it too but he did something odd in that moment. He stopped what he was doing completely.

Whatever had broken him out of his desire was at that moment unknown to Sasuke. Normally by this point it was clothes on the floor naked writhing flesh time, but Naruto sat up and blinked a few times. Everything looked normal except for the expression on his face. Sasuke could best describe it as scared. It sort of reminded him of the first time they had intentionally kissed. Naruto had been all wide-eyed in a 'what the fuck am I doing?' look that Sasuke hadn't liked the first time he'd seen it. He certainly didn't like it now.

"What's wrong with you?" Sasuke asked him perhaps a little too bluntly.

"Nothing," Naruto said clearing his expression and smiling. The smile looked off though like he was forcing it a little too much. He was lying. "Let's go to bed."

The invite was clear. He wasn't suggesting they stop and go to sleep so it wasn't like he was unwilling to have sex or anything. But this was perhaps the first time in the privacy of the apartment that they had ever changed locations for any reason. It didn't matter where it started or how uncomfortable it was, they never moved. Sasuke liked that, the mood was never broken and it felt more exciting letting go wherever they felt the urge to do it.

Not knowing what was wrong, or whether anything was actually wrong for certain, Sasuke let himself be led into the bedroom and dragged on top of his favourite blond where the kissing resumed. It wasn't until much later when he was lying in bed awake, staring at the ceiling and listening to Naruto's contented snores beside him that he realised what difference changing from the lounge to the bed had made to sex that night. Sasuke closed his eyes and shook his head in irritation when he realised what that difference was. On the couch, Naruto had initiated. He had been lying on top of Sasuke and the natural progression of that position would have Naruto eventually inside him. When they had moved, Naruto had dragged him on top and reversed that role. Sasuke hadn't really noticed at the time but he'd known something had been bothering him in the back of his mind and now he knew why.

Apparently their little discussion last night had really gotten to him. Naruto did not want to put Sasuke in a position where he might feel dominated or not in control. And if Naruto had been doing it for any other reason other than how much he cared for him, Sasuke might have been extremely angry that Naruto had let it get to him so much when Sasuke had drilled it into his head not to let it bother him.

But what Naruto didn't understand was that in those moments when Sasuke wasn't thinking about the past, when he was about to feel that overwhelming feeling of being filled and pleasured and actually enjoy it was what he really needed to experience more than Naruto being too careful and shying away. The fact that it hadn't occurred to Sasuke what their position on the couch would mean for him made it more of a pity that Naruto had stopped. It was rare that memories weren't bought to mind when it happened that way around and it was those rare moments he wanted to become more common through experience.

But ever-thoughtful Naruto had stopped because he'd probably thought Sasuke would be reminded of the past. Idiot. If only he knew. But it wasn't like he could wake the dobe up and demand he fuck Sasuke into a better mindset because that wouldn't work. Obviously no matter what he said, Naruto wouldn't believe he was over it and would refuse for what he felt was Sasuke's own mental well being. And Naruto had a point, Sasuke wasn't over it. But he never would be if he couldn't drown past experience in better memories of the here and now.

No, if he wanted to break Naruto out of his too caring attitude, he'd need to come up with a better plan.

TBC

Notes: So firstly, welcome back! It's been a while since I played with this story in anything other than a little one-chapter special and it's nice to come back to it especially with a nice big chapter for you all. But no, the entire plot for this one isn't Naruto's stand offish mindset about sex, I actually started chapter 1 with the B Plot. The A Plot will come in next chapter or the chapter after. But what a B Plot huh? Sasuke actually wants to be dominated in a weird kind of sex therapy. Strange and admittedly a little out there, but interesting anyway methinks. Anyway, hope you liked chapter 1, chapter 2 shouldn't be too far behind.

Oh and a BIG welcome back for PJ my beta! Yay! She is back just in time for the new instalment.

Dash.