Myoko: Which she read in less than twenty-four hours.
L-chan: …well, let's just say that I have almost the entire ending to THAT story written out, but now I'm back to this one. I've reposted this and made some adjustments. Enjoy!
Prelude-Odds and Ends
"More or less of my life is spent wondering what would it have been like if my father were still alive. Of what others would think of me without my skills. Of how I would have turned out if things had been different. Would I still look the way I do? Would I be the same? Would I have the same friends or more or maybe none?
"Its been many years since I took on the name of my father; that I promised to uphold his honor and legacy unto myself. Its been hard and I have come close to dying more than once, or may have died more than once and been resurrected (something my mother can do, I guess, if it ever happened). The mad scientist is still my mother and I know for sure that she could not bear to see me die before she does or ever.
"Of course I have my friends. Some who you can expect to hang around me and others that may surprise you. All of them are my support and love. I could not imagine life without them. They have helped me through so many things in my life. None can take the place of any of them (though they can be annoying and aggravating at times).
"As I tell you things I am pushed to tell you everything. I cannot explain why. Maybe the urge to express myself to others and let them know how I feel and have felt is driving me to do and say these things to you. I only wish that you read this and please not think of me as an idiotic or moronic or even childish person. I am certain that I am none of these. I have no desire to make an impression on you of who I am.
"I am an only child, or I am now. I used to have a twin sister. She was my identical but not in personality. She was very dear to me, but the day she died was the day my father died as well. She died before he did.
"No. I won't talk about it. It is too painful. I cannot bear to talk of her as if she were only a memory. She is more than that. She is a part of me and is always constantly in my mind, her presence forever in my head, crying out to me in pain and agony. Forgive me for this. I hope you will still read on.
"As I have said before, its been many years since I took on the name of my father. I have no shame for doing this but pride and joy in knowing that he still lives on inside of me for I look extraordinarily like him though I have my mother's feminine qualities. I do not call her my mother though. I do not call her "mother" or "mom" but why I do not know. I have always done so. Could it be the fact that I am somewhat ashamed of what she is and what she does (especially to me)? I do not know.
"I was a rebel when I was young , a little mischeif maker, and my partner in crime was my closest friend. She and I would cause mayhem day and night. There was no end to what we did. Our energy was unlimited and our imaginative minds forever creating new ideas and plans. I'll never forget the days we had together, but then she got herself a boyfriend and it became Nelo Tigara's time to shine. We had our own names we made up and people called us that when we made trouble. I was the Nelo Tigara as I've said and my friend was the Sphinx. She was called this because she was very clever and an enigma all her own. I was even confused by her sometimes and left in the dark when she had some plan working its way out of that dark abyss of a mind of hers.
"I was called Nelo Tigara due to the fact that I loved dark colors and always had to have stripes. I would always make my own clothing or take some of my own (only the dark colors though) and put three stripes on each leg of my pants, three on each arm of my shirts and a single one on the back of my shirts with each end coming round to the front. I would also put two silver stripes on each of my cheeks, one coming over my ear and one under, and three coming from my hairline, one on each temple and one in the center of my forehead.
"Odd don't you think? I was a difficult child to manage and so was Sphinx though she was an orphan. I have never spoken that little fact to anyone though it has no effect on her. I just figured that it would awaken some deep inner turmoil inside her. But enough of me and her and our little fascination with our imagination.
"Now my other friends always thought it odd, one thought it was cute, that we did these things. They would sometimes tease us about it but never took it too seriously. I thank them for that for I not only needed that little alter ego to get away from the dull and boring life I lived but also to get away from the desperate and lonely child I was when I lost my father and sister.
"I never really thought of how childish it really seemed to be my own made up superhero. It makes me laugh now that I'm older but in a way because of it I'm the person I am today. If it weren't for that alter ego I would have died or even killed myself long before I reached my twenties.
"I have no reason to believe that my life was destined to be this way because I could not see Destiny be so cruel to someone. Could she? I do not know but I know that I am here of my own free will not by some predestined mumbo jumbo.
"My father was like that. He never believed in destiny. It might seem funny considering his life seems like it was decided before he was born. But he told me that he did it because he wanted to and that Destiny had nothing to do with it. I love him for that. I also believe in it as you can tell. One's life is not decided by fortune tellers and glass balls or oracles but by what the person themselves believes in and what they wish to do.
"Ever hear of the saying that life has many paths you can choose from? I don't believe in that either. There weren't that many possibilities for me and sometimes there would only be one, but I know one thing for sure. I'm here on my own account. I chose the paths I took and I am satisfied with what I chose. Sure I couldn't do a damn thing when I was a kid, but I was still making choices, deciding on how I would live my life and who I would and wouldn't listen to. No one can tell me what to do. I am my own master. Not some puppet in some dramatic play the Fates or Destiny or whatever thinks is controlling my life has put on.
"I am Usagi Tsukino. Heir to the title from my father.
"I am Link Venus de Milo Serenity, the Hero of Time."
There's the prelude thingy for ya. I hope you liked it. I promise to work on Forgotten Serenade for those of you who are waiting for me to update it. Um, that's all I need to say, I think. R&R please!