My First Scandal Fanfiction! Hope you guys like it. Check out my profile on Fanfiction (and my blog). This will be all about Olivia and Fitz, I hope you enjoy it.
I look into his eyes and all I see is love. Pure love. Something that every girl wants and sees's in the movies. Something that I hope to have one day. Something that I will never have because I am damaged goods. I am not worthy of love. I am not lovable. I am now that damaged girl that no guy wants. So as I look into his eyes I know that wants he gets to know me he will not have love in his eyes anymore. It will be disgust and pity. Pity because he will know my story and disgust because he actually thought that he could love me.
So in that moment that I looked up at him in the street, I knew that this guy would be my undoing. All of the walls that I had around my emotions would be broken. I knew that if I did not leave right away cracks would start to form in my walls and it would be only a matter of time before everything hidden started to pour out.
This man could be my soul mate. But this man would also be my undoing.
I love you Fitzgerald Grant. But I cannot have you.
"Olivia I…"
"Please just leave me alone. This isn't good for me" I replied with tears in my eyes
"Just let me tell you how I feel" He tried to get out the rest but I would not let him
"Please just…I cannot…I am not worthy of love. Nor do I need it. Just let me go. Please just let me go" I cried to him
"I do not ever want to let you go. Whether you want to hear it or not I love you Olivia! Always and forever so don't you forget it?" He cried at me
I knew in that moment that I would have to lie to him
"Well I don't love you"
He looked at me like I had slapped him. I knew I just had to finish it.
"I never did. And I never want to see you again."
With that I ran away from him. I ran away from the only love I knew. Because I was scared and afraid that it would not last.