Author: Naruko-chan
Genre: Poetry/General
Summary: Ever wonder how it felt on Mt Gogyo in the dark and solitude? Well if you seen the episodes, and still unsure why Goku has a painful past, read this poem and I'll tell you how painful it really is. The thoughts of the innocent Goku through a lonely experience…
Reason: I've been in the solitude of my room for so long that I start to wonder why I didn't dare talk to anyone. I never saw anyone through the solitude of my room and I didn't leave my place. It was then that I started to think about how Goku was feeling and decide to write this poem in relation to his loneliness.
Effect: If you are yearning for some tears to come I suggest you download the piano version of 'For Real' from www.gensomaden-saiyuki.net and play it in repeat mode if you think this song is too long. But there's a catch, the song is in zip mode so only download if you have WinZip or anything to unzip it.
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Loneliness……
I've been lonely for five centuries
Only with solitude as a painful memory
What have I done wrong
To be in a place I don't belong
Must have been a horrible crime
Being chained up in a prison, watching the passing time
I hear a voice, someone familiar I can't name
Saying this crime shouldn't be my blame
If so why am I here
Is there any sign to make it clear
Why am I to suffer
Upon loneliness that grows deeper
My only friend, a yellow bird
You would think this is kinda absurd
It came day after day, trying to cure my pain
And it did with friendship I did gain
Then a day I thought would be
It tried as hard to reach out to me
It failed, reaching only the outer area around the chamber
Laying still, weak and presumingly dead without a blunder
Terrified I was when it did
That memory so vivid
I wanted to hold it for a last time
Attempting to reach out with a goal in mind
Please let me say goodbye the least
Upset that this prison is keeping me seized
It was then that I felt useless
With no hope of happiness, none the most
I felt water staining my face
I felt myself brace
And then I couldn't hold it anymore
I just allow my tears to pour
Crying my heart out for anyone to hear
Wishing I could escape this miserable fear
Day after day, night after night
My friend rotted as I stared with my golden eyes
My eyes laid shot open
Laying on the ground with something to yearn
If this was a deep underground that could meet hell
I wouldn't have wished for the sun to shine through this cell
The sun only made me see what I have
The pain I gained was too much to be defeated by faith
Even as I slept I could feel the guilt
Stinging my heart and soul when they meet
I have always been cursing those who put me here
For killing my soul within and another soul so mere
Though it never talked I very much enjoyed its company
Making happy instead of leaving me here to bleed
I grieved as I remorsed myself and my friend
We both have died, in a way I have to mend
I stared out at the moon
Awaiting savior soon
I cringed on my heart, feeling the aching remembrance
I feel like calling out a name, just to fill my painful thirst
Cutting my heart open to remove the feeling
Distracting the that lays within
How much I want to run away
Run away…far, far, away…
Sad to say reality is cruel
Forever using you like a puppet fool
That's why I hate the sun
Proving that life is never fun
I really wanna tear that grin off
Only I'm too far and it never had one, not even a scoff
That's why I ……
If this was a deep underground that could meet hell
I wouldn't have wished for the sun to shine through this cell
Not giving the rays my coldness to melt
Remembering the point of time when loneliness I felt
Just to let you know……
I never want to be lonely
That's why I stick to my sun so closely…
Loneliness is a painful memory………………
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My Opinion: Should this be the end or should I continue to write about how Sanzo found Goku?