The day you woke up needing somebody
Dear Kate,
I can't write today because I can't stop thinking about you. You're asleep on the couch and I'm sitting here staring hopelessly at you ….
You said I trembled like I'd seen a ghost the night you came to my door, the night you gripped my heart and never let go
And I gave in, and I let you in, even though I always seemed to lack the things you needed the most from life
You said where you had been that day, only one day
You were so sorry
Was it for the four years you lost, for the four years we could have had all that sweetness between us?
Was it for what could have been created between us all that time and never did?
I always wondered why you were so scared to step into my arms
It was only one step to take and I would have been there for you.
Always.
You chose to retreat, to hide your heart and soul from what could have been so beautiful
Did I remind you of the days you poured your heart into life, when you were happy and alive?
Did I remind you of what it was like to not be drowning in the loss, of the days when you were happy?
Did you ever dare to love life and another after she died?
Did you ever want to take a nibble at the fruit of life, until that night?
Was the pain still too real to risk your heart being in so much pain again?
Would loving someone hurt you too much?
I've fallen from grace with women and I've taken a blow or two to my heart and my soul
So I've loved and I've lost love with other women
But I've always loved you, I told you I loved you and I've lost so much time with you
I held your hand for all those years and you always had all of me
Maybe I was a fool for waiting so long, but I wanted to turn to the page of our story where I would have you
On a bad day I confessed my love of you
Did you not tell me you knew so you could be queen of the empire of love?
The rules you set were left untold to me and I lost my faith in everything I imagined we might one day have
You left my soul crushed and bleeding in the dark when I learned you knew what I had said that day
We had lived through so many lies, all those little lies between us
The night you could cope, the night your wall collapsed, your intentions were pure
You knocked on the door to take possession of my heart
I was the only thing on your mind, the only one whoever knew me
You kissed me like you'd die that night
You took my life, breathed new life into me
My eyes were open
Yes, I know you better than you think
It's so simple darling, I gave you a hint in the alley that we would be great
Everything you feared it would be shattered into pieces and fell from your sky
That night I watched you fall in love with me in slow motion
There were explosions on the day you woke up beside me, needing somebody
You were in my arms and I needed you
You've learned that its okay to be afraid, to be in love, to be with me everywhere
You made the mountains shake, my fears fade away and the core of my soul fall deeply in love
You took a bite, a big bite of the fruit of life and it may never be the same for you
Anything could happen
I only need to know I make you happy, that I release you and that you love me
Every time that I topple you over the edge, those moments I hear, see and feel you fall apart, I'm reminded you're alive, that I'm the one you love every day the sun comes up
As the floods of lust and love move in and your body blossoms with new life, I drown in the scent of you, the sight of you, the love of you
It's the explosion reminding you that you need somebody and you know that the somebody is me
It's okay to be afraid, to be in love and to need someone
But it will never be the same
I always prayed that you would find peace of mind the day you woke up needing someone
I found you in another time when I was ready, when my eyes opened and I saw you, only you
I loved you at another time and I love you more in this time
My life will never be the same
It has never been the same since the day I first saw you
I came to life the morning I woke up next to you needing somebody else
Somebody else was you
Is you
Always will be you