Chapter one.
I couldn't just turn around and go back, not after what had happened, not after what I had done. My mind raced as my feet paced down the slick wet cement and I barely even noticed the rain pouring down and camouflaging the tears running down my face as I screamed out in frustration, "Fuck!" my pointless cry was heard by no one as it echoed into the night sky. I'm a mess right now, then again when was I ever not a mess. I can't believe I had let it get to this, damn what I would do for a pair scissors right now. I nearly crashed down to the ground unable to keep running and pounded my fist into the cement, wincing at the pain that instantly coursed through my hand. It wasn't that big of a deal, after all I've done I deserved it. I burried my face in hands, and not even a minute later I heard a sad yet light hearted joking voice break through the storm "You've really made a mess of things again haven't you, Jade West?" As soon as I glanced up I wanted to cry even harder, but at the same time smile at the very source of my pain.
Thinking back, maybe this wasn't all completely my fault, in fact, I never asked for any of this. All I ever did was mind my own buisness and keep to myself, sometimes even with Beck. No, this couldn't possibly be my fault.
BEFORE,
I sighed as Vega made a yet another stupid joke at the lunch table, shaking my head at all of my idiotic friends for laughing so full heartedly at everything the damn girl says, even my own seemingly perfect boyfriend, who clearly had his flaws; like laughing at stupid jokes. I pulled him by his hand that was already laced with mine from the table to walk with me to throw away my trash. He never really complained, and I was starting to wonder if I even liked that or not. After dumping my empty food containers in the trash can, he instantly flashed me one of his infamous smirks and whisked me in for a kiss, I could tell he was trying to be passionate, I knew him so well, there wasn't a kiss he could give me that would catch me off guard and as I began to think about that a little harder I realized I had forgotten he was even kissing me at all. As he pulled away he showed no signs of even noticing so I just gave him a soft smile as he told me he had to run to his locker before class. As he walked off I was turning around to do the same until I was stopped by my name. "Jade! wait up." I turned around and sighed "Yes, Vega?" she gave me a sympathetic smile "Are you and Beck alright?" I shot her a pissed off puzzled look "Why the hell wouldn't we be!?" I could see I intimidated her just by the way took a step back. I mean what was her problem anyway, asking something like that. She spoke up again, "Well, its just, I saw how you looked almost pissed off when he kissed you. " "First off pervert, if you want a show go watch porn at home! Second, MIND YOUR OWN Business." I stormed off before I could give her a chance to respond. I know that was a little harsh, even coming from me, and a part of me wondered why I got so defensive, as if there were something wrong with Beck and I.
AUTHORS NOTE:
Alright so this was just the very beginning and simply a teaser. The only way I'll continue is if I get a few reviews. Criticism is welcome, and note that they might not all be in character as much you'd like, but if you don't like it then don't read. ) Suggestions are welcome as well.