It's my escape.
From everything. Everyone.
No one understands. They don't get me. They only see my outside.
Even my best friends see just the pretty boy.
The jerk.
Player.
Stupid.
I play these angles. If that's what everyone wants to see, I should make sure it's all they see.
The shallow James.
Nothing more.
If they saw the real me, it would ruin all of us. Not only because I'm actually smart (Shocker!) and don't care how I look (Really?) so they'd lose their pretty boy in the band.
But because I'm broken.
I turn to my lighters and razors for comfort.
I haven't been eating, either.
But do they notice? No.
Long sleeves because I'm "cold" and claiming I'm on a strict "diet" for some shallow purpose. That seems to do the trick.
They see what they want to. Plain and simple.
But what I wonder is how long will it take for them to see? Will they EVER begin seeing me?
A/N This is just the beginning! I've got more, promise. I don't know what else to say but please keep reading! And review. Thanks!