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"I should've known it would be you." His mouth tasted bitter, knowing that the blonde that stood across from him now had been there, had held him, had infiltrated his life and his heart. And now all that was left was hurt. That's how these things always ended.
Phinks' face told him he too was in pain, but he couldn't let that stop him. He couldn't let a traitor near danchou.
"Leave before I have to kill you." Flicking his wrist, he felt his umbrella settle into his hand, a real companion. "You're not welcome here anymore." He could feel the water brimming in his eyes. Feitan readied a fighting stance, letting his hair fall into his eyes. He couldn't let the enhancer know this was impacting him. He was too strong for this.
Through the curtain of black, he saw Phinks shaking his head, his hands in his hair.
"No!" Phinks finally shouted, exasperation in his voice. "I don't want to do this…" he lowered his voice, guilt seeping into his words, "especially not to you."
"You should have thought of that before you attacked!" Feitan's retort held a lot of impact, causing the blonde to take a step back.
"This is wrong." The other muttered, looking at the ground near his feet.
"I know," Feitan whispered to himself, but the other heard anyways, lifting his head to look at him. Closing his eyes hard, he felt the tears roll down his cheeks, burning him. How embarrassing.
"I can't let you stay. You've," his voice cracked. Breathing in, he refocused and began again. "You have to leave. If you stay…" he looked into his eyes, only now noticing that the enhancer was also crying, "I can't guarantee your survival. You being alive is a threat to the survival of the spider."
"I understand."
"If you understand, then go. Go and never return." Feitan looked away, the grip on his umbrella sword shaking.
"Please, don't tell them." Phinks clenched his fists, knowing that he wouldn't be able to earn their trust back if they knew what he had done.
"I won't."
As the blonde began to move away, he stopped, looking back one last time.
"Will I… ever see you again?"
Feitan closed his eyes. This hurt him more than he wanted to admit. He had to send him away before he began to outright cry, but he didn't know how to respond.
"I don't know."
"I see," and then he was gone.