Prologue:
Love... Love, everyone wants to find love, but, love isn't all that...trust me. I've had a very sad unrequited love ever since I was five, I met the most handsome boy and as he got older he got more handsome and more hot and before I knew it, I, Bella Swan, was in love. It was hard, but somehow I pulled through. But, even today, I wish I took Jasper and Emmett's advice, but I didn't. I was a teenager who was madly in love with the wrong guy and everytime I look back on that day in the city, I've regretted it for years, and I'll always forget. I'm still not over him, but somhow I just wish he'd come back to me, but he wouldn't.
I wish he would, I've wished it for years and years, and maybe many years to come. My heart still yearns for him and my body yearns for his warm,
electricfying touch. But if only he felt the same way.
I really should have listened. Only now I've finally realized that and I know I'm dumb to realize that now, but I never will forget that tragic day when the whole world (in my view) was falling apart, my heart couldn't take the hurt and pain. . . . .over and over again, and my mind couldn't take the pain of knowing nobody cared what'd happen to me. . . . .but it was only in my head was what every councellor had said when my family found out, but I still don't believe it was in my head, I still don't. I never will.
But this, tghis is my life and I have to live it the way I want to and I'll become famous, writing (and publishing) books. Also, maybe a few colomns in magazines that everyone gets ordered here in Forks. But. maybe by then my world will be over. . . . . . . .before it even started. . . . . .before I even lived my dreams and hopes. . . . . . .before I could even stand the rain long enough to stay awhile longer. . . . . . . .before everyone would find out how your education meant more than having the best status at school. But, this is my life and nobody would understand anything like this, like how my life had made me sad and depressed. . . . . .how this world had turned my world black and dark, moonless and starless, cold and tired. It felt like I was standing in the middle of a field screaming at the top of my lungs, shouting for someone to hear, and nobody listened, they just kept walking along like nothing was to be seen or be heard and they're chatting (and bragging) amongst eachother as if I wasn't standing there in the centre screaming and shouting. Nobody turned in my direction and leant me a hand when I fell down, they just pointed and laughed saying that I was the worlds most biggest clutz, but nobody knew that I actually wasn't and that I was good at a lot, they just put me down as if I was worthless and after a while I felt worthless and their mission was accomplished. The mission was a lot like 'Mission: Kill Bella Swan' but really people were scared and deep down-when they didn't know it and I didn't know it-they were helping me. I hardly talk because when I do, nobody listens and when I listen nobody's actually talking to me, almost as if I was a ghost, except when it comes to my peers to tease me, I am the center of attention.
But even if I did survive this world, I would still be down-right depressed, and nobody would have cared. Nobody wanted to know me, to care enough,
and when I thought Edward Cullen cared I was wrong, I was too wrong that it's hard too explain.
But then I met someone, she was the bestfriend I could have ever asked for, someone who I could talk to, someone who I could love as a friend, someone to look after me and soothe me when I was down.
Although, I had my parents, they didn't love me and they left me on the sidewalk in my little basket-when I was a baby-and left me on the Cullen porch and the Cullen's had looked after me ever since I was a baby. When I was five I fell in love with Edward, but that didn't mean anything then, because I was way too young.
Anyway, my name is Isabella Swan, but just Bella to anyone who knows me, anf let me tell you soemthing. High School sucks.