Author´s note:

Here you have it! My first drabble for the October drabble Wars! This is my first time so be gentle lol.

Thank you so much for the people who have encouraged me to write. Big thanks to Amanda for being my beta in this first chapter. You rock honey 3

New Beginings

Here is my short drabble story for the October Drabble Wars

It´s almost midnight and the whole family is anxiously waiting for the countdown to be over, to party hard, drink, and dance like there's no tomorrow. Simply enjoy the beginning of the new year. Everyone but me. I am sitting here by myself waiting for this fucking year to be over. A year where everything changed. One that I won´t forget.

"May I sit with you?" I jump at the sudden question, never hearing her approach me until she is already sitting right next to me. My mother. The person I hurt the most this year but also the person who has showed me her love and support like no one else.

"Of course you can mom but what are you doing here? Go back to the party woman! Everyone is having fun!" I tell her. She takes my hands between hers and tells me "I can´t dance and laugh while I see my little girl hurting. What kind of mother would I be if I notice that and still leave you here by yourself? Talk to me sweetie, don´t suffer in silence"

I listen to her words and it's like everything is happening again. I can´t even tell her how much I appreciate her words without sobbing. How sorry I am that I am keeping her from spending the few minutes of 2012 with my father like she should be. Not here with her broken daughter. But she just stays there. Hugging me. Rubbing her hand in my back trying to comfort me "Shh, don´t cry Izzy,. It´s a new year. Time to move forward honey. You're a smart woman. A good daughter, sister, teacher, friend. You deserve all the happiness in the world. Please stop blaming yourself for what happened, it simply wasn´t the right moment."

She stops and I keep crying tears of sadness, regret, guiltiness, of sorrow. She wipes my tears and takes my hand to help me stand up. Before going back to our family she squeeze my hand and finally says "Everyday, I pray for you sweetie. I pray for you to find the happy ending you deserve. I am sure you will get it. You have suffered enough. We are starting a new year and I need you to promise that you will take care of yourself and will start living again. Zombieland doesn´t suit you dear."

I can´t help to laugh to that last part and tell her to go find my dad, that I still need to think a few things alone. So she leaves me here but first making me promise her that I will think about everything she just told me. I nod. Her last words about "zombieland" stuck with me making me realize that I can´t live like this anymore. We are starting a new year after all so maybe it´s also time for a new beginning in my life.

Thank you for reading bb´s! it means a lot