Reset.
I've lost count by now. So many times I've failed to save her. So many times I've seen her die.
Why? Why can't I stop this? All this power, and I can't even change one girl's fate. No matter what I do…no matter how hard I try…I can't save her.
But that's why I have this power, isn't it? That was my wish. To protect her, no matter what it takes. None of my failures matter if I can succeed just once. I have to keep going. It doesn't matter if destiny itself is conspiring against me. I'll overcome it. I have to overcome it.
Sometimes it's hard to even see her as a person. I start to feel like she's an objective – the one piece on the board that cannot be lost. But then I see her smile – just one smile – and I remember. We've never been as close as we were the first time, but I'll never forget how much she cared. I can't remember the last time I was treated like that – as a person, not something fragile or broken.
She's like that. She cares so much about everyone she meets. But more often than not, that's the problem. She doesn't value herself. She's so willing to throw her life away, and whenever she makes that choice, I've never been able to stop her. Why can't she see how much she matters? It's infuriating!
Time has nearly finished turning. Soon I'll be back in my bed, and I'll have another chance. Things will be different this time. I'll make them different. And if I can't do it this time, I'll do it again. And again, and again, until I can finally create a future where Madoka Kaname is allowed to continue living.
They say that insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results. Maybe I am insane. By now, it wouldn't be surprising. But it doesn't matter. If that's the price I have to pay, I'll gladly accept.