"Dear Tobias. I am your father. You never knew me and I never knew you. I do not know what your life has been over the many years. I hope that your mother found someone else to love. I know that all memory of me has been erased from her mind. All evidence of my time on earth has been erased." I read the letter aloud to myself; perhaps it would be the last time that I was ever able to morph into my human form, the form that had become my true body for the past couple of Earth years.
"I am being given this opportunity to communicate with you by the very creature who has erased my life on earth. He has called me back to my duty. I cannot fail." As I wrote I started missing my unborn child even more and more than I could ever imagine.
"This will all seem very strange to you. My unknown, unseen, unmet son. But I am not one of your people. I have taken on the form of a human but I'm not human." How would he be reacting as this part was being read to him? I had decided to tell the Ellimist to give it to him on his 14th birthday. That was how old Loren was when I first met her, and I felt that it was an age where would be strong, and maybe believe a part of it. He had to…
"I was in a terrible war. I did terrible things. I had to, I suppose. But I grew tired of war, so I ran away. I went and hid among the people of Earth. Among humans. While on earth, and living as a human, I took the name Alan Fangor." I prayed that controllers would not see this, and I prayed for my son's safety. If Visser three were still in power, then he would love to destroy any part of Elfangor. "I took the name Alan Fangor. But my true name is Elfangor-Sirinal-Shamtul." If it were true, if the timelines that the Ellimist had shown me were true then he would know my name. My son would know of me. "And though you will never know of me and we will never meet, I wanted to make sure that you knew my disappearance from your life was not by choice. I wanted nothing more than to live out my life loving your mother, and loving you as well.
"But I was a part of something larger than myself. I had my duty. There was a great evil I had to fight. There were lives I had to try to save. Including yours and your mother's. I am from a race called Andalites. Duty is very important to us. As it is to many, many humans. I cannot tell you I love you, my son, because I don't know you. But know that I wanted to love you, know that at least. Signed Elfangor-Sirinal-Shamtul…prince."
Ellimist. That one word was always a myth to me, a legend of supreme rulers who could destroy the entire universe in seconds but then rearrange it, rejuvenate it. But I now knew there was only one, a meager little ketran who just wanted to win the game, which just wanted to watch life and love it. He was the last of his kind; he had lost so many people he loved. For him I cried in the Andalite way, but I did not let that cloud my mind. He was still the being that would take me away from my son. Yet he was also the being that would reunite my son and I in my final hours…
"Yes, Elfangor." He appeared in front of me in his human form. He played the part of an elderly man but I knew that he was more powerful than that…I knew that he was one of the things that would save us.
Please, I ask of you. Deliver this letter to the lawyer. Make sure that my son is able to see it… I stopped there, afraid that I would lose control. After all of the years spent on Earth, I had become more of a human than I was an Andalite. I acted human, I had their emotions, and there feelings and I was so happy that I had them. I was so happy that I had one piece of earth with me…
"As you wish Prince Elfangor…" The old man took the letter and disappeared, I was to see him again. But not for many years.
Goodbye my son. I whispered as I found myself inside the hull of an Andalite fighter. Lets do this.
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A/n: I always loved Elfangor and I just wrote this short stinky thing on his feelings on tobias and crap, ya it sucks but r & r! *smiles*