Is it right to wish for more? What happens when your wish just doesn't come true and you find yourself feeling the same as ever?
What is it like being me? A vampire? The same. I wanted to escape from human life thinking this was the only choice I had. But now I realize there were other paths. I made this decision. It was all me and I don't regret it. I just don't want it.
I'm prettier, smarter, posher … but like before, no one likes me. Its okay being alone but even when I'm in school, I thought I was going to get friends. I get out of not having to go through questions about: Where's your mother? Or Are you sure that signature on the return slip is a parents? I know people think I'm weird. The teachers stare at me in class, they know something is up with me, but don't know what. I can either ignore them, or give them a long stare back making them turn away. I know I cause pain when I stare into someone's eyes. The overcome a feeling of sadness, of abandoness and yet I feel this is the only protection I have.
I try to ignore the whispering behind my back, the murmuring coming through the staff room door about me but how can I, when someone like me has sensitive hearing and can hear almost anything. It annoys me so much. I just wish they would all go. To leave me alone.
I wish I found another vampire.