I was so disappointed by the season 5 finale of Gossip Girl, so I changed some things. One of the things I hated the most was that we didn't get to see Blair break up with Dan. I didn't want to see that because simply I'm a Chuck and Blair fan, but because I felt that it would have been the right thing to do. The writing in italics is what actually was said/happened in the episode, and the writing w/o italics in my personal addition. The following two chapters will also include parts of the episode that I wish had been very different.
"Do you even want to be in this relationship?" Dan asked Blair exasperatedly.
"Of course," she replied.
Dan didn't buy it. "Is the reason you can't say you love me because you're still in love with Chuck?"
"No," she said quietly.
"Then I need to know how you feel about me. By tonight."
"Dan-"
"We're supposed to be spending the summer in Italy together and I don't want you coming unless I know where we stand."
Blair nodded slowly, smiled softly, and turned to leave. But when she got to the door, she realized that she couldn't play games anymore. She had grown up. She couldn't string along two men that she cared for deeply, especially now that she knew in her heart who she loved the most. She turned back around to face Dan.
"I don't a night to figure out my feelings," she told him softly.
Dan looked at her quizzically, with a tone of hope in his eyes. Blair walked over to him slowly and took his hand in hers, the same way he had done that night in the hospital and looked up into his puppy-dog eyes. "You are the best boyfriend a girl could possibly ask for, and you know how difficult it is to get my seal of approval."
Dan chuckled at that, looking at the floor, and then looked up again to see where this would head. "You've always been there for me, no matter what and discovering that that was because you loved me completely floored me. I was so happy to finally have someone who loved me who was also good for me, that I tried to control my feelings. In you, Dan, I saw the perfect guy for me – smart, kind, caring, and a best friend."
Dan knew where this was going and his expression began to drop. "But there was always something missing. With Chuck, I get butterflies every time I'm with him or even see him, but that's not true for us. I tried, though. I really tried to get those butterflies, but the heart wants what the heart wants," she said very quietly, never failing to keep her eyes locked with Dan's.
"I know that Chuck isn't perfect by any stretch of the imagination. He has done awful, horrible, seemingly unforgivable things to me in the past. But what's strange is that I forgive him for everything. And I know that I will always forgive him, because I love him. He is my… my air, and I don't think I can live without him."
Dan nodded and cleared his throat softly. "I kind of figured. I've actually always known that, but I didn't want to believe it. That's why I got so paranoid when-"
"I know," Blair said kindly. "I don't blame you." She got up on her toes and kissed Dan on the cheek. "You are one of the best men I have ever met, Dan Humphrey, and whoever falls for you the way I have for Chuck is going to be the luckiest girl in the world."
They stared with unspoken agreement in their eyes for a moment and then Blair smiled softly, turned to leave, and exited that old, wonderful loft.