It's been two months since the Grand Magic Games.

The birds chirped happily outside my window like they do every morning, the sun shining through the window and the light breeze drifting through ruffling the curtains. I've started leaving my window open at night now. I developed a habit of always expecting (unwanted) visitors, so I found no reason to lock it anymore. They would just break it open anyway- well.. that was if they barged in anymore.

I got out of my bed groggily like every morning, and walked over to the bathroom to do my morning routine. I exited the bathroom to look for clothes, choosing a pair of my favorite pair of black skinny jeans, tight a white tube top, and an old leather jacket that I had for years, and then topping off the look with my black leather boots, and a black belt. I grabbed my keys and whip and I left my apartment to go get breakfast at the guild.

Lately things have been a bit different at the guild.

Cana still drinks, and Gray still strips, and of course Erza still eats her cake, but everyone has been less chatty towards me. I don't think I did anything wrong. I mean at least I hope not. I just hope things will change soon. After the Grand Magic Games everyone has been treating me with less respect, walking all over me and being rude at some points. I don't know what is going on, but I hope this ends soon. I miss my family.

Once I entered the guild everyone looked away from the door awkwardly, I tried my best to smile at everyone, but of course no one looked up to greet me. Am I that much of a bother to my guild? Finally deciding I've had enough, I walked over to Levy, who had her nose deep in a book titled "Tainted Love". She didn't look up until I called her name.. Once I got her attention she puts up a fake smile and asked "What's up Lucy?"

What happened to my nickname?

I sat down beside her and looked at her, trying not to burst into tears from fearing the worst.

"Levy, everyone has been treating me differently. No one will say hello to me when I greet them, and if they do talk to me they only say a few words. What did I do for you guys to treat me differently? Did I do something wrong? I don't understand, please tell me what I did wrong!?" I say, tears brimming in my eyes.

She looked at me stunned for a second, until she finally looked me straight in the eyes and angrily said, "I'm sorry Lucy, but I don't think you belong here anymore. You lost both your battles at the Grand Magic Games, and you don't seem to be pulling your weight when on a mission with your team. Not to mention that you always complain about your rent- if you really want money why don't you go on a job by yourself? If you don't want to become stronger Lucy, then why are you here? Why did you join the strongest guild in Fiore?"

My heart stopped at what she said at first, but then I realized what I must look like to her.

I've let down Fairy Tail.

I haven't become stronger in my years of being here, nor have I even tried to catch up with the power level of my team. My team has been going out on missions with Lisanna as of late, I wouldn't have minded just that, but after a while they have stopped including me in their conversations, and a few times I've heard them say my name as if gossiping behind my back.

I sighed and looked around the guild; everyone seems so happy, why should I stay here and be an inconvenience? I'm just a disgrace to them, so why stay?

I finally looked at Levy and said with all of the pain and anger I felt towards them and myself, "I stayed here because for once in my life I was treated like a person with rights, instead of a piece of meat. I stayed because I could smile freely, without being looked down on. Here you don't have to be dressed up, with proper posture, always having a smile on your face; even though if you make the slightest mistake your world will crumble around you, and you'll be looked at as a disgusting parasite. Although I stayed for these reasons, there is no reason for me to stay now. This is the reason why I left my father in the first place, all I need now is the abusive drunken nights and it will be déjà vu all over again. I'm sorry Levy; I was mistaken to think I could stay here and call it home."

I got up from my seat and walked out of the guild, and I could feel eyes on me. I turned back to see most of the guild's eyes on me, shocked and guilty gazes meet mine, but all I can do is walk out of the guild and leave them behind.