"So what,"
says her while running her fingers through her hair, biting her lips.
"Do you expect me to go there, at school, holding pinkies with you, kissing and cuddling like we do when we're alone?".
She doesn't mean to, but she's starting to be aggressive, and she knows how that is going to upset part of her really doesn't care, but she really hates seeing her cheeks blushing, her eyes watering and that expression that reminds her of the time when they were in kindergarten, and she was always there for her little blonde friend, if anyone would tried to hurt her, so she stops talking, closes her eyes and takes a deep breath, ready to start again, more quiet this time.
"I'm just saying that what I find so beautiful about us is the fact that no one knows, that no one can ruin our love. I just don't wanna lose you like the last time, B. ,this time I'm not going to lose you.".
Her girlfriend blue eyes' seem more quiet now, there's no trace of tears, and her lips are still, they're not trembling anymore, her cheeks are pale, like her whole face, but she's not talking, and suddenly Santana can recognize and expression that as she knows well: confusion. Suddenly Brittany speaks
"And what about Artie? Like I told you last time, I love him too, and I don't know exactly which part of my body is saying that, but something inside is telling me that the fact that we sleep together actually is cheating. You're not lying to me San, aren't you?"
"Oh sure I am, you dumb, i would tell you a thousand lies just to keep you here."
That's what she's thinkin, but she obviously can't say, so she goes for
"no sweetie, how many times will I have to repeat you that this isn't cheating because the pl.."
"the plumbing is different, yes I know San, but sometimes a start thinking about Artie with another girl, and I really get angry, so maybe he would get angry too, knowing about me and you."
Oh here it is her bitchiness coming over, she loves Brittany with her whole heart, but sometimes is frustrating, so she starts acting like a bitch, and she feels that the moment is come
"Oh damn, how could you be so stupid? It's obviously cheating if he kisses another girl, but we are two girls, and that is not cheating!"
Lying, again, but she suspects is becoming routine.
"You're screaming San, stop screaming.".
Its true, she's screaming loud now, and she thanks god nobody can hear what she's saying. She took Brittany in their place, from where they can se how lame Lima is. But they gave their first kiss there, as friends and for a joke, but as she can remember, some hours later they confessed each other that that hasn't been so bad, and that girl kisses would make boys more intrested, so they kept doing it in front of the them, but they were secretly training everytime that they had the occasion. Santana is now out of his black suv, staring at the town, and she hears Brittany calling her from inside the car with a scared voice. Gosh, she forgot that she is afraid of the dark, so she get into the car and hold her baby, and tells her
"I love you baby girl, I will make you feel like you're the only one, because you actually are"
"I love you too San, but please stop yelling at me, it kinda makes me want to escape."
Hearing those words, santana's heart skips some beats, so she holds her tighter, saying
"I wont let you escape, not this time".