Love me by day; leave me by night

By chaosRUBEDO

A/N - Hey everyone! I have come back with bigger and better ideas and, most importantly, more developed ideas. I will finish this fic even if it kills me. I am planning on an update at least once a week but that isn't a guarantee. I'll be sure to keep everyone posted. Also, the first few installments should be quick. They are pretty much done anyway.

This fic is a bit of a challenge to myself. I have developed a love for two specific pairings when reading over the many Harry Potter stories available. I want to bring those two together into one great tale...at least, I hope it will be a great tale. Anyway, I'll stop talking now. Please bear with me as things get going. Let me know what you think.

Warnings: The rating is going to fluctuate a little. Some chapters will be tame with barely even the briefest hint of profanity. Others will be full on NC-17 with smokin hot man love. If you have a problem with two men engaging in sexual activity, I suggest you forget you ever stumbled upon this page. There will also be a lot of dark stuff here. Angst, mental abuse, physical abuse, self inflicted harm, some non-consensual sex and (somewhere near the end) explicit death. Please only read if you can handle things getting as dark and dirty as it gets. I'll be sure to clearly mark at the beginning of the chapters that are true danger zones.

Disclaimer: Harry Potter and all things associated with it are NOT mine. Believe me, a lot of things would be different if Harry truly was all mine to play with. Props to JKR for writing the series!

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Prologue

When everything is dark, you cannot see. You are blind and can only stumble around and hope for even a small glimmer of light. You are helpless and alone. There is nothing you can do.

When everything is light, you cannot see. You are blind and can only stumble around and hope for something to cast a shadow and block out some light. You are scared and alone. There is nothing you can do.

Light and darkness really aren't that different when you think about it. None of us can truly stay within one of them completely. There always needs to be a shadow within the light. There must always be a glimmer of light within the dark void. We need them both to even hope to stand a chance in this crazy world of ours. The question is, do we take the shadow filled light or the speckled dark veil?

I think all of this as I stand at a crossroad. There are numerous paths sprawled out before me and none of them seem any more desirable than the other. Each path is filled with pain, hardships and awful decisions that must be made. No matter what, I would have to lose something important to me. No matter what, I have to lose.

I feel so tempted to just let myself fade away; to drip into non-existence so as to avoid what must be done. Why should I trouble myself with this? I can just fade away and let someone else deal with this mess. Who knows, maybe without me around, the tangled web I created could just sort itself out. Everything that I made wrong could be fixed by my disappearance. I just want it to all be over. Please just let it be over.

Screams of pain and agony draw me away from my internal struggle. Seeing the two figures before moving around in their sinister dance force me to see what I want so much to escape. I can't run. I can't just leave things as they are. There is to much on the line to be this selfish. I made a mess and I'll be damned if I just let things go without even trying to do something.

As I take that first step forward, wand drawn, I know what I have to do. I can't even hope to ask for forgiveness after this. I can only hope that he knows how much I love him. There is so much that I have yet to say to him that I wish I had. There is so much that I wish we had had more time for.

I braced myself as I raised my wand, waiting for a lull in the battle that waged before me. At least this way, things will end by my hand. When they stopped moving for a brief moment to catch their breaths, I wasted no time.

"Avada Kedavra"

I know it's short but that's pretty much what a prologue is, right? Don't worry, the actual chapters won't be nearly this short. Think of this as a bit of a teaser. Chapter 1 should be up sometime by tomorrow night. I hope you liked what little you got to see. Please review.