Authors note: New one.......... obviously! :) Ahha! Just brainstorming tell me what you think and I'll love you forever.
Disclaimer: Really? Do you honestly think I own these characters? Didn't think so.
Self Inflicted heartache
I felt a shiver roll down my spine as my feet hit the gravel road leading to my house. Paranoia is bitch I thought to myself. My hands started trembling as I pulled my house keys out of my pocket and went to open the door. After about two minutes of shaky hands unable to unlock the door I grabbed my right hand with my left to keep it steady and tried to unlock it that way. "Damn it!" I muttered loudly shoving my keys back into their resting place in my pocket. I trudged around the house to my room window and went in that way. It was stupid to act this way but still, something wasn't right. Nothing was right about my situation. Ever since-he arrived. I thought stopping the pain before it hit. It always hit. Hit me like a dozen piles of bricks. I was tired of hurting because of him.
"Riku." I muttered sadly. As if on cue the pain started to hit. My heart started pounding and my legs became unstable and soon enough I came tumbling down to the ground in a ball. It was stupid to hurt myself by holding on to him but I knew the second I began to uncoil my fingers from our memories something would snap my back to reality and cause me to hold back on to all the 'what used to be's. It was childish of me to hold him so close, but what was I suppose to do? Let him slip away? Letting him go before I got attached would have been the best choice but I didn't and for that here I am at my weakest all because I let love get the best of me.
Just thought of trying something new. Tell me what you think!