Lost and Found
Disclaimer: I do not own Hellsing.
Summary: When Seras goes into a bloodlust attack she accidentally kills a family held hostage. Now faced at what she become.
Her master's attempt to help brings out her fury of the incident so she decides to take matters in her own hands. What will happen to her and who will find her?
Author's Note: This is my first fanfiction, and I hope you like it. I know there has been a lot of fics about Seras running away but I wanted to do my own so here it is.
This will be an AxS.
Chapter One: Monster
Pure Hell
This is all what Seras saw this night. A group of Freaks had held a family hostage. No one knew this. So, necessary percussions were needed; meaning Seras was to enter and look for the Freaks and have the family come out safely. Simple and easy right?
Wrong.
Everything went wrong.
Flashback:
Seras orders were given and she set off into the building, instead of her Harkonnen she held a normal firearm which held silver bullets. Immediately, once Seras entered she smelt blood and lots of it. Shaking her head to clear the red haze that formed over her eyes, she walked slowly through the building.
"Agent Victoria the FREAKS are on the 3rd floor, kill them; have the family come out safely." said Fergusson through her ear-piece. "Yes Sir. I'm on it" with that the line ended. Seras was alone. Heading up the small flight of stairs on the right side of the room the smell of blood got stronger and stronger. "Keep in control, keep in control, keep in control" Seras chanted in her mind but it was all in vain; the red haze over her eyes was getting worse and worse.
Finally reaching the third floor, this felt like an eternity to her. Seras heard the screams of one of the people held hostage. Sears bolted to the door as fast as her legs could carry. Kicking down the door, gun at the ready charged into the room. One of the freaks was held one of the hostages, close to him. The woman in his arms was shaking with fear of her life and family. The Freak know anger that his meal was cut short yelled at Seras "Who the bloody hell are you…!! "
His comment was unheard, Seras world was only focused on one thing.
The woman's heartbeat.
Ba-dum…
Ba-dum…
Ba-dum…
"K-kk-keep-p i-ii-n c-con-control'' she chanted in her head. Her weapon dropped to ground, her hands clutched her head as if in horrible pain.
Ba-dum…
Ba-dum…
"Hey! Bitch did you hear me!!!!" the Freak roared at her, Seras kept clutching her head trying to keep some scrape of her humanity. Fergusson was screaming in her ear-piece was not helping he kept yelling "Agent Victoria! Victoria! What is your status! Agent Seras Victoria!!!! Agent Victoria respond this instant!!! This is an order! Agent Victoria Agent-"
-"CRUSH…the line ended. Seras….was gone…her vampire side took over…. She slowly
let the pieces of her ear-piece drop to the ground. Her bangs hide her face, a insane grim was forming on her child-like face. "Heh…stupid bitch" he pulled out a pistol from behind his baggy, torn jeans. "Ignore me…That was stupid mistake…DO You What I Am!!!!" he pointed the gun at Seras. "Go to Hell!!" he fired a shot at Sera's heart.
Ba-dum…
Ba-dum…
Ba-dum…
The bullet inches away from her heart…Seras still unresponsive…the bullet came closer…and closer…
Ba-dum…
Ba-dum…
Ba-dum…
……No Control….
Before the Freak knew it, Seras was in front of him the bullet only grazing her cheek leaving a small cut. Violently thrusting her hand in the Freaks chest…completely destroying the Freaks heart. The woman the was in his arms dropped to the floor shaking in fear and shock. Shocked at what she just saw. Fear of her life. The Freak slowly turned to ash…Seras arm still held out like spear. The Freak's ashes…disappeared with the wind. Seras slowly turned to the other hostages in the corner shaking in fear. Smirking at there fear came at them with inhuman speed. The woman on the ground seen the attack coming ran with little strength she had and tried to save her family.
BA-DUM
BA-DUM
BA-DUM
BA-----
The heartbeat stopped.
The woman stood protecting her arms in front of them to shied them from the insane vampire, but for vain. Her husband dies with her, followed by there thirteen year old son.
The bloodlust ended…
Seras returned to reality….only heard the cries on a little girl. She was hiding in the closet when the Freak held her family hostage. Seras eyed widened at the scene around her. Blood everywhere…the hostages dead…the little girl screaming " Y—YOU MONSTER!!! YOU KILLED MY FAMILY!!!!! MONSTER MONSTER MONSTER!!!!!" Hellsing troops' running up the stairs…Everything was a blur to her; soldiers stormed in she was pulled out of the room being held tightly to someone. The scene was cleared like as though it never happened. People were yelling, screaming, shouting at her 'What the hell happened!!" but it went unheard. She was lost in her thoughts. "I k-killed that family…I
killed that family…I killed humans and…and yet….I felt no regret….I'm a monster….amonster…monster…" that word stung so painfully; it went against everything she believed in…her humanity crushed…her world as she knew it was gone…forever.
She felt someone grip her shoulders tightly and shake her trying to get a response at of her. Nothing. Her ruby red eyes showed what she was feeling.
Broken.
Hurt.
Despair.
Pain.
Fergusson watched her with pity filled eyes. "She was only an innocent, she was just getting used to her new life now this…" he thought sadly and gave up trying to find out what happened. She needed to go back to the manor now. Noticing know that she was out of his sight was searching frantically around for the distraught girl. He sighed with relief that she was safe, well as safe as she could be at the moment; she had her chest pulled up to her knees, arm wrapped tightly around her knees, her head resting on her knees. The soldiers were staying as far away as possible either out of fear or shock but there was another truck there the soldiers can ride home there; Seras didn't need to be in that uncomfortable situation. But, he was worried she might do something dangerous to herself so jumping into the truck with Seras rode back to the manor in the most awkward silence he's ever been in before.
End of Flashback
A few hours later…
Back at Hellsing
News of Sera's bloodlust attack traveled quick around the manor. The basement that was always cold and dark had a colder feel to it. Seras didn't know what happened the last few hours all were a blur and lots and lots of shouting. Especially, by Sir Integra. She winced at the memory; she was now in her room still in her bloody uniform on the ground leaning up against her coffin/bed knees pulled up against her chest lost in thought. "I'm a monster…I'm a monster…a monster…a monster….monster..." Crimson tears slid slowly down her face, " I'm a monster, I have no heart, I feel nothing anymore…I'm n-numb…" her thought broke off there she cried her heart out into her knees. A sudden feeling sent Seras in high alert, her master was around. She looked over the top of her knees, only to see her master staring at her, those strange orange sunglasses gone; he looked at her with those piercing, cold red eyes. They each stayed in that position for a while until Alucard broke the awkward silence. "Police Girl---"he began but was interrupted by her hugging his waist crying into his chest. " Mas-Mas-Mast-ter-ter…..My Master…please help me please….."Seras sobbed" I'm so-so-so sc-scare-dd….Nothing makes sense anymore! Please…Help. Me…." she continued to cry into his chest. Alucard was…incredibly surprised by Seras confession, she usually doesn't cry or shows fear. But, there was nothing he could do. "She has to learn" he thought sadly. Mentally wincing as she sobbed almost violently onto his chest. " Police girl…no Seras listen to me" he said almost gently. Her sobbing calmed yet she still stayed in the position she was in. " Seras" he began again waiting to see if he was gonna be interrupted again. Pleased he wasn't he continued. "What your feeling know, the feeling that the world hates you, your numb, you having no heart" he stopped feeling her flinch a few times during it. "There is no easy way to put it Police Girl but you're a monster and nothing more" he felt her move slowly out of his arms. Her fears and anger spiking like you wouldn't believe. She looked at him with anger tear-filled eyes. "Master….' She whispered in disbelief. "This is the life you choose police girl but you are different from the rest of the vampires you still cling to that humanity of yours---" he was scolding her now. She tuned out the rest, tears falling freely down her face. She stood up almost knocking him out of the chair. She glared down at him with pure anger and sadness. The only person who knew how she felt just threw everything in her face!!
Seras glared darkly at her master, an animalistic growl started to come from the back of her throat and all he could say was "Police girl what the hell is your problem" and give her a scolding look, like a parent would give a child when they did something bad. That sent her over the edge, her eyes began to turn crimson in her rage but did he care no! He just stared at her like she was the biggest damn freak in the world.
"GET THE HELL AWAY FROM ME! YOU HEARTLESS BASTARD!!" she roared at the now stunned Alucard, who know rose angrily out of his chair. His eyes were burning like a wildfire he stood looking at his child with displeasure. "Police girl is that how you speak to your master?!?!" he was trying to keep his angry in check and failing horribly. "YES, ESPEACIALLY WHEN YOUR BEING SUCH AN ASS!!" Seras shouted back, angry crimson tear flowing down her face. Before he could say anything she stormed out of her room, the door breaking from the hinges. She let it fall to the ground with a "thud" and raced off to the stairs going to the upper levels of the Manor. "Police girl get back here!" he yelled from her doorway "We need to have a talk!" Seeing her ignore him only made his angry grow even more. "OH YOU'RE DONE TALKING! YOU SAID ENOUGH I'M JUST GETTING STARTED!!" she yelled over her shoulder, eyes burning right through him; she was already on the top floor. Storming passed a bewildered Walter with Alucard right on her heels she bolted for Sir Integra's office and was on the top floor in a matter of seconds. Walter and Alucard stared up her with a look of confusion from Walter, and a look of pure angry from Alucard. "Police girl will you stop acting like a child!!!" he yelled at her, she was looking down at them arms crossed tightly over her chest. Her eyes managed to turn a deeper shade of red, she beginning to snarl. "I'M ACTING LIKE A CHILD!!!" she screamed at him "PLEASE PRAY TELL HOW I'M ACTING LIKE A DAMN CHILD!!" they were know in a weird glaring contest eyes burning through each other. There arguing brought Integra out of her office. "What in god's name is going on out here?" she asked irritation thick in her voice. "Sir" Seras broke there staring game and turned her back on Alucard and Walter. "May I Have A Word With You…Please" she pleaded, tears ran down her face, her hands in a tight fist, she was shaking in rage. Integra looked the girl up and down and couldn't say no to the girl in the state she was in. Beckoning the girl to go into her office she ordered no one to come into her office until they were done then followed Seras into her study, shutting and locking the doors behind her.
"Sir Alucard…what did you do to Miss Victoria?" He asked carefully not to enrage the nosferatu again. Alucard, whose eyes continued to stare where Seras and Integra left, sighed harshly, his eyes closed in frustration. "Something stupid Walter, something utterly stupid."
In Sir Integra's Study
Seras sat nervously in her chair, eyes downcast on the floor, she was twiddling her thumbs. The silence in the room could've been cut with a knife so to end it; Integra cleared her throat and began to speak "Officer Victoria, what is the problem?" she asked leaning forward in her chair and rested her arms stiffly on her oak desk. Seras mumbled something under her breath. "Speak up, Victoria I cannot understand you" she ordered to her a bit to harshly. Seras took a deep calming breath and looked up determination in her eyes. "Sir I know this is asking a lot from you and I have shouldn't even be asking you this from what I did, which I take full responsibility for, but…this will be the only thing I ever asked from you will you give it to me?" she stated looking her straight in her eyes. Integra was slightly speechless for a moment from the boldness of her; she never looked her straight in her eyes without looking on the floor or stuttering over her words, shaking her head to break her daze she was in. She stared back, surprising she didn't back down. "Yes, Seras I can give you what you need state it for me and it will be" giving a small smile when she seen the look of surprise in her eyes, she went silent for a moment and began again "Thank you…Sir…what I'm going to ask is a lot…"she trailed off for a heartbeat and began once more " I want one year of freedom to train and get control of myself again and to see what I've become" she boldly eyes never leaving Integra's. "Will you do this for me…please?" her eyes begging silently for her, she was always too proud to beg. Integra stood up from her desk, Seras followed, there eyes never left each others. Integra's small smile came back on her face " Officer Victoria, though you don't deserve this and yes you don't ask for a lot if any, I will grant you this due to your contribution as a Hellsing solider you have wonders since you came here and I cannot deny you" She watch her eyes light up with joy. "Thank You, Sir!--" she exclaimed
"But— there is one condition"
"Yes Sir, what is it!" she asked eagerly her eyes still bright with joy. "I except you back as a full midian you must be in control and intact of what you become, I do not care how you do it but I want it done." Seras looked horrified she couldn't hide it she was bout to say something when Integra cut her off with a raise of her hand "And when you come back as a full midian I will have to bind you to Hellsing, just like Alucard, is this fair?" This was on order not a demand she accepted it done. Seras eyes were now hidden under her bangs, totally emotionless. She held out her hand to her "Do we have a deal or shall I give you to the wrath of the wolf down below?" she asked knowing all too well Alucard was down below waiting and watching and listening through the links.
Seras raised her head proudly, her decision was made.
"It's a deal, Sir Integra" They each were smiling at each other, eyes never left the others, even when they shook hands. "Seras, I except you back in one year you are doing this alone correct?"
"Yes Sir, I am"
"Then you are free, I will order Alucard not to follow you in anyway or form this is what it's all about am I correct?" She watched the girls eyes darken "Yes it is but can you tell the heartless bastard something for me?" smiling as innocently as she could. Raising a brow at her for not calling him "master" she answered cautiously "Yes what is it?"
"Tell him for me that I hate him and I'll see him in a year you damn heartless bastard who I hope dies a slow and painful death" that innocent smile never left her face. Integra was beyond shocked that Seras said that about him and even asked her to report that to him. But she found herself dumbly nodding her head to her. "Thank you Sir, I will be going know" she walked toward the window opened it and sat down on the ledge as if she was about to jump. "Goodbye and good luck "One last smile and she jumped out of the window. Integra ran to the window fearing she injured herself. Integra watched as she landed gracefully on the ground and pulled a bag from the bushes. Integra leaned on the window and called down to her "You were going to leave even you didn't get permission Officer Victoria" Amusement shining in her eyes. Seras looked up at her "Yes sir I was"
"You cease to amaze me Seras"
"I know Sir, I know."
Integra watched Seras pull out a key from her pocket and walked out to a heavily forested area and pulled the branches and leaves off of what looked like...Integra squinted to see what it was…her mouth gaped open in pure surprise…it was a motorcycle! How in God's holy name did she get a motorcycle! "Seras Where Did You Get a Motorcycle from?!?!" She watched her turn on the ignition and motorcycle purred to life, latching her bag to the to the straps on the side, she jumped on and out on her helmet. Grinning mischievously up at her she answered. "I will tell you in a year Sir….in a year" With that she drove off into the starry abyss.
"You cease to amaze me Seras Victoria, You cease to amaze me"
whispered a stunned Integra.
TBC…..
Chapter Two: Time Matters
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Naikoru