Hello everyone :) It's my first fanfiction in english, and english isn't my native language, so pleassssse, be nice with me, it's a true exercice for me! :D
Lob' on you!
The Valley of the Dolls.
In the Valley of the dolls we sleep,
Got a hole inside of me
I-La renarde
**Bien sûr, vous pourriez comprendre, ce que cette âme était pour moi*
Un par terre de fleurs d'orange, allongée là tout contre moi.
C'était par une nuit blanche, passant par-là, passant par-là
Je pleurai sans le faire entendre,
Quelque amour d'autrefois.
(Translation in the end)**
In her mind, all was foggy.
She wasn't able to discern what was real or not, and the only real sensation she had at this moment was pain. A sharp pain running over her skin, her muscles, her bones, making her body convulse fiercely.
What happened? She wasn't really able to tell, and her head was so painful, thinking was the last thing she wanted.
**It was a pretty afternoon, the sun was high, and a warm wind was playing in the leaves.
"Finally, you managed to wake up!"
It was her voice, sweet and attentive. She noticed she was laying down against her friend's chest.
"I had a bad dream."
With her hand, the white haired girl cuddled her black curly head, trying to reassure her.
"You were far away, someone separated us…" She felt her tears coming to her eyes, the other girl gave her a hug.
"Nobody will be able to do that, remember? We are the same soul halved.
- I remember." **
Another memory. Another fucking memory, fragment of her life she wanted to forget, just to not suffer anymore.
It was usual, memories came back in the worst moment, the moment when she was fighting with her body, against her stupid malediction.
"That's nothing… soon it'll be over.. .it'll pass.."
But no, it wasn't, she was dying without further ado.
She was dying, dying in his hands and it seems that no solution showed to avoid that.
He wasn't specialized in medicine, and the doctor he called earlier wasn't able to help her, the hospital was too far… she was just dying .
What trouble.
At the origin, he was sent to this lost little border village in Minbo Republic, to hunt a strange new animal. A trouble-maker beast that terrorized the region.
What a deception he felt when he noticed that it wasn't a beast from an unknown species, but just… just a girl. Sure, finding her was a true challenge, her ability to disappear was quite curious, and very handful. He only managed to capture her because of her "illness".
He made some research, but nothing really helped.
Then, a violent spasm shook her body, attracting his attention. She was scratching her neck painfully.
He considered the girl one instant, stood up, and stopped the girl from hurting herself more.
The man looked annoyed, and decided to remove the piece of fabric covering her neck. He discovered something interesting and quite disgusting too: she had some strange deep marks on the skin, oozing, purulent. It's looks clearly painful. The marks had some very elaborate shapes, moving slowly like serpents… moving… it wasn't so usual to an injury to move.
He came back to his chair in front of the laptop and began another research.
Maybe with that information, he'll find something about that "illness"?.
A minute ago, she was suffering atrociously, ant the next minute, nothing, nothing but solace.
She felt her muscles relax, and the painful headache she had decided to leave her, finally. She was emerging, slowly.
First, she perceived that she wasn't in her humid cave, but lying on a bed.
She noticed that someone's hand was holding her neck, the girl tried to move, but her body was still too weak. She managed to open her eyes to see someone above her.
"What the fuck?" Her voice was broken, weak , even in that condition, she was trying to undo take his hand. She has a strong accent, a tanned skin, and some features clearly from another country. She has a candid face, and looked young, too young he though.
"Stop moving."
Another hand forced her to stay in bed. She wanted to jump on her foot and run away far, but she couldn't: she was glued here. She knew at this moment she'll not able to resist anymore his orders. She knew she had lost her freedom.
The girl breathed hard, trying not to cry like a baby, then turned her strange gaze to him.
This girl has magenta eyes, too serious for her young appearance.
He was just staring at her gravely, maybe analyzing her reactions, she had the certitude he was a hunter, and not one of these amateurs one… no…
The girl came up the sleeve of his sweater, and detailed the mark he was now wearing, like an old scar, but the shape was quite the same as hers. He noticed them, but didn't react.
"You shouldn't have done this"
She said finally after a long cold silence. She had difficulties speaking: her fever hasn't leave her already. The man stood up, still looking at her with calm.
"I hadn't so much choice, you were dying."
He didn't imagined the consequences of this act, the most important for him, at this moment, was to save a life. Just that.
The girl sighed, like she understood what he was thinking at this moment .
"And now, what will you do?"
She was angry, and he felt it easily, she was scared too… very scared.
"I'm on a mission. But when you feel better, you can go wherever you wa..
- No. – She interrupted, sharply.-No, I can't." Her eyes rested on him, again. "You bonded us, until your death. "
He suddenly realized the implications of his act. "… God… and she hates me…" he thought.
The girl turned her back and hid herself into the blankets, she was tired, and her head was heavy.
"I don't hate you, Kite…" He winced. "It's me… it's me I hate the most. "
** It was nightfall when she arrived in this lost border village, she never was able to remember the name, but it wasn't important.
Village wasn't the best word to describe the place: it was nothing but poor vestigial cottages. A main street in stones, the others were in clay, and nothing... nothing but sheep, cows, pigs strolling there.
No one's in the main street, just one cat searching for food, a cold silence welcomed her.
She searched for a hotel, or something that looked like one: nothing.
Maybe one of these people could host her? The girl would knock on a door, when her intuition shouts at her not. How trust people so easily? and if "they" had relations here?
She felt her feelings were melting: she was anxious, she was scared, she was lost and alone. So alone.
She decided to find somewhere hidden to sleep, and stay away from the people. A good think she has a good stealth: she stole what she needed, and after... after she would deal with it later.
She found shelter in a cave in the woods.**
She woke up the next morning with the unpleasant feeling that someone had scooped her head. Cheshire sat in her bed, and looked around. She thought, in the first place, that all happened earlier was just a dream, but it wasn't.
She was in a little room, modestly decorated: a bed, a chair, a table, a mirror, and two doors, but nobody, nobody there.
Anxiety reached her, something was going wrong, she felt like a trapped animal, disappeared in a colored fog, and reappeared in the next room- a tiny poor living room with a computer- she was furious.
"HOW DO YOU DARE?"
A silence welcomed her.
"Ches…- Kite tried to say something, she interrupted him, again.
- Ho no, no Cheshire, or Chessa, or nothing! You ransacked my memories without asking, and worst! Just three days after the contract… how do you dare being so strong? "
Chessa had a dramatic expression on her face, she didn't stand someone being so strong and playing with her… No way! She was the one who play with the others! It was for her a shame.
- Chessa… you're…you're half naked. "Managed to say the slender man in front of her. He was trying to keep neutral. In the screen of the computer, she could see a red embarrassed face, Kite was speaking with someone, and this person was able to see her.
"Ho" The girl kept the silence one instant, put her hands on her hips, and with all her dignity, said: "And so what? Don't avoid the subject, please."
Cheshire wasn't someone bashful, worst, she acted like her nudity was something normal, trite.
Kite had a lot of scenarios in mind, how she could react, be, but this one was far worse, she was totally shameless, and it was just the second day of cohabitation. He rubbed his temples, sighed:
"Later Chessa.. we're working…"
Cheshire blinked twice, then a smile appeared on her face:
"Ho, Hello! Nice to meet you, I'm Cheshire, you also can call me Chessa, or Chessie… or whatever you want."
She ran to the computer screen, pushed Kite and bet, with a smile.
"Don't" His voice in her head stopped her, and she only turned to look at him, with gravity. Ho god, he was that good, able to see her intentions so easily…
"Ok, ok, let me know when you need me, I'm going to take a bath."
She disappeared.
"Hell man…" said his interlocutor "She's…"
"Troublemaker." Concluded Kite.
When she returned from the bathroom two hours later, she was finally completely dressed. Spending time alone was difficult for her, now, and something urged her to come back near her contractor. She hated the feeling it gave her, she felt that she doesn't have the luxury to have her own feelings, her own desires. "I'm not an empty doll" .
Cheshire found Kite alone, in the room. He was sitting on the chair, lost in his thoughts.
Damn…. She bit her lower lip, looking quite nervous, wanting to run away far, far, far.
"What are your skills?"
Sharp and calm, he was keeping his stern look on her, he was scary .
"Ho, come on, I'm a professional hunter…
- I know that, I've already made some researches on you… but it's seems we haven't all the information.
-Yes, sure, I'll give to the hunter Association all about me and my adorable malediction. And then, I'll be like a treasure, something to hunt, and you, a new target"
It was obvious she experimented that kind of incident many times before meeting him.
"Let's talk straight, if you're not able to keep yourself save, I'm not letting you come with me.
- Wait, wait, wait, are you saying I'm a freaking weak girl? "– She was mad, and if eyes could kill, hers would have already slaughtered him.
"I found you almost dying in a frozen cave, lost near a border village. I heard you were there for some weeks, and causing trouble to the people here. How can you explain this fact? You were hiding from someone, but didn't have money, or prepared supplies for that…"
He was way too intelligent for her sake, this contract was announced difficult, REALLY difficult.
Chessa remained in silence, how could she argue to that? He was right: she made mistakes, just like a beginner. And in the other hand...her health wasn't something she was proud, not really.
She felt another urge, to sit near him, and ask for reassurance, just like a little cat… and NO, she didn't want that, not with someone she only knew for some hours, she wanted to act with a little dignity. The girl was fighting against herself, it was obvious how her muscles tensed suddenly. Her look so sure a few seconds earlier reflected now all her doubts.
"I… I'm…a specialist… " Finally said Cheshire. "I'm able to disappear and reappear, as you saw… Intangibility.. too… I can make myself intangible. "
He kept silent, knowing there are more to come.
" Well… and… my other competences depends on your strength, your qualities, your defaults, and... and other things. Usually, I can heal my contractor, allow him to use my aura reserves, avoid him fatal injuries. I don't know what I'll be able to do with you. "
She looked at him again, and knew she had to continue, hiding something now wasn't the most brilliant idea. She looked away, fighting against herself.
"You already discovered it, you can read in my mind, and I can do either, it's a way to communicate… in return, you have to stabilize my aura. It's too dense and powerful for my body…and, I don't eat… not in the normal way."
Kite stood up, and put his large hand on her head, smiling. She didn't say all, he knew that, but for now, it was enough.
"Stop doing that" She finally said with the expression of bored kitten in her face.
- Why? Is it disturbing?
- Nup… just, if you continue like this, I couldn't help but hug you."
**Moi j'voudrais juste qu'on m'apprivoise,**
Qu'on m'apprivoise,
Moi j'voudrais juste qu'on m'apprivoise,
Qu'on m'apprivoise,
Sans me juger sans me blesser
Sans me chasser sans me garder.**
Credits:
Valley of the Dolls- Marina and the Diamonds.
Link:
La renarde- Weeper Circus/ Olivia Ruiz.
link : /1nbpc91z5mM
* Of course, you may understand, what this soul means for me,
A ground of Orange flowers, lying there against me,
It was during a night without sleep, passing there, passing there,
I was crying in silence
for some former love.
(If happiness let you down,
It may come for the woods,
And take the reins of destiny,
Listen to me, Listen to me )
** I just want someone to tame me
Someone tame me,
I just want someone to tame me
Someone tame me,
Without judging me, without hurting me,
Without chasing me away, without keeping me.
Notes:
"La renarde" is a song about a fox who want to be tamed. It's inspired from Saint Exupéry's Little Prince.