Another Lonely Day
Random ramblings from me in order to avoid preparing for a presentation. Not exactly brillant!
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##Yes indeed I'm alone again
and here comes emptiness crashing in
it's either love or hate
I can't find in between
cause I've been with witches
and I have been with a queen##
Luka sighed as he drowned another beer. He laughed to himself as he though over the events of the day. His encounter with the therapist. Maybe he was crazy after all.
"I had a relationship with someone I cared about and then I ruined it."
Someone he cared about. Someone he loved. Whom he ached for every night since they had been apart. Who's image filled his head every waking moment, Who tortured him every second of the day.
##it wouldn't have worked out any way
so now it's just another lonely day
further along we just may
but for now it's just another lonely day##
But he'd ruined it, ruined what they had. Just like he was ruining his life. A relationship was supposed to be about communication but towards the end it was purely physical. He'd wanted more but it was hard. Hard to get Abby to unburden herself, he get her to open up, let him in. He'd felt pushed away and he'd let her create barriers, build up walls. He'd made no attempt to knock them down. Instead he'd wallowed. Did make the effort to put up a fight for the woman he loved. He thought back to that night.
"Carter can have you.."
He was a fool. He didn't want Carter or anyone else to have her, only him.
##wish there was something
I could say or do
I can resist anything
but temptation from you
but I'd rather walk alone
than chase you around
I'd rather fall myself
than let you drag me down##
He wished he could go back and change things. They exchanged the occasional conversation but never about anything of great value. He would do anything to get her back, but what was there he could do. Nothing but sit on the sidelines and watch her and Carter. Feel his heart breaking. Break down and cry when he was at home alone can in hand. Men don't cry but there was nothing else he could do. Hurt and anger consumed him. Bitterness ruled his heart. So he was fumbling along having meaningless sex as if it could somehow make him feel better. Who was he kidding only she could do that. Heal him, put him back together. But it was as if she was a million miles away from him. He sank back on the couch, continuing to drown his sorrows, block out the pain that consumed him.
##yesterday seems like a life ago
cause the one I love
today I hardly know you I held so close in my heart oh dear
grow further from me
with every fallen tear##
Little did he know Abby's face contained the same pained expression as she finished the bottle of vodka she had started half an hour early. She willed the numbness to come so she could forget.....
it wouldn't have worked out any way
so now it's just another lonely day
further along we just may
but for now it's just another lonely day
-The song is another lonely day by Ben Harper.
Random ramblings from me in order to avoid preparing for a presentation. Not exactly brillant!
~~
##Yes indeed I'm alone again
and here comes emptiness crashing in
it's either love or hate
I can't find in between
cause I've been with witches
and I have been with a queen##
Luka sighed as he drowned another beer. He laughed to himself as he though over the events of the day. His encounter with the therapist. Maybe he was crazy after all.
"I had a relationship with someone I cared about and then I ruined it."
Someone he cared about. Someone he loved. Whom he ached for every night since they had been apart. Who's image filled his head every waking moment, Who tortured him every second of the day.
##it wouldn't have worked out any way
so now it's just another lonely day
further along we just may
but for now it's just another lonely day##
But he'd ruined it, ruined what they had. Just like he was ruining his life. A relationship was supposed to be about communication but towards the end it was purely physical. He'd wanted more but it was hard. Hard to get Abby to unburden herself, he get her to open up, let him in. He'd felt pushed away and he'd let her create barriers, build up walls. He'd made no attempt to knock them down. Instead he'd wallowed. Did make the effort to put up a fight for the woman he loved. He thought back to that night.
"Carter can have you.."
He was a fool. He didn't want Carter or anyone else to have her, only him.
##wish there was something
I could say or do
I can resist anything
but temptation from you
but I'd rather walk alone
than chase you around
I'd rather fall myself
than let you drag me down##
He wished he could go back and change things. They exchanged the occasional conversation but never about anything of great value. He would do anything to get her back, but what was there he could do. Nothing but sit on the sidelines and watch her and Carter. Feel his heart breaking. Break down and cry when he was at home alone can in hand. Men don't cry but there was nothing else he could do. Hurt and anger consumed him. Bitterness ruled his heart. So he was fumbling along having meaningless sex as if it could somehow make him feel better. Who was he kidding only she could do that. Heal him, put him back together. But it was as if she was a million miles away from him. He sank back on the couch, continuing to drown his sorrows, block out the pain that consumed him.
##yesterday seems like a life ago
cause the one I love
today I hardly know you I held so close in my heart oh dear
grow further from me
with every fallen tear##
Little did he know Abby's face contained the same pained expression as she finished the bottle of vodka she had started half an hour early. She willed the numbness to come so she could forget.....
it wouldn't have worked out any way
so now it's just another lonely day
further along we just may
but for now it's just another lonely day
-The song is another lonely day by Ben Harper.