Here is a new story from me and I hope that you will all like it, please let me know what you think of it.

This story is divided in two parts, both of them is written in first person point of view, but one is from Alex perspective and the other one is from Marissa's and I'm not sure on which is which I think that you could apply both of them to both parts and I would like to know how you read this.

Disclaimer: I don't own the OC it belongs to its rightful owners I am just using the fandom to write this. The song that has given the title to this is Total Eclipse of the Heart, there are a few versions but I am thinking of the Bonnie Taylor version and I don't own that, so I would recommend listening to it.

Total Eclipse of the Heart

Part 1

Turn around every now and then I get a little bit lonely and you're never coming round
Turn around every now and then I get a little bit tired of listening to the sound of my tears
Turn around every now and then I get a little bit nervous that the best of all the years have gone by
Turn around every now and then I get a little bit terrified and then I see the look in your eyes

I can remember that night so clearly. I can't honestly say how it came to this end but I wish that I could then maybe I could do something so that it would be some other way. As I saw that you walked away I prayed that you would turn around and if you did just that then I would know that you still cared about me.

If you turned around then I would be able to see your eyes again, your bright eyes.

I wish that I would have gone after you that night or the day after that, just so that I would have been able to talk to you before you left. After you left my tears started to fall and they haven't stopped falling and I'm not sure that they ever will. I so tired of hearing myself cry myself to sleep every night and I think that my friends are feeling the same.

It has been so damn long since that night not a week, not a month, not a year. It have been longer than that, I don't know how long time it has been but it have been longer than it should have. The first months and year or so I was nervous that the time had passed by too fast.

Now to this day I am afraid that all the best years have passed and I haven't spent them with you, I have spent them all alone and I know deep down in my heart that was not the way that you wanted this to end up that is how I ended up in the long haul. I was with someone for the first year or so, that's a lie it was a lot of different people, no one compare to you and still don't know why I was looking for someone else when I knew who it would be that I was supposed to be looking for.

And I can remember the look in your eyes when you turned around at one point and it was just for a second and couldn't do a single thing. I was just frozen in that one spot where I was standing and I wish that I could have taken at least on step towards you that might have meant that you would have stayed here with me in some way.

I myself often find myself turn around when I see someone on the street that reminds me of you, and most of the time I find myself do a double check just to make sure that it isn't you that is walking down there, And when I see the look in the woman's eyes I kind of get a little scared because that is the look in your eyes that I see when you walked away.

Turn around, bright eyes Every now and then I fall apart
Turn around, bright eyes Every now and then I fall apart

I can still remember the light in your eyes. The truth is that your eyes are the brightest that I have ever seen and I know that I will never see those again. And when I think about that I fall apart and there is nothing that I can think of that I can do so that I will see your eyes again.

I kind of hope that you one day will come to me and tell me what to do so that I can see your eyes again.

All I wanted was for you to turn around that night so that I could see you one last time so that I knew that I did the right thing but you never turned around and there for I will never know if I did the right thing.

But when I listen to my heart I know the answer to that question but I can't still say the answer out loud that would just mean that it would be real and that is one thing that I don't want it to be.

And I need you now tonight and I need you more than ever
And if you only hold me tight We'll be holding on forever
And we'll only be making it right 'cause we'll never be wrong
Together we can take it to the end of the line
Your love is like a shadow on me all of the time (all of the time)
I don't know what to do and I'm always in the dark
We're living in a powder keg and giving off sparks
I really need you tonight, forever's gonna start tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight

Tonight is one of those nights that I feel the most alone and I know that if you would have been here with me I wouldn't be feeling alone. I know that I need you, I need you more know then I have ever needed someone and I don't know why that is.

If you had your arms around me I know that I would tell you to hold on me forever and even if you couldn't do that I know that I would be holding on to you forever.

I know that what I feel for you could never be wrong, not for me and not for you but at the same time I know that there are people that think that what I feel for you is wrong but if the two of us where here together I know that we could finish this race that we are in together to the end and that is all that matter to me.

I know that you loved me and that love makes it so much harder for me to move on like I know that I should be doing. Your love is like a shadow over my heart and over me, it is there all the time. Your love for me was so strong and I hold on to it more than I should and that means that I don't know what I am supposed to do. I just feel like I am in the dark and I can't find the light that I need to move on. I hate that shadow it makes everything so much darker and I honestly think that you are the only one that can make that shadow shrink and in the end go away so that my life once again can be brighter, that is all that I want.

We lived together and maybe that is the reason that I can't find the light that need. Maybe you were the light in the dark for me and that when we were together it gave me some kind of sparks to lighten up the darkness inside of me when you weren't there with me but now that you are gone those sparks is nowhere to be found.

All I know is that I really need you tonight but I have no idea on where I would be able to find you. There are too much going on in my life for me to want to find you, all I want is for you to come to my door and just stand there looking at me and smiling so that your eyes are as bright as I remember them and that the smile that you sometimes have also will be there, that is all that I am asking for.

Because I know if you would be standing there I know that the forever that I have been looking for will be starting tonight. That is all that I want.

I want for forever to start tonight, that isn't too much to ask for right.