Rookie Blue

|| Andy McNally and Sam Swarek ||

This one takes place after "Hot & Bothered"… & oh my gosh how that ending frustrated me. Here's my take on that scene, with more depth into the characters' feelings.

Chapter 1: Andy's POV

Andy sat on her couch, distraught from what happened earlier that day. The fact that she had to take that shot, that her job included the possibility of having to kill a person, and the concept that filing some paperwork and completing a few interviews could make it disappear forever... disgusted Andy.

Granted, the guy was a scumbag, he got better than what he deserved after what he'd done to those poor children, but Andy wasn't the kind of person to just forget all about what she'd done simply because it was the right thing to do. Her conscience haunted her. And now she couldn't stop replaying that whole scene in her mind, along with everything that led up to it.

Then she thought about Luke, how insensitive and callous he could be at times. Her gut wrenched as she thought about their previous conversation repeatedly. How sometimes her feelings seemed to be miniscule in comparison to the case he was working at that time...

These bad memories were then interrupted by her thoughts towards Sam, while, at the same time, unintentionally comparing him and Luke. Luke made her unhappy, every time she needed someone to talk to, someone to turn to, he had unfinished business to deal with, and that he'd have to catch up with her later.

But with Sam, it was different. He was there for her, when she needed it or even when all she wanted to do was be left alone. Regardless, she's now realizing how much he cares for her and how all he's trying to do is help… yet she just keeps pushing him away.

Trusting someone had never come easily for Andy. A major part of this had come from her father's drinking problem. Every time that she wanted to give in, that she wanted to rely on him, that she wanted to believe that this time, this time, he would do everything in his power to control his urges, in an effort to be there for her as she progressed in her career, it ended with her drowning in hurt, humility, and depression. And she couldn't handle dealing with that again.

The tears kept flowing, falling from her cheeks and landing softly onto her jeans. Her head was bent down, her eyes in line with the floor, her vision blurred, her head pounding.

Her elbows dug painfully into her thighs as her hands ran angrily through her hair. She was frustrated, confused, and vulnerable.

She got up, in search for something, anything that could rationalize what she was feeling.

And from here, it didn't take long for her to decide who to turn to. The one person who she felt she could trust, who understood what she was going through, and could ease her pain.

Sam.

She was on edge, nervously anticipating what to do, what to say, how to act. But somehow, as she made her way out of her place, she knew that she didn't really have to know what to do, what to say, or how to act… She was going to meet with Sam, with whom she felt comfortable showing her raw emotions, and her true faults... and for the first time, Andy realized that there was no other person in the world right now who she trusted or longed for as much as him.

She stepped up to his door. While standing on his porch, millions of thoughts were running through her head. She knocked, swallowing all of her fear, and waited anxiously for a response. Here he opened it, his presence already calming her insecurities, and searched for the right words to say.

She hadn't needed to, for after a few seconds, he'd said everything she needed and wanted to hear, to confirm her feelings about him.

"You want to talk?"

The way Sam said this made her feel like she could go to him about anything, that he'd always be there for her, and that he'd always want to be there.

A surge of passion and appreciation swelled into Andy's heart, catalyzing her already emotional state.

She shook her head no to Sam's offer, which took him back, and giving him no time to register anything, she stepped closer to him, pushing him against the wall, kissing him passionately, and letting go of all of her worries or concerns. She wanted nothing but him now, longing for his comfort and energy.

Which Sam, with no hesitation, gave to her. He was surprised by her actions, but so content at the same time. He'd been holding back his feelings all this time as well. But now, the rules, the protocols, the obstacles… had seemed to vanish. It was just him and Andy, and he took advantage of every last second he had with her.